Dont you fear finding out the truth about my soul... who am I, how far gone I am, but it is the only way to wake up my soul and make it reach for God. I hope I will be saved, I hope God free me and forgives me for all the despair, blasphemy, resistance I commited against Him, I hope I made righteous again by Jesus Christ to live the correct life. I dont wanna be far gone forever.
I hope He stills searchs for me, but I cant convince myself about it, it seems like im cutting off from Him
I feel you, anon. Not only do I fear what is inside of me considering my past tendencies, I have also had experiences of something (possibly an unconscious part of myself) telling me directly that if I keep looking for answers I will literally "go insane".But with how much normal life has been driving me crazy as of late, I think it's not that high of a price.
>>41674805Who are you indeed? Why dont you keep asking yourself that question, but sincerely inquire into that sense of "I" look for it within yourself, try to find it's source. Then "you" will "know"
>>41674805I often feel fear when trying to go forward in my real life. It comes from nowhere and I can't explain it, I feel like it's maybe related to the fact that when you choose a road you abandon the other. Buck not when I'm searching for the truth, when I approach it, I suddenly feel very sad and I cry. I have no clue why.
