I've been unnaturally unlucky my entire life. Every pleasure has been a vehicle to experiencing even greater pain. All my friends have abandoned me, all my relationships have failed in the same kind of cyclical pattern. I can't hold down a job, and at this point I can't even get past interviews in the first place. Whenever I try to start something creative, the file gets corrupted, and when I try it physically, the project always gets damaged or destroyed somehow. Stock trading is the same, I never lose money permanently, I just stay in the same place, never gaining anything significant, never losing anything significant. It's pretty much impossible to live at this rate. I've gotten really depressed, and am sometimes unable to make it out of bed for most of the day, since I know it won't be worth it anyways. Games are unfun since all RNG works against me. Reading is the last pleasure I have left, but even that pleasure is rapidly dwindling.I really think I'm cursed. I'm diagnosed schizotypal but I don't think it's a mental health thing, since getting more active and medication haven't helped my situation at all. I don't know how this happened or what cursed me. I've been generally unlucky for my entire life, but it's intensified since my teenage years. Can anyone help me? I feel hopeless.
Dear Lord, please remove whatever curse is afflicting this anime posting faggot. He doesn't deserve it, but I ask you to please help him anyway. Amen.
>>41676771Thanks, anon...I never really thought about the idea that I'm cursed because I deserve it. It's kind of hard to remove a curse that makes you unable to do much if the criteria for removing it are changing your actions, though. Ugh.....
>>41676716> Every pleasure has been a vehicle to experiencing even greater pain.> schizotypalCould be a wide range of possibilities like you being a ‘psychic’ and self-imprisoning through doubt leading to probability shifts towards you lossing. Stop jerking off and every morning when you wake up sit in a lotus position completely naked and jerk off to completion. keep your back straight and the entire time repeat the mantra “I HAVE MOTION”, watch some insta reel gambling reels before and after. After a few days stop this to retain semen and see if you can sense a difference, also learn to doubt yourself less, if you have motion you will flow like water towards your goals
>>41677043I don't really jerk off at all, should I start?
>>41676716Change your own mindset about yourself and your life.It helps if you try to live a good, virtuous life, while being authentic to yourself.Even if someone else cursed you, you're the one perpetuating its existence. It'll take time, but things will break through one by one.
>>41677043that is the worst empirical experiment i have ever read aboutholy shit man>>41676716Get fit dude you have a) like holes in your brain or something i dont mean it literally but like knowledge gaps so nothing goes smoothly causally b) maybe literal fucking demons fucking with you but it's like inversely correlated with true reality bear with me now, it's like being in a dreamstate, and entities in the dream are fucking with you perceptually and keeping you in the dreamstate so it's like real to you but there is some series of transformations personal to your life that can have you carry yourself to wakefulness in a sort of raw reality sort of wayGet what im saying?schizotypal means stuck in a dreamstate, is my personal interpretation. that gives freedom since you can choose direction in reality more fluidly by actively directing, and it flows into core reality shared by everyone. but if the dreamstate is working against you e g you are not in control not directing then you have to wake up best way is to just get fit as fuck healthy as fuck good travel to new countries get categorically different experiences from different cities cultures languages read more books think logically and work hardi hope that makes sense
