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the fact that I left my body one time

It's self apparent. Doubt was introduced because you went to goyschool.

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Materialism doesn't explain why I'm experiencing life as this person and not as someone else.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vertiginous_question

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https://benthams.substack.com/p/you-are-a-soul

>For a while, I was a hard-line Parfitian. I agreed with Parfit about most things—moral realism, for a short time even the triple theory (though this was because I was confused about what rule utilitarianism was—in my defense, I was in 11th grade), and reductionism about personal identity. But over time, I feel myself slowly departing from the Parfit party line (try saying that three times fast!) and abandoning many of Parfit’s beliefs. Despite Parfit’s obvious brilliance, the arc of history so far has largely bent away from him. Here I’ll describe the considerations that move me away from reductionism about personal identity and towards the soul theory.

>>41684042
The existence of form and particularity. The world is a part of the soul.

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>>41684042
Tesla.

>>41684042
That I want souls to exist.

>>41684150
But that's backwards. Materialism is the only theory that has an answer.
>you don't experience any other system because your awareness is directly created by the material system
It is when you suggest there is some eternal soul, or some Monist awareness, that you have to explain why this vessel and not another.

>>41684042
Logic.
A radio without a signal, an electrical device without an animating (energetic) principle. A computer without code defining its design.
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Imagine looking into your house, as aware and lucid as you are now, and proclaiming no-one lives there because you are on the outside of it looking in.
Don't mistake the vessel as your identity. instead, look back towards the strings pulling you, and animating your own motives.
The soul is not in you, but it does animate you, just as a signal animates a functional radio.

>>41684042
questioning the world around me and existence
questioning the words and truths of other people
questioning the faiths
and the question "why am i in here and not in there"

i think it really started when i wondered why i would stay up all night scared of what was in the dark, feeling like i was being watched and judged and tested

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