just realized my subconscious (me) is my greatest enemy.is there anyway to kill your subconscious mind?it has been the most counterproductive retarded bitch i have ever dealt with in my life.i want it disciplined or gone.
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>>41731390What the wrong with you? Don't mess with usual structure of mind.
>>41731390it wont go away, but you may find a way to balance it. thing is, the only way to do it is to accept your emotions with rationality. A simple example is: you wouldn't think about killing someone, but it's fair to think about beating that person up.There's a balance. sorry anon, i'm just projecting my own shit. i truly wish you find what you're looking for. its a hard world of a human
>>41731471>what's wrong with youidk, but my subconscious mind feels like a parasitic demon or total bitch.intrusive thoughts, nightmarish horrific hypnagogic hallucination, chronic thinking and metathinking and blocking me from taking actions, giving me paranoid thinking and superstitions (OCD), constantly whispering to me how my next action in life is going to be my doom and end up in the most horrific way possible.just can't live with it.>>41731490i wish i could discipline it or beat the shit out of it. i just want it to be balanced and stop interfering with my day to day life.it has been the third time this week i get hypnagogic hallucination about dying in the most horrific way possible. i fear going to bed now.
>>41731552isnt it opposite. ruminating is from you if u can figure out how to be less conscious more intuitive its better
>>41731555nice digitsidk. usually i am very fine throughout the day. but when i try to meditate or fall asleep. my subconscious kicks in and starts giving me hallucinations, intrusive thoughts etc... most of which are horrific and suffocating.if i catch myself i would try to fight it. but i can't most of the time.
>>41731390Your subconscious is there for you to dream. Your subconscious is there for you to forget bad memories. But I have forced it to follow me. Basically this; Go to a mirror and have rage upon yourself and then punch the mirror with your brute force. Then draw what ever sigil you like on a paper. Then put it on a ceiling where you sleep.That's it. it'll make your subconscious go away.
>>41731390Try taking up open monitoring meditation. It will help you control your mind.