Some malevolent and powerful being is torturing me. It is very subtle and I have been gathering evidence for years and now I am more than sure of it.It is a subtle psychological torture. Something bad happens to me every day and now all those small effects stacked up and I wish to die.Every time I wanted to kill myself someone I know would magically appear out of nowhere and stop me. Once, somehow I managed to hide from everyone and when I tried to kill myself with a knife, somehow, knife couldn't penetrate me. Then I tried with another knife, same problem. I even tried to sharpen both knives and it didn't work. Every time I had this idea that I am actually in hell being tortured, something good would happen to me out of nowhere so would I forget about this. But, few months ago that bitch took my will to live and I can not shake this idea out of my head.I have tons of proof it knows what I think. It doesn't allow me to kill myself. What is the point of fighting it when I have tons of proof of me being powerless against it. Tried praying to all Gods and going to Church. I tried communicating with it by leaving it notes and every time I did that, I would be awaken at 3:00 AM exactly and then nothing.I need ideas on what to do... How can I get it to stop? How can I communicate with it?
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>>41736612Why cant it be a curse, why is it a being?
>>41736612>I have often found that synchronistic experiences were interpreted by schizophrenics as delusions. The difference lies simply and solely in the interpretation. The schizophrenic’s interpretation is morbidly narrow because it is mostly restricted to the intentions of other people and to his own ego-importance.- Carl G. Jung
>>41736702torture adapts to my state, that is a sign of intelligence to me
>>41736612>It doesn't allow me to kill myself.Those of us who are imprisoned in the simulation are not allowed to leave prematurely.I wonder, are we the NPCs of this world? Perhaps only the real people who come here voluntarily are allowed to leave and the ones who are programmed fail to exit because we are native to the program and have no bodies to enter in the realm outside of this one?
>>41736913Bodies are not necessary, everyone who can dream is a soul sufficient to leave. I hope to facilitate astral projection precisely because, in a simulation, my system can detect/route any intent for leaving the current console. Yes, my experience as a programmer, indicates astral projection is a first class feature of any sufficient complexity digital realm/game world.OP is a communication from the primordial force Chaos, we are finally getting to the point where neither of the two roots aspects of nature can pretend to live in eternal solipsism.
>>41736612https://youtu.be/d9yintJ9P3Ahttps://youtu.be/oLbAQE_1XHIhttps://youtu.be/JrMOL0FAC1g?
>>41736702>Why cant it be a curse, why is it a being?Curses arent real. In most cases it is a being actively harassing you. In other cases it can be self imposed in the same way that if youve never seen the ocean and denied all opportunities or invitations to come see it, you will lack understanding.
>>41736612Stop ingesting toxic iron filings, seed oils and water (Daniel 2:43-44 and Revelations 8:11). Search YT for Morley Robbins and start drinking 5-stage reverse-osmosis water. Yes, I have a microscope and I see the black crap in people’s blood. Sometimes it looks as bad as depicted in the Money Power mockumentary The Titan from 2018. Sometimes worse!
>>41737796It is heavy-metal intoxication. Derealization and disassociation are common states associated with this. You might be in a hyper-burnout stage with a dorsal-vagal tone. Look up the symptoms. Search Morley Robbins on YT and drink 5-stage reverse-osmosis. Look at your blood under a microscope — it will likely be quite dirty. I’ve seen blood slides from multiple people that looked like motor oil filled with worms.
