Tell me something, M, do you think I should commit suicide once my parents die? I don't want to die before them, I just feel like I won't make it. Every time life throws a crumb of joy towards me, it comes accompanied by poisoned bread.I don't know if I'll manage it. I'm sorry to bother you, you have bigger problems of your own, but given the blows I receive every day I can't help but think that this reality has nothing for me. It's awful how my past lives have been, but nobody deserves what's happening to me. This world doesn't deserve sweetness, kindness, or love.I know you're waging your own revolution against the controllers, and that puts you in a delicate situation. I don't want anything to happen to you because you're my friend.But deep down I fear that there will be no one left to help me in situations like this and I will end up giving up.
i think you should probably get a lobotomy and fix your brain.
>>41744733I see myself in everything you just said.I feel like there's a point to all of the bullshit, and we should never give up hope.Try to make a small circle of good friends.
>>41744733If you are talking to someone. you need their contact. playing by feel and by ear is bound to end in harm. youre playing with an ego mirror and wondering why it hurts. stop it. enjoyment and love is in the embrace of it. as is the hurt. you are stuck in the fear. you are not supposed to live or die there. its supposed to be a tool to push you. dont be comfortable in fear. especially not of yourself OP.Would your parents want you to kill yourself after they pass? what would they say about it? maybe they are right. maybe thats why you love them.not M
>>41744733I want you to do whatever you wanna do and stop asking the world for permission.
>>41744733If you love them, don't make them bury their own offspring.
>>41744733Sometimes I feel when good things happen shit happens too but I just focused really hard on only the good things. I know they say that’s not good but it’s helped me a lot. That and saying no to things that werent good enough, although I still struggle. For example if I don’t like someone I don’t try to make it work I just let it fade. It may have taken years but I was able to make really good friends, which led to having a good relationship, which has led to bettering my relationship with my family too. It seems you already have a good relationship with your family so try making some friends. Even just online to start is good.
Also be honest that’s the most important thing. Be honest with yourself, what you want, and what you don’t want. Good luck anon I hope that your life becomes filled with happiness that eclipses the hard times.
>>41744733I have this new fancy scalar technique if you are interested
>>41744733Look, your life might be fake and gay, but it's your life. If you persevere you might get it sorted out, but I'm not going to lie to you and promise you will be able to. I made the decision to give it a few more goes. You have to decide if you will do the same or call it a day.
>>41744754>youre playing with an ego mirror and wondering why it hurtsYou guys wish you were actually doing something half as what you pretend how meaningful this sounds.
>>41748242Yep, empathy is a vice when doing hard oneness development
>>41744733I think suicide should only be really considered if its under the premise that you are more interested in what comes after instead of the idea of parting htis world.The mentality of "anything is better then this world" sets you up for heart ache and misery, you're practically inviting all sorts of bad thoughts and energies into your now physically freed soul when you really don't want that. Unless you are truly unburdened by this world to the point where its more like the closing of a completed book then suicide isn't really what you want, you just want the hardship of this world to end. And yeah suicide might technically bring that, but there's other options to try before that.It sounds like you still greatly care for your parents and what they think of you, if you aren't ready to put that behind you then you aren't ready for death.
>>41744733Unless I find meaning in my life at that point I plan on doing this. Im gonna liquidate everything take out a fuck load of loans and go on the cocaine and hookers tour until I run dry on cash and finish the job.
>>41748242it doesnt sound meaningful bud. its not poetry. thats why it stung.dont attack me again i do not appreciate that as reply for trying to help you.
>>41748475look. you heard camus? gotta picture sisyphus smiling. but you know what everyone forgot? to read the fucking book. this CRIMINAL OF THE GODS. FUCKED AROUND. his punishment is just. THATS why he must smile.its not that he was 'cursed by the gods'he got what he fucking deserved. THATS WHY he pushes. because he still thinks he can trick them again. he could stop and let the boulder stay. Theres no reward. theres no salvation. but he knows what the fuck he did. and heSTILL thinks in his heart, hes got one more trick. anon. be not sisyphus. fuck that guy. be like hephaestus.understand what the difference is.
>>41748475Lol sure tell yourself thatYou people create alternate dimensions and boogeymen in your mind, call it a mirror world/ego whatever and think you're being all poetic.Then don't realize that mirrors are supposed to wake you up from said delusions.But no one makes delusions more than you creative writers.When met with someone too self-aware, you become unwound and don't know what to do but regurgitate every ad-hominem known to man.Get. Over. Yourselves.
>>41748488nothing there was creative writing. nothing there was an attack.and you lash out. you say you want help. but you want to fight. thats fine. but i wont fight you. why would i?
>>41748488fuck it. im here already right? >you become unwound and don't know what to do but regurgitate every ad-hominem known to man.anon. i never attacked you.>tell yourself thatkkbro, its not meaningfulbro, its not poetrybro, i dont appreciate being attacked. now i have said this to myself. (as you told me to)I still dont think you have thought about what YOU said. let alone what anyone else has said to you.. you haven't even actually attacked 'me' just what you think would hurt me.. theres no poems here dude. nothing is pretty. its actually really a quite grim space. i heard you the first time just fucking fine bro.and i repeat. stop choosing this. you dont get to victimise yourself.
>>41744733i asked some illiterate religious woman once about suicide.she replied: >people who commit suicide are punished and go to hell.i asked her: >why?she replied: >because they killed a soul unjustly. they committed murder.i said: >but they didn't kill someone else it was their own soul.she replied while confused: >how does that matter? they have committed injustice against their own self. one could do that.i tried to push back: >yeah but they had no choice, those people are usually depressed and have gone through a lot of hardship.she said: >and what? would that justify committing murder? if it doesn't justify killing someone, it shouldn't justify killing one's self.just realized how different the traditional moral framework is from the modern liberal post-enlightenment moral framework of the west. in the latter everything is moral as long as it doesn't inflict harm on non-consenting others.in the former one, immorality is going against the natural order of the universe, without any regard for whether the parties are consenting or not or whether the action is inflicted on others or the self. you can commit immoral acts on yourself. including terminating your life. and you will get punished for it.i would like to kill myself. i am very tempted every day i live. but i wouldn't. it sucks. but i can't be mad at God, it's meaningless to be mad at existence! i don't expect anything from God. i am just doing my role in his play. i have no other options.
>>41744733Why you asking for help from me? Didn’t you dump me and tell me to kill myself?
A polish clairvoyant channelled or had a vision of robin williams He said that after he died he was in a black and white world that had no colour, everything felt hopeless and there were creatures there like dogs who also committed suicide and felt unwanted and forgotten It makes me sad to think that a place like that exists, sometimes we are heartless and cruel without giving it any thought He said that it is possible to escape that world by showing care, it added bursts of colour to that world, eventually he was able to escape with the dog he'd met
>>41748861>Pleasantville therapy
>>41744733Who the fuck is "M"?
>>41752057Megan Thee Stallion
>>41752075I thought it was Moesha
>>41744733If you are an only child then it would be as if they died a second time, but you murdered them. If you're all that will be left of them when they die then you have a moral obligation to them to try your best to live on.
>>41744733there are plenty of good normies I would unironically would like do disappear myself and all antisocials, but let the world be nice for people that deserve it I cant wait for judgement
>>41744733Hey buddy, hope you keep living on. You just have to find purpose in life. Your parents would want you to live on and find happiness even after their death. I hope you find what you're looking for in life. Good luck and take care anon>>41748471Stay strong anon, as long as you keep on searching, you'll find your own purpose and meaning in life to call your own. As long as you don't give up, it'll be yours for sure. Good luck and take care, friend
>>41744733If you don't want to die, don't
>>41744733ask your parents
>>41744733Read The Problem of the Puer Aeternus by Marie Louise von Franz
>>41744733May the flowers remind us why the rain was so necessary
