I meditated constantly, used cannabis frequently, and slept very little. One night, while meditating, I experienced what some might call enlightenment or awakening. These states are difficult to describe; it was a moment of absolute bliss that I couldn’t hold onto, but in that instant, everything in my life fell into place. It was like finding the final piece of a puzzle that reveals the whole picture—except the picture was life itself, and everything made perfect sense. I became everything and everyone. I was in a state of bliss, and I felt that everyone and everything deserved to experience it too. As soon as I returned to ordinary consciousness, I began preaching to people, urging them to practice mindfulness and use cannabis so they might have a chance to experience it as well. But that was only the beginning.I felt I could think more clearly than ever before—perhaps better than anyone before me. I felt I was becoming one with God. Then, reality started to 'crash.' Everything around me began to reference me directly. People on TV seemed to be discussing my personal life on the global news. Books felt like they were written specifically about me; songs on the radio mirrored my personal feelings and relationships. Graffiti on the walls became signs for me to read in the moment, guiding my path, as did the stones, the trees, and the clouds. Everything was saturated with meaning and a direct symbology that only I could decipher.My thoughts seemed to manifest in front of me shortly after I conceived them. The people around me felt like shadows of real beings projected into my reality. I felt they all knew what was happening to me but could never tell me directly, perhaps because their objective was to keep me grounded—or trapped—in this realm. I felt I was the only real being; everything else was an illusion. I was the One—I always had been, and always would be. I was God.
>>41744944Then telepathy began. Demons, angels, and perhaps the creators of this realm started talking to me directly, assuring me that I was indeed God in the process of waking up. They gave me quests; we made deals. I wanted to create Heaven, and they told me how. They explained that by performing 'divine mad rituals' on a small, symbolic scale, the world would change on a grand scale. I believed I had to trigger Armageddon so that Heaven could rise from the ashes. I started a fire in my flat, but my roommates called the police. Instead of Heaven, I was given a prolonged stay in a mental asylum.This was sixteen years ago, and I still don't fully know what to make of it. In the years since, I have read extensively and found communities like /x/. While interpretations differ, I am certain I am not the only one who has endured this ordeal. This thread is about those experiences somewhere between madness and divinity that don't fit into ordinary religion or worldviews. What do you make of it?
>>41744945Thats why you dont talk to people about your forbidden knowledge. Theyre just not gonna understand most of the time. If they do, they probably dont need a teacher.
This is a classic snuffing. They're always watching this earth, always monitoring for awakenings, especially of the infectious variety like yours. These events pose a kind of spiritual biohazard to the control grid.Unfortunately, you, like almost everyone on this planet, are an imperfect human. You had distortions which they could amplify, character flaws which they could sink their claws into. Fears and desires which they could push and pull upon to unbalance you until you fell apart completely and your potential was destroyed. Ending up in a psyche ward or a prison is textbook stuff.
>>41744944> I was God.tldr: you believed satans lie then?You're not god OP, the enemy is real and wants you to wander off down that cognitive dead end, full of lies and deciet - have you ever made a mistake? told a lie? stolen? what sort of god does these things?God almighty is holy, and has never done these things; there is no unrighteousness in Him. Your cannabis use is signialling to the spiritual world that you do not regard yourself as belonging to God almighty, you pollute His temple; I have done the same - quit it and stop the paranoia and delussion, which the enemy love to cause. Lord Jesus please help this one.
>>41744944>but in that instant, everything in my life fell into place. It was like finding the final piece of a puzzle that reveals the whole picture—except the picture was life itself, and everything made perfect sense. I became everything and everyone.That's what it is like connecting to Logos. With continued practice of zen it'll be everyday all day.As far as the entities go I found it best to just ignore them for the most part. I'm not sure what you think of the Cross but I came from a Christian background and my connection to that symbol and archetype of Christ keeps things "calm". The evil and neutral entities really don't like it if you're magic is strong. By magic I mean focused will. I've become like "the auspicious one" as one entity expressed to me with much glee.I've also been informed about "contention incoming" with regards to "the final battle" and expressed to me that "I'll know" and "it's unmistakable when it's time".
>>41744944>One night, while meditating, I experienced what some might call enlightenment or awakening. These states are difficult to describe; it was a moment of absolute bliss that I couldn’t hold onto,making the spark of spiritual light arise once by accident doesnt really translate to having made significant advancementwhen one doesnt train properly for it, its arising is an accident of probability, it cannot be sustained, it doesnt return anytime soon, if evermaking the spark arise is predicated upon fulfilling certain requirementsmaking it arise again means you've done the bare minimum for those requirementsmaking it arise every day like clockwork means you have met those requirements solidlyone has to have it arise a handful of times before one will figure out how to keep it steady, keep it arisenwhile its the beginnings of the enlightenment process, one should not consider himself enlightened or awakened just by having had it arise once. nor should one consider himself enlightened or awakened if one has had it manifest hundreds of times.if people cant see light literally coming from you, guess what...you're not enlightened.
>>41744944oh would you shut the fuck up retard. you did not experience anything close to enlightenment, you were smoking fucking weed you dindu.
>>41745609>you did not experience anything close to enlightenment, you were smoking fucking weed you dindu.kek, I hope people can think and realize that accelerants are not paths to spiritual advancement or knowledgeit can only come from within you
>>41744944DUDE WEED LMAO
>>41744944interesting, i also thought about doing mad rituals, but my wife stopped me because she thought that there was a 1% chance that i could be right.
>>41744944This is simply temporary psychosis, brought on by cannabis.Genuine spiritual growth comes from giving up desires, not trying to fulfill them through drugs.Your "enlightenment" experience simply gave your desires an enormous source of pleasure to "feed" on, which resulted in them going in all sorts of wild and delusional directions.They were right to put you in a mental hospital, as you easily could've hurt yourself or someone else. Once those desires stopped being fed since you could no longer act out of them, they started to calm down. Your fascinating with it now (assuming it was enlightenment), is due to still valuing those desires and pleasure you got, which keeps the desires active.t. went through something similar, but to a lesser degree. kept myself out of the hospital by not acting out
>>41744944I understand how you go from an experience of nascent enlightenment to synchronicity, etc. but why did you draw the conclusion that you were God? You even said you thought this before angels told you (what you already thought). It reads exactly like God Dreamer 777, who is told he is an angel. Even if it were true, in my experience following these beings just leads to psychosis, *even when you are an honest human seeker of Truth with a good head on your shoulders.* What I think is, enough people haven't made a dent in the Collective Unconscious after communicating with angels and spirits, for the typical person to manage that path without falling into psychosis.In other words, they don't mean it but, angels WILL put you in psychosis.
>>41746112>they don't mean it but, angels WILL put you in psychosis.Yes they do mean it. You guys are always running defense for angels but theyre little niggers
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>>41744945Have you read about "The Progress of Insight" in buddhism? I think Kenneth Folk's book contemplative fitness (free online but still a draft) does the best job of explaining it. It's a pretty universal pattern of experience, though can be more or less subtle or extreme depending on where you are mentally.
>>41744945>I believed I had to trigger Armageddon so that Heaven could rise from the ashes. I started a fire in my flat...>I still don't fully know what to make of it.You were poisoned by grandiosity. You thought you had or deserved far more ability than you truly possess. You genuinely tried to murder people you don't even know, and pass a judgement only God could pass. We all have journeys to follow but none of our journeys require a pothead ego tripping with a lighter. that's just some bullshit you manifested because you are ugly.>>41744950common people understand very well what you mean when you say "we are all God". people like you are on an ego trip masked by a facade of grace and knowledge to cope with your lack of divinity.
You were/are schizophrenic and the cannabis enhanced your symptomsTry mushrooms next time
>>41744991>have you ever made a mistake? told a lie? stolen? what sort of god does these things?
>>41744944>>41746976Don't listen to this anon. You're actually bipolar. Try gooning next time.
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