I was forced to get the vaccine in my final year of high school or I wouldn't graduate.... (got the booster too)Looking at it now I'm so utterly fucked.I wanted to have a good life.I wanted to have healthy kids, man.All I can feel is pure cold dread in my gut.what do I even do?what can I do?Am I just ruined as a person?Will god even accept my tainted soul?I'm so worried that ill go to the doctor one day and they will say I can have healthy children to continue on my family name or that I'm sick with cancer or something truly awful. Life has already been so hard on me that I feels like a Sisyphean task to continue on in my fucked life. And I was such a fucking stupid kid man. I let my lib brainwashed parents talk me into it. and now I'm cattle that's fucked. Is there anything I can possibly do to redeem my life to reach my maximum potential as a man? My dream in life was to be a renaissance man, to bring honor & chivalry to my family name and one day to my children and wife. Now that I look more into the research I feel like I have C-4 in my chest cavity and somewhere out in the world someone is holding the detonator, and I'm just living on barrowed time never to reach my dreams and aspiration's.Can someone help me, please, I'm in the dark and I feel like the light of the holy spirit and my potential are waning into entropy. \Is there anything I can do to still reach my dreams? Pray for me please. I humbly ask for guidance or ways to get me out of the dark and back into the light.
As for the feeling of having c4 or whatever, do your best not to worry about it. Plenty of healthy men never find a wife or have children, many are murdered or otherwise suffer accidents, etc. Life never goes as planned or desired. This is your first(?) bump in the road. There will be others. It's possible the c4 will remain inert even. Consider it an expensive but not fatal lesson and to no longer allow totally yourself to be dragged along by the whims of others, even family.
>>41790499>plenty of men never have children.I pray with so much supplication that I can still have healthy kids, man. I want kids of my own so bad that this fear feels worse than the fear of death. The end of my line. what does that even mean for me? I feel like that is one of my most important drive/meaning for my life, and to never have it? Absolute bone chilling dread. Please god help me.please let that not be the case
>>41790463Well if it makes you feel any better most unvaxxed “pure bloods” can’t find a woman either because they’re seen as schizos by most for rejecting the safe and effective. About the God accepting you part, i wouldn’t worry about that. I’ll vouch for you anon.
>>41790534I’m guessing you are pretty young still? Don’t worry it gets easier as you get older and you learn to accept things.
>>41790463>Will god even accept my tainted soul?Religious fearmongering on here is wild.
>>41790541thank you for praying for me, I pray that you also find happiness and goodness in you're life.>>41790556it is always good to have a little fear in your heart in the aspect of god. I have never been baptize and I fear for what that means for my soul (hopefully I will rectify that this year). I found god through Jesus and the thought that he has boundless love in his heart. The son of god would even love me? that was such a profound thought that I wept for I was a cruel atheist by my lib upbringing and even with this train of thought the son of god would still love me and hug me? Why wouldn't pray to such a Holy God worthy of worship? Why wouldn't I have fear in my heart for God? For such a son too still love me after everything I have said or done in wickedness, I must then answer to his father? of course I have fear for the father wouldn't you have some so that you can live on the straight and narrow? (Psalm 111:10)(Proverbs 1:7)(Proverbs 8:13)(Proverbs 9:10-11)(Proverbs 14:26-27)(Proverbs 19:23)
>>41790643No anon, fear is what you need to learn to get rid of. You should look in to Zach K. Hubbards work, he can tell you about the people who are responsible for the modern english version of the bible..
>>41790656Ill look into it where would I find his work?I'm always willing to learn more.
>>41790673He streams daily on his jewtube channel “Number Games with Zachary K. Hubbard” everyone is welcome to join. He has some books too and his website is https://gematriaeffect.news/.
>>41790534You misunderstand my words. I'm not saying "this happens to other people, so don't worry about it".I'm saying "life gets fucked for so many for so many reasons. Even those who are perfectly healthy never have children. Don't overly focus on this one event, especially when doing so may blind you to something else blindsiding you. You would feel silly worrying about the vaxx if you later get into a car accident and get rekt"
>>41790685where would I see his stuff on the bible?thank you for your support.Ill will keep you in my prayers for you tonight as well>>41790689I think what you just said is a prophetic insight from god reminding me with a bit of irony. for context.Recently I've been trying to work on important life lessons to learn in my life. And one of them that keeps popping its head up every now and then to remind me that I still haven't fully grasped it yet is "Outcome Independence". Being independent from outside worldly results. Its so strange every now and then Ill think I understand it and then a problem will arise in my life and someone or phrase will expand upon my understanding of this teaching, almost like god or an angle saying "I'm not done teaching you yet ya goofball" always brings a smile to my facethank you for your words of wisdom.Ill try to not worry about it so much.Its just hard sometimes feeling like I will never amount to anything of importance or value for myself or to anyone else.I feel lonely and the cold absence of true love is very apparent in my life. I just want to mean something, I want to be loved by another person, I want to love someone else deeply as I carry that love in my heart, like loving and teaching my kids or having a wife, or a big happy family. thank you for sheading more wisdom with me. Ill keep you in my prayers
>>41790463Jesus man get off 4chan. The vax shit was years ago. All the conspiracy shit is just bs peddled by grifters who think we should be under corporate feudalism led by kikes. Quit falling for it
>>41790733https://youtu.be/xNYXd9jq0RQ?si=VYY0-55-SASxND6mHis book used to be free but i think its 5$ on his site now
>>41790747you are probably right about being online too much, I'm trying to get in shape and taking up new hobbies. are video games too much as well? what should I devote more of my time too.In terms of the conspiracy I think the thought stems from the belief that there is evil people out in the world that want/have power and want to do evil onto others. Its not so far fetched to think about I think what is needed is just that we should prepare what we have and defend ourselves from such a possibility. plan for the worst hope for the best.
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>>41790757thank you for the video I'm going to sit and watch it fully in the morning. And thank you everyone for talking and listening to me.I'm getting tired so I'm going to go and come back in the morning frens. I'm also going to go pray for all you guys for spending the evening helping some dumb schizo through his problems. thank you guys. hopefully the discussion is still running or there in the morning.Good night and god bless you guys.
>>41790797Good night my sweet prince
>>41790463What kind of sissy fag god can't reach you because of a little injection? Can he not get to you through a hat or something either?
>>41790764Dude just quit crying about the fucking vaccine I got it and yes I got a booster too I'm fine nothing happened to me you'll be fine too you'll have kids if you can just focus on having a good relation with the Holy One, blessed be he, instead of focusing on getting pumped full of THE JAB cuz that's fucking gay
>>41790904Just one booster? Why don’t you get the 10+ more boosters, are you a conspiracy theorists?
>>41790913I quite simply didn't give a shit and nobody made me. I also didn't get the flu vaccine this year so sue me I guess. There was never a vaccine police roaming the streets and checking people's vaccine cards for whether or not they have had enough boosters. You made that up or someone made it up and spoon fed it to you.
>>41790917So whyd u get it in the first place then? You think you know better than doctors? They recommend you to get boosted flr covid, so why arent you doing it
>>41790463You fucked up big time. You wont be a rennaisance man and i dont know if you can get children(if you can i hope they arent fucked by this experiment). You pussied out, you will never be a great conquerer. Imagine any great men of history, would any one of them cave in because of libtard parents??? But all is not doom and gloom, for christ is born and through him salvation can be encountered. True greatness is not by man but by God! The greatest men to live were the saints, they will have honor in eternity! Humble yourself before the lord! Come to the Orthodox Church and follow God!
Proof that the Bible is the word of God:https://truthischrist.com/seven/fcbaptist.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Bible-proof.pdf1 Cor. 15:3-4: “For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:” www.youtube.com/watch?v=_VRT2FFXntc1 John 5:7 “For there are three that bear record in heaven, the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost: and these three are one.”Rom. 3:23: “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;”Jesus Christ is God who has come in the flesh from heaven. He died as a sinless sacrifice for the sins of the whole world to save you from eternal hell, the punishment for your sins. He was buried, then resurrected and ascended to heaven, and will return soon to judge the world. You can't be justified to God your own way, so will you choose His righteousness instead? (Rom. 10:3)Salvation is by grace through faith (Eph. 2:8-9) in the one, final, effectual sacrifice of the Lord Jesus Christ (Heb. 10:8-12) dying in your place as a substitutionary offering for sin (Rom. 5:1-10). His blood atonement made for you is finished, so if you have received the Lord Jesus by faith (John 1:12) in your heart, you're forgiven of all your sins and are saved, once for all; finally and forever! The gift of salvation can't be earned, it is a gift. Rom. 10:9: “That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.” Confess The Lord and Savior Jesus Christ in prayer, that you trust in Him, not your own deeds, He atoned for your sins on the cross.Eph. 2:8-9: “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” After you're saved, you are a child of God and nothing will separate you from His love. (Romans 8:38-39)
>>41790463what you think you become. think good thoughts about it and everything in your life. train your subconscious like this and you'll be amaze at how it works. no worries, yeah? all is well (if you want it to be)
I'm back>>41791086It wasn't so much so that I was strong armed into doing it just that I was ignorant and mindless like cattle at the time. but you may be right I don't know if I will amount to anything I just know I don't want to quit till I reach it. In terms of churches what one is the right choice? I've been unsure and confused on witch one to fully devote myself to like witch way do I lean to? catholic or orthodox?what's the difference? I think the Catholic's are pretty cool for there architecture and their art in service to God, but don't they also believe that animals have no souls?, like when I'm looking into certain animals eyes I feel the winder and joy of god through them like a hump back whalein its majesty in its service to Christ.And isn't there division between eastern orthodox and regular orthodox? both claiming they came from the apostles and that the other group are blasphemers?also some groups wont let me get baptized until I pay them or meet some requirement right?Didn't Jesus baptize those who knew little of the faith so that they could start to understand its importance on the journey to god?I.E. A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step? Barring entry to gods faith doesn't feel like what Christ would have wanted. so I don't know witch sect to pick.It feels hard to pick when my soul is at stake if I pick poorly.right now I've just been trying to study and understand God and his Son better so I may be better equipped when I go into their service.
>>41792054have you heard of depressive realism
>>41792054like self actualization? huh Ill try itor is it like manifestation?either way it feels like it really is something important to become aware of reminds me of Prophetic perfect tense
>>41792106I definitely feel like I see the world better from a view point that life has knocked me down and I can only look up. or I am at minimum self aware enough to understand how myself and others interact in this world through preset lenses on what should or shouldn't happen like its a movie for them or having too much ego.were I differ though is in relation to the outcome of each way of thought. pessimist, realist, optimist they all feel like the same to me. they hinge on how things turn out, needing the result to fit a certain world view?feels like you cant enjoy the full range of motion in the Higher goodness in life.God doesn't conform to you, you conform to him.sometimes when you pray God, He doesn't give you what you want but instead He gives trails so that you can reach it on your own footing.I think what's important is to weather what ever life throws at you.outcome independence baby.well that's what I think at least
>>41792166which god are you praying to
>>41790463The vaccine made my erections last twice as long, sorry to hear you didn’t get any benefits from it.
it's more or less just a waiting game to see what the long term plan of the vaxx was. glad I didn't take it.
>>41792290pretty sure its meant to target reproductive organs in female offspring but it has also the lower chance of cancer and strokes etc
>>41792202Christ and his teachings.maybe Methodist? but I don't think its right for me. that's why I'm learning and looking right now trying to find the right one
>>41792311so its with women not men?is there a chance ill have kids that will be okay if I find the right woman. or am i just pining?
>>41792327“Then the Lord God said, “Behold, the man has become like one of us in knowing good and evil. Now, lest he reach out his hand and take also of the tree of life and eat, and live forever” Genesis 3:22It sounds plural to me also the original versions clearly state that there are other gods, it’s in the English version they change to monotheismso my point is how do you know start Christs teaching are when the book is written by kabbalists (the jesuits)
>>41792360what*>>41792342idk man its mystery juice. until you find a pussy to unload in its not even a problem
>>41790463do the base spike detox protocol , do sound baths (use precise frequencies, not every youtube video is genuine) and pray for your soul
>>41792367haha Ill keep that In mind, thanks man
>>41792121Best to you, anon.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rPppOaACyws
>>41792526This guy helped me with healing.
>>41790463Your soul isn't tainted. God will accept you. The ideal is always to be Celibate anyway.
