Ever since I was a kid, I have had a lot of dreams. When I was a kid, I used to have a lot of nightmares, and I would regularly go to my parents' room to tell them I couldn't sleep and that I was so fucking scared.It came to a point in which I actually started controlling my nightmares. What I'd do is realize I was in a dream and literally become Bowser (the character from Mario).I've had so many nightmares, and I don't really know why. It got to a point in which I would even wake up with a huge headache because I was dreaming things like the devil grabbing me from my ankle and taking me with him to hell.Nowadays I don't have as many nightmares as I used to, but I always dream of something, like 19/20 times I go to bed, even when I take a short nap.Why does this happen?
>>41805513What’s your diet like? how much activity/exercise and how much sleep do you usually get per day?They say that if you’re unhealthy or spiritually blocked you can experience frequent dreamless sleep. Weed smokers report this a lot. Dreams have always been an integral part of my life; really vivid and convoluted ones. Yes, a lot of the time they’re just jumbled amalgamations of my day-to-day problems and anxieties, but pretty often they have full worlds and storylines; the rarest being unique worlds/movie-like storylines complete with striking visual “scenes”, character arcs, and endings. I really need to write them all down. It’s hard to remember them all but I can usually recall and catalogue them if I meditate long enough. The architecture and geography in these dreams is usually surprisingly complex and consistent which seems rare? The best analogy I can think of is the way the worlds in Dark Souls 1, Metroid Prime, or other games with lots of winding/interconnected horizontal/vertical exploration, the surprising part being that the world seems to stay pretty concrete and consistent rather than obeying squishy dream logic where everything moves around a lot. This is odd to me because I’m an artist but spaces, architecture and geography were always my weakest points.1/2
>>41806460I swear, every so often I get dreams that I’m sure are not dreams, that I am visiting a world/mind that is not of my imagination whatsoever. I see people who I’m sure are other dreamers. My theory is that it’s some world on the astral plane or the projection particularly powerful dreamer that has attracted us weaker dreamers. Here the architecture is set and feels fully lived in with impossibly rich detail. An example was this tower in a city where a sort of convention was being held. You walked through the stairwell that was partly residential/public use and there were layers and layers of flyers, posters, art, graffiti, messages to others, and other decorations left behind by folks. In the convention people were selling all kinds of wares, mostly trinkets like you’d find at a renn fair or con.The weirdest thing is that often I will revisit old dreams sometimes 5 or 10 years after I’ve had them, and sometimes the “story” picks up where it left off, sometimes it creates a new one. The world, the feel, the aesthetic is always exactly what it was before, regardless if I could have remembered the dream in waking life or not. It’s trippy as fuck to fall asleep and wake up somewhere your mind made up as a literal child.
>>41806477Anyway, I’ve experienced a lot of dreamlessness in the last 10 years which has only partially resolved. This was partly because I was t getting enough sleep but also because I was extremely unhealthy and working hard manual labor jobs but mostly eating way more than I needed but also some foods that I was probably alllergic too. Lots of marijuana and drinking too. Since losing weight and getting healthier the dreams have come back, thank god.Here’s a tip, btw: Big high-fat/greasy/unhealthy meals before bed almost always cause night sweats and VIOLENT dreams which are usually extremely scary. Usually someone threatens me or someone I love and I end up killing then in some brutal and gruesome way. It’s the worst, I really hate violence and being aggressive so these usually make me sick. Lots of times I will get stabbed or someone I know will die and I wake up in a hot sweat.Last night was weird though. The dream was mostly normal but I had a false memory of when I was a kid going through divorce. I usually stayed with my mom but in the dream I was staying with my dad. There were multiple, vivid “memories” of early mornings before sunrise in his house, showering with him, getting into bed still a little wet, and then cuddling and him having sex with me multiple times. The weird part is these were all excruciatingly realistic and in first person perspective. He also seemed a little… high or drunk or something. It’s weird, they didn’t feel like dreams but relived memories. I don’t even know what to say here. I don’t know why I’m sharing this. I think they felt like memories because I had maybe been having those dreams at the time of the divorce and I had blocked them out. Idk, I’m gay so it’s not out of the ordinary for me to have dreams of male sex but still, weird and creepy. I had to sit in my bed this morning and genuinely make sure it wasn’t a repressed memory of incest/rape.
