I need help, urgently. Any advice would be appreciated, thank you.>Have multiple tulpas, some basc some not>ome only live in my basement, particularly a friendly albeit shy rat lady>Long proportions, like 10 feet log and basically skin and bones, always hiding behind corners so I don't look at her>About an hour ago, pic related showed up>Just watched a short 10 scond video of them, but it shouldn't make a tulpa THAT easily>Asks me to turn off the lights so I do>Tells me I'm going to have a particularly bad day tomorrow>Feel a strong pulling force going towards it>Usually I can feel tulpas if I concentrate, but not something that strong, not when I didn't want it, not from omething that just got made>Tell it to go fuck itself, to which it says that I should be more friendly>Turn around>There's another>Neither of them are blinking>I hear a talking from the door, hearing lanky rat lady>Open the door, see rat lady in the corner, curled into a ball, shaking>She tells me she can see FRIEND's eyes through the walls sometimes>Walk through the basement going towards the door>Friend in one corner, the other at the furthest wall, and our backs turned to the stairs>Try to keep my eyes on everyone in the room, but I have to turn my back to at least one of them>See rat lady crawl up the stairs slowly>Turn my back to rat lady to look at both friends through my peripherals>Look back to rat lady after half a second>She's gone>Not even a scream, or a movement, or a sound, just up in the air>Both FRIEND's just look at me>Take a piece of wood and swing it at the closest one>Fades into smoke laughing>Tell the other one to tell me where it is>"You get three guesses!">Did you take her? Is she hurt?>"No.">Is there a way I can get her back unharmed?>"There is a way, but unharmed and unchanged are 2 different things.">It wants me to paint it, and then place that painting against a self portrait of myself I did a while back(1/2)
>>41814985>multipleYou treated your Tulpa as collectible and your ability to make them as resource.You fucked up. Not even reading the rest.You need to abandon ship, you are losing your mind to it’s own creation and fracturing your “self”
Continued>Take the piece of board and swing at it again>I hear a crack, but I just see it laughing, glitched like a tv artifacting wrapping around the piece of wood>"That wasn't too friendly! Oh, and don't turn around.">Oh fuck this guy>Turn around immediately>See the silhouette of my childhood cat who disappeared>Just a perfectly shaped cat silhouette>Turn around, they're goneI do NOT want to take advice from that fucking cat, but I don't know what else to do here. I know the painting option is a horrid idea, but I don't want rat lady to suffer. I don't know if I can kill them or if I even should, but I need advice as soon as possible. Please, anything will do. Thank you kindly.
>>41815005I don't even try to force them is the thing, they just sort of come and go. Usually they leave, but some, like rat lady, stay. I made one on purpose, but the rest aren't. They aren't collectible, and I know that.
maybe you should've just stopped at two voice in your head
>>41814985Tulpas take extreme focus and do not just blip in and out.Assuming the story isn’t just bullshit, your mind is shattering and you’ve lost control. You are no longer making tulpa but are within a wonderland. You must stop and get out of it before you fall deeper. Biases and subconscious triggers in everyday life and unhealed wounds will just create more and more characters.
>>41815901Meant to be a reply to >>41815041
