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Psychosis isn’t real and you were gangstalked by glowniggers with Havana Syndrome tech AI but I’m having a hard time buying that you forgot everything. I remember every moment.

>>42156824
Was shrooms induced, I believed I found a unique health state to live life optimally w supplementation . Then thought I was a shadow leader of the masons. That they viewed me as the ideal human to watch and emulate from afar, a modern Crowley.

Then when in ward I was a British spy communicating through others and finding my mission through YouTube shorts algorithm. Then I don’t remember anything for 2 years. I also had like a ton of ECT, so that’s probably why.

I dont wish it’s true because it was terrifying. I remember I would have to complete a whole routine perfectly to take my supps like pace in a particular pattern walking on hands then precise flip, if the pill was bitter ik I failed and would be poisoned for a bit. Tasted like stinkbugs.shivers.

Didn’t eat didn’t brush my teeth refused meds refused to see family cuz I said they were evil

So what’s ur interpretation of the essay

>>42156525
Did you boost?

>>42157021
Yea a lot psychs weed thyroid prolactin inhibitors just a retard stack

I am also schizophrenic and had psychosis. I was in denial about it for a while. When I got better I had a hard time remembering what my delusions were too but I am slowly remembering some of them and writing it down and that might happen to you too. Are you on medication now?

>>42156885
Been there too bud. It's incredibly traumatizing. I made it a point to block out and "forget" my experience as much as possible. It took me over 2 years to move on. It's been 3 years since and I just graduated from school and started a career for the first time in my life. You can do it bud. It's okay to "forget." That shit is terrifying. It reminds me what I hear about "OCD." These patterns you are "forced" to do are compulsions, and you will be punished physically and mentally if you do not. Shit was getting to the point where I was experiencing "psychosomatic" sharp pains, like needles, being pressed into my body if I had "unapproved" thoughts or failed to act with immediacy when I was given "orders." The shit is horrible man. I feel for you. I hope you're doing better now.

>>42156824
Have you been playing Get Smart too? Careful about main character syndrome, they got it, it's why they went nuts in this way.

God's next level trolling us with Q-anon being started by Eps, only to have their lies become truth. Wait out the storm, then comes the biblical. Turns out a pedophile cabal runs the governments, don't let Chris Hanson know.

>>42157077
I am bit better Thank god. Good for you man I was in hell for months after even post psychosis. Thought I was going to hell every second, basically doomed, the only reason I didn’t rope.

Ik exactly what ur talking about with the ocd pains, if I didn’t do compulsion I had ants crawling. Totally changes your perspective on life like nothing else
>>42157035
It took me months to even look through my phone and what I did. Thankfully it wasn’t that bad. It was drug induced but I got an abilify shot out of the hospital. If there’s a hell it’s akathasia 24/7. I was taking 30k steps a day on meds, for week, awful. Worse than any drug withdrawal. Tho they originally saved me from the Catalonia. Anti psychs are like the worst thing to be on long term. If my psych finds out I’m fucked.

>>42157067
> took me months to even look through my phone and what I did. Thankfully it wasn’t that bad. It was drug induced but I got an abilify shot out of the hospital. If there’s a hell it’s akathasia 24/7. I was taking 30k steps a day on meds, for week, awful. Worse than any drug withdrawal. Tho they originally saved me from the Catalonia. Anti psychs are like the worst thing to be on long term. If my psych finds out I’m fucked.

>>42156525
Psychosis is free drug. Forgetting is the price of forgiveness.
After my psychosis and taking meds I’m numb to emotions too. I don’t have so good connection to the divine from that moment.

>>42157219
I'm also on the abilify shot and also had akathesia but not constantly just sometimes. And sometimes I miss being in psychosis because I am pretty lonely with no friends and at times the voices were not negative and so it felt like I had someone to talk to.

>>42157516
I never had voiced but believed my grandfather was with me and that was had split personalities. It did feel like living in a movie, good and bad. I do miss it too man I lost all my friends and am a fool now

>>42156525
Sorry to inform you, but they shut down the meta wise