Hello friend, I'd love for anyone willing to tell me about their life story! Especially those who are more reserved in character, who would normally never respond to such a prompt. I am so curious to listen to how you came to be, everyone!Perhaps, a timeline will do, of significant events that you would say contributed to your character and beliefs now. Maybe, a cause and effect format is simple enough.Since this x board, I reckon you place high regard on your journey with religion, spirituality and faith in your life's story. Or, perhaps you experienced an unexplainable moment you are convinced was caused by supernatural forces! Maybe someone else had a similar moment.Please go into detail if you so like, I'm very eager for it. Especially to hear the story of anyone who would normally never respond to such a prompt as mine here.I hope to receive some replies, interesting or uninteresting, details or without any; I will find your response intriguing, friend.God bless!
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I took a shit on an Oujia Board and now my life is shit
this is either a really thoughtful post by a fellow seeker or an alphabet datamining thread and i can't tell which
>>42169140it's always a trap.there's a 'manifesting a loli loving gf' on r9k. There's no way the traffic there is organic.It's always a trap.But you can enjoy other people posting.
>>42168783Okay I'll bite.I was born in South Australia and grew up in nice suburbs. I was always a troublemaker in school, with undiagnosed autism and ADHD. I had friends growing up, but I wasn't one of the cool kids. I got bullied a little bit but not much. When I hit puberty I was pretty much immediately into BDSM, secretly torturing myself in various lewd ways and thinking nothing of it, and I very quickly realized I was bisexual, and thought nothing of it as well, since my dad was openly bisexual. I was a bit of a sexual savant but I was too socially inept to find anyone to sleep with in my early to mid teens.When I was 12 I watched a horror film called the hypercube and it messed me up. The film featured people making their way through a maze of square rooms, some of which had deadly traps. I became paranoid about bathrooms, because there were so many square tiles I believed they might be trapped. Around the same time I decided to shower in pitch black darkness (which also spooked me) to train myself to not be afraid of the dark. I was terrified of the tiles for maybe 6 months until I "rationalized" that they cause an explosion somewhere random in the universe and are completely harmless to me. From then on I still showered in pitch black darkness, preferring it since I'm a bit sensitive to bright lights (autism). I barely scraped my way through school, almost failing pretty much every single year, until I finally did fail grade 10 and had to repeat. I became depressed and dropped out the following year, which was the best decision I ever made cause my depression lifted, school wasn't for me. I'm too ashamed to admit what I did but I did something horrible to my family that went completely unnoticed in my teens, I thought I got away with it and always looked back on it with smug satisfaction.(cont)
>>42169349I got into drugs in my late teens. While I was on weed one time I heard a creepy clown voice say "I'm going to kill you." I was a bit creeped out and pretended to laugh it off and told my friend about it. Not long after, all of a sudden I had a huge panic attack on weed, and developed panic disorder, and started having panic attacks sober, this lasted for a number of months. Since then, I've been unable to smoke marijuana, it simply gives me a panic attack proportional to how much I smoke, regardless of how calm or relaxed I am. I still continued to dabble in other drugs though.in my early 20s, I took a "bad pill" of MDMA, which gave me such a bad experience I was writhing on the floor in psychological agony at one point and I had to call an ambulance. I went to the hospital but the horrible feeling wore off before any doctor was able to see me so I just went back home. Worst day of my entire life. More on that later.I got a job in a government program called the green army in my early 20s, and I also got a boyfriend. The program only lasted for 6 months though and I was unemployed on government benefits for awhile, until fatefully an older obese man on grindr offered me $100 to suck me off, and I was like "shure I can do that." (I was in an open relationship with my bf). The guy came back the following week with the same offer, but this time he started kissing me and doing a bunch of other stuff that we didn't agree to and I didn't like it, but I went along with it anyway and collected my $100, and proceeded to have a shower to "wash away the filth". I really needed a job though and it occurred to me that I could keep doing that and even make a career out of it, so I put some photos up online and started work as a prostitute. I very quickly got used to sleeping with obese old men, making $200/h. My ex bf was fine with it, he was just happy I was finally making money.(cont)
>>42169354My career afforded me a very lazy life throughout my 20s, I barely worked at all and mostly sat on my expensive gaming PC playing games and watching youtube. My ex bf and I muturally decided we wanted to break up and my life fell apart shortly after, when I started developing schizophrenia. In the beginning (before I realized I was schizo or even heard any voices for that matter) I took a lot of time off work, because I was being gangstalked and it was all too much for me (see the gangstalking threads here on /x/, gangstalking is an initiation to schizophrenia, and its a very common shared delusion that schizophrenics have early on). I had 60kaud saved so I figured I could afford to take time off. Bad went to worse though, I developed an addiction to abusing vyvanse, my ADHD medication, which lead to a huge psychotic episode that lasted months, and since then I've heard voices. Ive never been the same since then, the voices literally control my life, and they forced me to quit my job as a sex worker. I literally just... took down all my ads, and I'm unable to put them back up again. I'm back on government benefits, unable to work, and I'm down to my last 2k and going down.That horrible thing I did to my family and got away with? The voices inform me that's the reason I had that horrible experience that sent me to hospital in my early 20s. Karma came to bite me in the ass. I deserved it. They also tell me I got schizophrenia as a result of past life sins, apparently I was an abusive narcissist in my past life and after I died I was given a choice between a number of bad options as punishment, and I chose to be reincarnated with schizophrenia. and now at 31 the schizophrenia ruined my life, destroyed my career, and I'm running out of money. aaand that's where I'm at now.Key takeaways? Don't do drugs, and karma comes to come collect it's debts. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-PSP2Adz5j8&list=RD-PSP2Adz5j8&start_radio=1
>>42169362>They also tell me I got schizophrenia as a result of past life sins, apparently I was an abusive narcissist in my past life and after I died I was given a choice between a number of bad options as punishment, and I chose to be reincarnated with schizophrenia.I would like to hear more about this. The choice part is intriguing.
>>42169388I don't actually know much more about it than that. Apparently you can co-create your next life with the gods to a certain extent, after your time spent in heaven. The voices tell me there's a lot more to it than that though, that's an oversimplification. They're not clarifying the details though so that's all I can say.
Cash is shineys!
>>42169388I will add one more thing though, the voices inform me its actually "gods" rather than "god" as our universe was made by multiple gods rather than one. Take that as you will.
>>42168783I was born at a very young age. Then, I happened to come across and start posting in this datamining thread for a myriad of reasons.Please tip me on my Patreon
>>42168783A man jacked off in front of me in the woods when I was 11. But I don't think it has affected me.
>>42168783This body has a life story. It seems to follow the “arrow of time”, and I could sit down and write an autobiography of the events that have occurred to it from its perspective. This body, this mind, and this personality: all three have travelled that same path together. The traditional “I” that people refer to. The egoic center of mass.The other “I” lacks an autobiographical chronology. It doesn’t follow the same linear arrow. It has no beginning, no middle, and no end. Its experience is so much vaster and also so different than the former “I” that it seems to require other media to express. “Timeless awareness” maybe, but it’s a joke to consolidate infinity into a box like that. Maybe a “kaleidoscope of ecstasy”, or The Labrynth through the eyes of a Cenobite, or that feeling when a fellow extradimensional entity first removes you from your former “I” and your senses fall away to reveal a new chaos and order.Dragonball Z was a fun tv show. “Hide your power level!” The characters would advise, lest some bigger fish notices you shining too brightly. “I’ve mastered this form of cosplay”, I say to myself - my mask was made for me after all.
>>42169532Job 38:7 "When the morning stars sang together, and all the sons of God shouted for joy." Referring to Job 38:4.Genesis 6:3 Psalms 82
>>42168783Through sigils and astrology everything seems to be clicking and moving smoothly and correctly now.I hope i get the money and the woman, it's not guaranteed yet.
