Since I was a child, I've always felt like I didn't belong. I ended up developing perversions at a very young age ( 5 ) even though I tried to keep them to myself.I've been bullied a lot, scapegoated a lot, people stole from me often. During my formative years in middle school I was relentlessly bullied and insulted, humiliated, both by my dad and by classmates. Ended up failing bad at school during that time. My dad even tried to kill me once.Started up as smart, but ended up becoming dumber and dumber as years went by. Me failing at school made my father resent me a lot. Then he died ( slept in the garage with the car started drunk), and people said it was my fault, told me I killed my father.Then I ended up failing college because of a bad disease that is technically considered a handicap.Stayed home for 5 years, and I ended up being gangstalked and harassed online by people who knew my thoughts and everything I ever did or my secrets.Decided to move forward, went to school again, the school was full of these people and they kept hinting at my thoughts, or play with my mind.My disease got worse and I died at the hospital, was reanimated.Then I started school again, was kinda isolated ( some people who didn't knew me told me they didn't want me in their whatsapp group for example ).People started gangstalking me IRL, insulting me, spitting at me, making references in my thoughts. My own family basically told me they could read my thoughts.People started making music and music videos referencing me.My brothers don't respect me.Everyone calls me weak or disrespect me naturally.I developed PTSD from the targeting.So yeah, is it possible that I was marked by the devil as a child and that's what made my life such a hell?
I don't want people to pity me, but I want to understand why did my life ended up being a succesion of misfortune and bad luck. Feels like I have enough bad luck for a hundred people.
Some people claim to be chosen ones, part of the 144000, or secretely favored by God. I don't feel like it's the case. I feel very inferior to other people, like my life matters less. I feel like God hates me. And I feel like everybody hates me too. I don't think I really deserve the hate though, or the treatment these people put me through. Is it possible I'm a sacrifice?
Tell me, do you wake with your feet pointed south?
>>42193031Nope lol.
>>42192882You're retarded, start wrecking their shit.Do evil to them.Hate them.Sabotage them. Poison them. Be the guilty guy they pretend.
>>42193060And for the record, these people are Christian larpers. Don't be a Christian. You're either human
>>42193068Or a daemon like me, those people are like nocs put there to sabotage you. Hurt them. Provoke accidents.
I don't want to be evil. And I don't have any power to be evil anyway.
I hate you just from reading your pathetic post alone
>>42193078You're supposed to be evil. Want me to be mean to you? Wi
>>42193078I just checked, you're human, that's why they're doing this to you. I'm a daemon like I said. We killed Jesus, so these people will not last forever. Start small, do evils.
>>42193081So be it. I learned that people seem to hate any kind of perceived weakness, probably because it reminds them of their own. And people hate being weak.>>42193084Nope.>>42193092No thanks.
Those people harassing you, I bet you have noticed, have all a particular way of talking and you have an unique one, no? They're like characters in a Game, don't pity them, be evil to them. If you let them continue they will. Next time someone spits, grab a rock, aim well, crack their head open, then kick them on the ground. No harm done, they're like pixelated characters in a videogame, they don't have souls that are real. No divine spark.
>>42193113Please, don't be dumb. They're not real.
>>42193119Did I add that these people want to put me in prison and are trying to tempt me into doing crimes?
>>42193125Complex issue, try something else then, but the cops wont help. Consider a gnosticism case.
>>42193130It won't save me unfortunately. People seem to be demonically possessed when it's about fucking with me.
>>42193136Yes, it's a funride, I know, same boat. Listen, keep yourself safe and away from people and hold. They're gonna die. Demiurge is dead. They're low on vitals, they will last still a bit. Can you do your shopping online?
>>42193143Lol, I don't have the choice but to go outside. Unfortunately they are here to stay. My whole life is a joke.I wanna give up sometimes.
>>42193148No, dont. Keep going. That's what they want.
When I was 8 I had a necrophilic fantasy about murdering the neighborhood girl and fondling her dead body in a field.I was always on the dark spectrum psychologically speaking, dark humor, and the sort. I think it was systemic from being over sexualized being the youngest of 4 other boys and being molested by a babysitter, usually paraphilias affect younger person in large households, like homosexuality and the sort.Even if you are a perv, OP, you still aren't as bad as a pushy fag, OP. Pushy fags literally beg for dick/pussy and annoy people by insisting upon sexual favors.When it comes to demons, I've had nightmares, and visions of graphic violence where I felt no fear towards what I was seeing (peoples head being caved in with sticks, and people being executed by machine guns). Usually the first sign of demonic influence is being suspected to that sort of suggestion. Physically demons are a mixed bag, but mostly they are mockers and scorners that will provoke people. Sometimes they make me drink fluids by providing me a cup in hypnogogic hallucinations.What you are developing is a paranoia of thoughts being broadcasted, a symptom of psychosis.When you go into psychwards, you are among telepaths, that can "talk" about you. That's why you should avoid crazy people. I've experience telepathy, but it was due to methamphetamine usage.
>>42193247Oooh, you dig corpses.
>>42192882>How do you know if you've been marked by the Devil
>>42194923you have freckle on your penis?
