i know picrel is just from a kid show and he's not a real magician but watching him performs really makes me wish i were able to control elements, talk to malicious spirits or drawing sigils on the ground to curse a place,... that sort of thing
>>42202531Read these books
Read about the life of Apollonius of Tyana.
>>42202531this >>42202544Start with Bardon, first book only, Regardie, Levi and Crowley.Maybe Evola too.
>gets powers>wants to curse a random innocent placeThis is why gatekeeping is needed.
The cultural programming of your upbringing and the things you've come to believe will change were you should start and were you'll end up.
>>42202531Real magic is not impressive to watch. It's paranormal, meaning alongside that which is normal. Those who do not see it simply take normalcy for granted, and those who try to share it appear to give more stock to the mundane than is observed. It is rare for magic to defy all senses, but it's from those extreme circumstances that it gained infamy and attracted pretenders. Still, there is a world unseen where people seem as gods, to themselves and to others, and I tell you it is a tragic world to live in.
>>42202544That list missing Eliphas Levi works.
>>42202531Easiest way is to take a lot of LSD + Weed and trying to remember everything, including your past lives. This will result in a very dangerous bad trip btw. Try to not go insane when you remember what happens between lives. Decline offers from demons, but stay polite. In case you meet her, don't look in her eyes, stay as polite as possible and don't scream even when you feel like you are about to die. Try to remain calm and tell her that you don't want to die yet. When you are back in our reality don't kill yourself even if it's very tempting. At that point you should realize that it's not possible to escape by suicide and that it will only bring you back to the place you just fled.
