>be me, 2009, 16 years old>smoking weed in my bedroom while parents are asleep>listening to some jumpstyle, enjoying my night>get idea to try and meditate through the music>begin sitting full lotus and load a bowl so big it overflows>smoke it and close my eyes>start breathing slowly and zoning out>feel really really warm>sudden warmth and electric shock coils around my spine and climbs up my neck>feel it enter my skull through where the spine goes in>everything explodes into a quadrillion little rainbow rings making up this huge circular wheel like thing, like a million billion rainbow rings, wheels and cogs all perfectly in line and spinning>see tons of swastikas and spiral geometry>see some chink looking guy with snow white without much clothes on, smiling and also sitting lotus in front of this big red gold palace>tons of old chinese looking buildings and towers that go on so high i cant see the end of them, lots of mountains too>rainbow rings still spining and coiling all over the sky, still connecting to each other>just sit in this place for what feels like a million years>was the best feeling i ever felt in my life>lost my ability to achieve it as soon as i became an adultliterally nothing else felt like that. ive done heroin and ecstascy and meth trying to chase that feeling of pure soulshattering bliss but i havent ever been able to find anything close to it. Ive tried DMT and it also didn't do it for me.what happened to me /x/???
my bad, ment that the chink dude had snow white skin. he was whiter than snow, almost looked like he was glowing white.
>>42204548>>42204565Accidental kundalini?
>>42204548>>42204582Either kundalini awakening or successful internal alchemy.
>>42204582any more regarding this????
Sounds like you reached Rainbow-Body state
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sounds like it man. I achieved similar but went schizo promptly after. maybe if you pursue it further you'll get it again but I think zen guys warn against that. adherents to the faith say that chasing enlightenment for the siddhi leads to nothing because it's centered in the ego, I wonder if this counts as that? if it was kundalini that's quite literally the source of the ego, so who knows. it's a hard feeling to shake, I feel for ya but maybe if you continue meditating regardless it'll work out for you in the long run
>>42204687How does kundalini relate to the ego?? I noticed that once it occurred i became incredibly free-spirited in how i approached life, generally not caring about anything and just living and going about my life happier but with myself and my knowledge of this experiencing being very much the forefront, whereas nowadays im alot less egocentric and generally selfless
>>42204548Sounds like a regular pothead tripNirvana is irreversible
same exact thing happened to me just without the chinamen or palaces.
>>42204548Interesting -- I thought I was the only one. I don't know why this happens -- our choices counter to the natural flow of the universe and its inclination or preference towards choices, or some other factors of which I'm still aware. However, I believe we should stick with, "If I did it once, I can do it again." Rather than longing for this state. While the state I experienced in my teens truly was Nirvana/Blissful/Enlightened, maybe it is only so from a relative standpoint and as we grew to experience more, and widen our perceptions, experiences, understanding, etc. it became more challenging to maintain so we had to start over.
>>42205571very wise anon. i've been thinking about trying to replicate the experience as i had done it before instead of trying to just "seek it" like you say, im sure I could do it if i just allowed myself too its just that allowing myself to do it is the hard part.
EXACTLY this happened to me when after i smoked pot and tried uniting with the song i was listening too. the important part is the MUSIC.
>>42205577>420>double dubsgonna try and replicate this
>>42205603OP WAS NOT LYING
>>42205666>666>op wasn't lyingwhat the fuck did get him to do him op
>>42204548Sounds like the comedown of my first shrooms trip
>>42204548>Ive tried DMT and it also didn't do it for me.You did not do DMT my friend, or not enough. Once you break thru I guarantee it'll do sumn for u lol. No choice homie
>>42204548you saw behind the curtain. I'm not sure what it means... but weed potentiated my acid trip last night that at the end I saw some pretty amazing fractal visions. Endless, ever-changing, kaleidoscope faces
>>42206289i did everything correct, even tried ayuascha and couldn't get close. ive tried the machine, drinking it, changa and nothing compared to this experience in clarity and bliss. im not saying it didn't work, just that it didn't compare.
>>42206350DMT was super fractal and almost fluid of an experience, the time-dilation wasn't nearly as long as my experience either. it felt much more like an in-and-out experience. if anything, my experience felt more like the time-dilation salvia would give. (also didn't compare, dont fuck with that shit it made me liquid shit myself every time i tried it)
>>42206350If you're not cappin then that's fucking insane. Gonna have to slide me some of that bud you were having lol. Its probably the classic case of just being the first and only time you were in that zone, mixed in with nostalgia and a lil bit of romanticizing the moment etc. I can relate to what you're talking about 100%, and I never got to that lvl ever again. But that's okay, fuck chasing the dragon just enjoy the nirvana of now and the present.
>>42206367i know im not really nostalgiabaiting myself or miss-remembering because it became almost a standard thing i'd do after my classes on every weekend, there was a point where i could do it without weed aswell, it just seemed to help get me there wayyyy easier. I think alot of it was in relation to how much i could "disappear" into the music and "appear" wherever that was.
>>42206380another thing i forgot to mention is that the music would get super quiet during this too, i'd just start hearing this deep rumbling and hum noise, like a "woaaaaauuuuuummmmaaaauuuuwwwww" that endlessly went in and out of its tone.
>>42206380Nah that's cap. Start mixing and combining substances (safely) trust me kekw
>>42206393jm btw who am I to assume I know what you're experiencing. But u get me lol
>>42206393have tried that too, didnt get me there. no amount of cooking my head on NBOME or snorting 2ci and ket can get me there like i was able too when i was younger. ive genuinely tried sticking every research chemical and psychidelic/psychostimulant/disso/deliriant up all the holes in my body trying to get there but it just doesn't work anon. i wish it did.
>>42206403Then it sounds like it's an impossible state to achieve and quite possible that even if you were able to be back in the zone you wouldn't realize or admit it because the idea of this state of euphoria has been fantasized for too long now. And then now at this point it's like what are we even talking about just enjoy what you got we can't change the past. This is on some Confucius shit lowkey cookin
it was literally as casual as taking a shit or throwing a ball, all i had to do was focus in on it and do it, and then i would do it. i know it sounds like a total cop-out but I genuinely cant put it to words, mainly because i cant really describe it any better than my greentext. it just was, no more or less. simple as that. that alone is one of the reasons i've been trying to chase after it, its like I lost one of my senses. Imagine waking up one day and you just cant taste food anymore, you'd be wanting it back too.
its like i lost the key to my door and couldn't ever get it open again, i can sit here and pull on the knob and kick at the door, but so long as i dont have my key i am never opening it ever again.
>>42206418Omg I think I solved it. Are you talking about kundalini? I found out about that recently and I was able to do that since a kid, not knowing wtf it was.
>>42206424someone else in the thread mentioned this, but im not sure if thats exactly it. it sounds remarkably simmilar after a little looking it up.
>>42206460Was it difficult to hold that feeling? For me, after I turn the switch on, it gets harder and harder to hold it as time passes. I'm tellin u it's this fasho
>>42206465a little, i really had to get settled into it and allow it to continue to occur if i wanted it to occur for longer and have much long time-dilation. its like water almost, if you put too much stuff in the way the water doesnt flow and it just drys up.
>>42206472That's exactly it, well said. How do u lose the ability tho? That's interesting.
>>42206476i dunno man, like i said it just stopped one day. woke up and it was gone forever, like i lost the key to my door or lost my ability to taste food. it just wasn't there anymore.
>>42206478maybe my mind got too full of shit and everything got blocked up, like the dam metaphor. i may have actually just given myself my answer holy fucking shit
>>42206478Well then, get yo ass back in there homie xDManifest that hoe ong
>>42204548>trying to chase that feelingYour mistake. Should've taken the cue when taking the strongest drugs known to man dindu shit. Next time you'll experience something similar is when you pass but taking a shortcut will not lead to a good place. You already took a shortcut and have ro deal with it for the rest of your life.If you're willing to take an advice, lay off the substances and do your best to find solace in the little things of life. The ride never ends.
>>42206485facts
>>42204548>did i reach nirvana in my teens and then lose it permenantly?No, the experience wasn't nirvana. At least read on this and what they are instead of using the terms willy-nilly. For your own sake.Seems like you were lucky, but most of the event wasn't caused by you but likely by the guy (or at least the entity appearing as the guy) you either stumbled upon or otherwise had fortuitious connection with.Probably the entity moved on or the connection frayed. People change with age and likely so did you. Here I sympathize, having my own, albeit different spiritual experience involving something else, which I cannot repeat now that I am much older.
I never had anything that spectacular while meditating. Just a sun like thing inside my head, very bright. I never saw that again. Now that I'm much older I simply cannot meditate. It just doesn't work.
My favorite meditation is that the world is non-arising, from the Sutra on the Elimination of Karmic Obscurations. This one is really trippy. It's really hard to grasp, and then describe in words, what it is. It's not a readily intuited English word.
>>42204548> see some chink looking guyGot me laughing
>>42204548discordgg/zfVbW8yZm
