I feel like I'm perpetually stuck in the backrooms of reality, it doesnt feel real yet here I am. Everything feels like a weird dream that doesnt end. I wouldnt be surprised if I wake up in another dimension or somewhere else when I die.
well it is all made out of dream
thats called dissociating.
Cat posters are just simply the worst
>>42224844TF u say u lil bitch
>>42224634I actually have the same feeling and worse. I'm in the fucking twilight zone
>>42224839No dissociation is when you day dream or pretend you are someone (i.e. multiple personalities identity complex etc...) or somewhere else because you can't cope with the trauma
>>42224862could be trauma, could be medical.also spend less time staring at screens
>>42224634I've felt like this on and off for decades now. Sometimes I'm so worried that I'm just dreaming that I just don't do anything, there's no point if it's not real and if I try to do something it'll just turn into a nightmare. Ive felt trapped for so long, it comes from a trauma this is I'm sure of. I went through something so horrible I just pretended it didn't happen and forgot about it, but I never really was able too.The memories comeback and it's like reality and the dream swap and I'm not sure which is real, or that if they are both real, or if it none of it is. And with the world actually getting crazier it feels like my delusions are affecting reality. I'm scared that I'll wake up and none of it was real while also being scared that it's all real and I'll never get out of here.I keep it all to myself of course, talking about it makes it feel so much worse. But I saw this post and it made me feel a little bit better knowing that there are other people out there with the same struggle.
>>42224844shut up
>>42224634life is just layers of illusion stacked upon layers of illusion, all are made up by your mind and what people put into it. that doesn't mean your the only real thing or that everything is fake, its just that your stuck in your shitty little mindfuck/logic loop. try your best to find stillness and to strip away more layers of illusion and falsehoods, then things will slowly become more true and you will realize the base factors of your reality that everything is sat upon.
>>42225301Paranoia and suspicion are virtues
>>42224862that's not what dissociation is
Types of Dissociative Disorders:The DSM-5 outlines three main types:Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID):Presence of two or more distinct, alternating identities.Dissociative Amnesia:Inability to recall important personal information, usually of a traumatic nature.Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder:Persistent feelings of detachment from self or surroundings.Anon, you may want to seek a therapist.
>>42224634It's called depersonalization, they treat it with a cocktail of mind-altering chemicals
sometimes I feel like I'm living in a place I created as a child. That's why everything feels like a highly decayed version of the 90's.
>>42224634It's because the world already ended, and we're all dead. They use CERN or some shit to artificially extend the timeline
>>42226481Literally every time I've taken meds its made my life worse or added some new fucked up and permanent mental side effect. Last one was extreme short term memory destruction, I now have what feels like the brain of a senile 90 year old at 27.
>>42226599Yeah that's why they combine a bunch of chemicals to manage the side effects and achieve a strong result. There's also some trial and error involved.Meditation can help if you can focus/unfocus properly and don't overindulge.
>>42226585This. I hope they suffer their karma for this. I didn't consent to be in this fake world.
>>42226585>They use CERN or some shit to artificially extend the timelineBut why tho? Why keep this circus going instead of moving to the next level? I know they control the astral plane much more too and have cities there so why not put us all there?
>>42226585Theres something really sinister about this simulation. It's the mind wipes.
>>42226745>But why tho? Why keep this circus going instead of moving to the next levelI suspect it's much weirder and this is just "how it is". I think this current world is basically created from the collective human subconscious. I.e what everyone believes, becomes reality (but often in a warped and fucked up way).
>>42224634I had this random moment latelyThe scope of absurdity of life dawned on me for like 30 seconds. I felt like in a lucid dream when you forget that you were dreaming for a moment and then remember itThen I got reimmersed into reality and things became normal againI think that the longer you keep reminding yourself that there is a veil in front of your eyes, the less powerful it will be and you will start seeing more
>>42224634This is the demiurge's dream. We aren't supposed to be here at all. We're aliens bro.
>>42226994It's a nightmare that must end. Everything has to. Nothing here is good.
>>42226994>We aren't supposed to be here at all. We're aliens bro.You're filthy alien bugs that must go. You're right about that.
Spend more time outside cities. Backrooms are basically just city buildings. There's no backrooms in the woods. Also.. yesterday I ran into this dark alley and found a dead rotting cat. Lovely stuff. Very exciting. I wonder when the dogs will rip off my balls.
>>42226994Then why the fuck are you here retard?
>>42224634https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C2CogVMp5_Ehope this helps at all
>>42228378Qrd?
>>42227781Uh, because I was forced to be here. Dumbass.
