I'm multiversal. I can't be killed because I will offset myself to a parallel reality.
There isn't rally a spirituality for this since multiversal traveler souls just laugh at plebs that follow religions. Rick and Morty would be the closest to a god for us.

>>42247015
I believe I am spiritually dead. American too.

>>42247042
do you subscribe to deep atheism, or just this idea of being spiritually dead like what else do you not believe?

>>42247049
I haven't found any spiritual system that I can work with. I feel disconnected. That is my definition of spiritual death.

I'm uncertain about the existence of a Creator or a greater purpose.

>>42247087
then you dont have the dark black that atheists have from my personal review here. what would make you believe, for example did you meditate or pray for a but and try that for a few days? america is imho a very spiritual nation.

>>42247015
i am a Buddhist, but i also hold a general belief in all religions to a degree. there may not be a distinct and singular way, but more of an approach to the same thing observed through different levels of enlightenment and truth that is muddied with mistakes and misinterpretation. kinda omni-ist or baha'i esque i guess? the only one that is correct is whatever it is that allowed for all of the different people to experience more or less the same thing, in which they interpret it through language and practice. I have an even split between Germanic and Slavic lineage, mainly tracing back to Vandals and early Slavic tribes.

I am very interested in Buddhism and shamanism/tengrism/old paganism/first nations and American Indian beliefs alongside a lot of the Vedic teachings and beliefs centring around their gods, as i feel they are more similar than they are different. alongside this ive had a deep interest in daoism and internal alchemy. western esoteric shit and its alchemy as well but to a lesser degree

ive had alot of mystical experiences with meditation and practice, saw things incredibly similar to the pic you used for the thread, i also notice that after even mild meditation that everything is incredibly clear, sharp and colourful, like ive just seen for the first time.

>>42247097
I can't properly meditate or pray since I only get noise. I doubt that the US is spiritual.

>>42247104
on the christian question, i don't necessarily think bad or good of them, but I do feel like its used more as a tool rather than a true spiritual belief or way by many.

>>42247104
>>42247148
alright thanks for the first thorough reply. i think your color is from all this hodgepodge not ascertainable directly, you mentioned hinduism, shamanic amerindians, and alchemy. alchemy is generally light green. buddhism, if youre mahayana which i assume here, is white plus yellow. shamans can be grouped into mostly blue but theres green and rarely red. dark blue and medium to dark green. so, i cant say that you have any specific rainbow color associated but you seem to have a strong white aura. the ancestry seems to give off more blue from what you mentioned here in context with the other beliefs you hold.

>>42247124
noise? what do you mean noise, prayer is just talking to god where is the noise coming there sorry?

>>42247181
to clarify i don't practice those other ways, just that i think they have some level of truth to them.

the white/blue/green is correct i think, as those are the primary colours ive seen during my meditations.. everytime i've had an experience regarding a vision of something simmilar to the image above, the one i would see would be pure white, like whiter than snow white.

>>42247148
you seem rather removed from the christian side but nearly no one ive met here or in real life has actually seen behind christianity so you would need to discard that type of stuff in your heart if you dig buddhism.

>>42247203
no dont misunderstand green doesnt appear to be associated with your heart but blue from ancestry wise and context youve given on it. blue and white, i sense little to no yellow and no green. tell me more about the white light visions what exactly how do you interpret these?

>>42247213
and i have to add light blue, not dark blue and only ancestry wise. light blue if i havent mentioned is hindu and judaism gnosticism ascetic gnosticism though not valentinians.

>>42247015
>spirituality
Hermetic qabalah and alchemy.

>cultures
People will mock me for this but I really admire the French, their historical contributions to art, culture, and philosophy inspire me. Also the ancient Greeks, for the same reasons, but not the Romans. The Romans I despise for their imperialism and arrogance. Same with every other imperialist culture that wants to dominate the planet. I am neutral toward the Jews.

>race/nationality
white american

>investment
I read qabalistic books and practice pathworking and divination every day, I even post in /div/ here on /x/ sometimes doing trades

>opinion on christians
I think any kind of mystical christianity like gnosticism is pretty based, except for the fact that it rejects this reality and views it as a prison. I don't accept any religion or spiritual teaching that tells us our lives are a form of punishment or that our existence is flawed or that being here on this planet is in any way some kind of negative existence or imperfect existence. I don't agree with any of that. I think there is a place for what we call "evil" in the universe, without being dualist. It is possible to reconcile the existence of evil with the existence of good without seeing everything as dualistic, if you believe that the apparent dualism of good and evil is only a projection that we invent in order to grant meaning to our experiences and capture the narrative of what's going on around us in a useful framework that isn't objectively "real", but subjectively it is to us, and so it is "real" in a manner of speaking, but only in a manner of speaking. That is to say, "good" and "evil" are symbolic of a more fundamental singular truth that is inherently non-dualistic in nature, and it is this inherently non-dual "pre-nature" you might call it, that actually emanates the dual nature of all existing "things".

For the learned I am of course refering to Kether, but the subject is far too complex to fully elucidate in this one post.

>>42247226
however the light blue i see with you here is hindu not judaic.>>42247203

>>42247213
typically i would be meditating untill i'd be washed with colors, from those tiny dots of colors would come a empty void where a meditating figure was. very slowly the colors would morph and form into a landscape similar to buddhist paintings/like the pic in the thread untill it would be washed with pure white light shining from the void area. after that it would make the landscape look photo-real, and in the place of the empty void where the meditating figure was would be a person with totally white skin, like the light i saw, the sun crested just behind his head. i always thought it was Vairocana.

Aight chumps, gather around for a quick lowdown of our current situation. Every entity, every being is currently experiencing their own drastically different realm than their neighbor. Communication is active translation of original intent across worlds. You don't KNOW what others see, just reliably assume.

>>42247237
all of the colors you mentioned would be present, but incredibly tiny and only to make up the landscape that i would find myself in. the only true colours that held a large amount of space were the blue which would become the sky, and the white light which would become what i thought was Vairocana

>>42247227
hermes has green, qabbalah dark judaic blue with black and alchemy light green like hermes. french have blue vibes greeks had light blue vibes and romans as you dont like them do not have blue at all but red and yellow the muslims call them banu al asfar the sons of yellow. anyhow. i first thought when i read your last part about kether than this was your own ideas but it is apparently directly from the qabalah. so, the strongest color with this 'post' is blue and light to dark black, but i sense more white in your heart than anything. not too much rather average compared to others here maybe a little more than the buddhist slavic poster i think because you seem more adept in your respective way than he is coming from the idea that he doesnt live in a buddhist country and you live in a country where jews are present which you probably have met before of them. and its quite a pure light i think that you have. tint of blue.

>>42247237
im not a buddhism expert sadly.. however it could from this very well be vairocana. maybe the buddha himself ive seen a buddhist video on archive.org where hes depicted in pure white. do you think it might be shakyamuni buddha, question two what spiritual implications do you think this visions have for your journey?>>42247238
this is atheistic, if theres one god, and there is, then we all experience the same reality. but i appreciate the post.

>>42247255
Thank you, I appreciate the time and patience you put into this and I will meditate on it at length. You've given me a gift and I am grateful for it. I do not know who you are, but I pray that your way is blessed and all good things will come to you eventually.

>>42247186
I'm unsure. I don't think anyone or anything is there to listen or respond.

>>42247276
thanks. youre welcome.

>>42247273
>atheistic
Fucking how my guy. Everything exists, including your singular almighty god.

>>42247273
Yes actually, ive feeling/idea of it being Buddha, i just never wanted to outright say it was in the case that it wasn't.

I feel like the implication it had was of goodness and being towards the right path, ways of living, and ways of being even if simple and relaxed. Peace and truth will find me so long as I allow the seed that it bares to bloom inside me, like how a flower may grow. I am close, but nowhere near the finish line. Its like seeing the first sprout come out of your garden, you know your going to have fruit and flowers with just a little more time and patience.

in alot of ways, this has proven itself true in my life, as ive become calmer, found life easier to bare alongside being able to pass good teaching and wisdom to others, alongside learning from others, no matter how stubborn or difficult either of us may be, we will learn from each other and find truth among our moments that we can carry with us.

European.
Would probably be considered apophatic (Gnostic).
Bad opinion of Christians in general. Sympathetic opinion of Christ.

>>42247299
i cannot help you find faith in god of course, but i strongly followed hinduism and a little shamanism before i discovered that there is a god. it has made me so calm and serene compared to before especially so i can only advise you start seeking. many personal problems are simply vanished away. i feel like i have a true purpose and background to my life.

>>42247015
My ultimate truth is that the universe wants all perspectives to be experienced, so nothing you do is ever wrong.
The universe literally celebrates every single thing you do, because it wants every perspective to be experienced.

Also, the universe actually prefers pain and suffering, because pain leads to adaptation, learning and growth.
This is evolution is. When a species goes through hardship and pain, it adapts, learns and grows.
Pain is stimulating evolution, so the universe actually prefers for people to go through pain and hardship.
This is the harsh truth of nature.

I'm a black American, age 35.
I came to these conclusions through meditation and psychedelic drug use, mostly Ayahuasca and Mushrooms.

>>42247307
i wasnt talking about your person, i was just saying these ideas smell of a mindset that is still clinging to atheism. and yeah you might not be a real atheist but i dont think you fully believe in god youre on the spectrum of agnosticism i think.

>>42247308
did you contemplate hinduism, how does it make you feel generally?

>>42247327
apophatic gnosis seems to be light blue judaic coloring. european is too broad it could be multiple colors, if you can, please explain your faith some more.
what is god, or apophatic better asked what is god not? and which gnostic sect of antiquity or modern times best represents your views id assume you did some research in this regard i hope.

>>42247349
I have. I had a generally positive feeling towards it alongside its teachings, although there was a little bit of confusion and uncertainty around very few of the gods and other things with it in comparison to the vedics, like how some asuras were no longer asuras, or how some figures were seemingly missing from the Vedas, although I more or less had a feeling they were incorporated into some of the other gods/figures rather than being an extension of them.

>>42247343
Sorry I should have just said I'm pagan. I follow the fates.

>>42247336
wow this is unexpected but cool. anyhow. i sense no strong color because i think the ideas generally that you collected are simple philosophy and not practiceable religion spirituality in the real sense. what cultures in the ancient or modern world do you look up to generally? if youre black southern then the closest comes is the grey white with some blue that generally characterises i assume youre baptist evangelical background.

>>42247366
i dont follow modern hinduism but i think hindu vedas are so deep i listened to them and it made me somehow different and thats just internet listening not even the real thing. anyhow so do you think of digging more like theistic religion spiritiality? because i was buddhist leaning for a long time but discovered true faith in god through the upanishads, i think and this changed my personality to such an extent that i can only root for theism since then. but id like to hear your thoughts.

>>42247385
what pantheon, i assume fates and such its the greek, but modern neopagans arent deeply entrenched in the rituals and so on, and honestly i think if you go back far enough the greek pagans back before werent really distinguishable from hindus.

>>42247385
so what i mean to say with the above post is why arent you simply a hindu or inspired through hinduism? just because of this notion of european supremacy or what?

>>42247408
this is one line about Buddhism that i think people get kinda wrong. the claim of "no gods and no one god that made everything" isnt saying that it doesn't exist, just that its likely not in the form of a typical god or man. I have a somewhat theistic view i think.

A god does exist, its just formless, indescribable and exists through everything and in everything, like how light claws through dark and dark claws through light.

in my eyes, if one greater ultimate exists, which it likely does, it is the process that allows for all other processes to exist, including reuniting with it and escaping the other ways (reaching nirvana and escaping reincarnation)

its there, and i do believe in it. thats why i said a have a more generally omni-ist or baha'i esque belief on top of being Buddhist.

everyone can see the light, we just cant describe it outside of it being there and making the world bright and full of life, even if it is illusory and a point that is just beyond the higher points, even the higher position is an illusion, the only thing really true is whatever that process that breeds the other processes, and allows for their escape and re-uniting with it.

>>42247462
imo you dont have true faith until you are absilutely certain he exists. and thats a long way took me ten years almost. brahman from what i read through isnt the highest reality. the highest reality is "purusha". spirit. something so beyond that it cannot be described.

>>42247334
That sounds wonderful for you. Thanks for letting me play your game.

>>42247412
The Norse fates, Urd, Verdandi, Skuld.

>>42247482
indeed it is wonderful. youre welcome :))

>>42247477
i am certain it exists, i just cant describe it as a physical thing, person, or way, it simply is and is simply. for that, i feel incredible comfort and warmth from merely being able to know and accept that fact, it makes it all so much easier for me. It just is.

>>42247484
dude just listing names doesnt impress me. i have seen my own aura and its dark blue and no trace of any abrahamism. but that was in public. it might be dark red with black right now which is cool too. no trace of abrahamism again so just listing nonchristian names does a lot of nothing for me. what is the essence of your faith? how deep can you go in your eyes so that you can be a real pagan?

I am open about spirituality. I believe there's value in practices such as prayer and dialoguing with spirits or gods or whatever you believe in, but there's a good chance the wisdom you get is your own subconscious or higher brain. It would still be wisdom. I'm agnostic about whether God and the supernatural really exist outside of brain phenomena.

I haven't found a path. I'm interested in modern "spiritual but not religious" approaches. I like it when traditions emphasize love and compassion. I really DISLIKE Taoism. I also think there's too much bad in the world for God to be behind everything.

USA. Both parents immigrants from Asia.

Christianity scares me. I'm not even religious, but "what if I go to hell?" is part of what frightens me about exploring religions. And any ancient religion is going to clash somewhat with modern morals. But it's mostly okay.

>>42247495
thats not what i feel from your vibes. you wouldnt restate it this strongly just for reassurance. work hard to experience true faith thats my advice. buddhism may be cool but the demiurge is all that buddha preached he never spoke afaik about purush and atman. honest answer from me is discard the buddhism, buddha did not know god.

>>42247495
perhaps it does carry a face, or a way, or a process i can observe, but i see no reason to observe it so long as i know it is. being able to accept it inside myself and my heart as whatever it is and that simply is all i need.

I don't need to see the position of whatever made it happen, i just need to be accept that it made it happen, and for that i feel great joy.

I do not need to stare at the sun to see its light, yknow?

>>42247509
i like your answer. without a set path, you will not be able to acquire a true color except muddied stuff so i cannot see anything deeper here. but tell me more about your background, are you raised christian or like what. asia can mean a lot of things.

>>42247500
Oh fuck I was here to impress you? I'm just here to throw out wild directions bud. No body sees what you see, so respect what others see ya twat.

>>42247548
i mentioned muslims call romans banu al asfar. i also see yellow when i look at rome with my mental eye. maybe the truth is, all other people in history saw these colors just modern people dont see them.

>>42247568
*asfar is arabic for yellow. banu means sons of.

>>42247568
Okay let me break it down to simple terms. Your yellow could be my blue, we just translate it to the same word.

>>42247601
this is bullshit nobody believes that. search your heart. westerners like you or whatever you are will just say shit like that because of their hatred for organized religion. nooo. look dude my blue your blue his blue and so on, and in the end its just talk. who told you this? some dude. who told christ to spread his message? god, or some form of higher consciousness or whatever. not some dude. and i think you realize that deep down.

>>42247601
the point is you dont believe that. you just insist it, because you have lost connection to reality and its basically lunacy you postulate in your heart you probably just believe god doesnt exist because of what you say its clear.

>>42247614
>>42247626
You two have chosen your roads, just try not to ignore the signposts from others.

>>42247643
i think theres no signposts from others, who browse this board, that i should take notice of. i have seen the light. a great light has dawned, the people are in wonder.

>>42247670
Don't blind yourself feller.

>>42247681
what do you think about satanism? not a satanist just interested what you think.

>>42247689
Satanism, another form of worship to a god that tickles their fancy. They lika the goth girls, if you catch my drift. They see "inconsistencies" with the worlds shared by their neighbors, so they well fuck off and do their own thing.

>>42247730
i see. do you think its bad?

I feel that nothing is real, and I do not want to exist. I do not really believe in morals. Lately I have felt that "human dignity" is a lie, and some humans are, literally, NPCs. I don't really have much of a spirituality, though I've been deep into Zen Buddhism before and have had some kind of...awakening a few years back. I like Catholicism aesthetically a lot but disagree with almost all their beliefs. also fascinated by dreams. I have written down all of my dreams, every day, since I was nine years old.

so what color is that, OP?

>>42247748
To them? no. But to others? yes. This is a multifaceted war for what's real my friend. Good or bad is written by the multitude of SOLITARY "winners" of these wars.

>>42247760
black. im black too. but i enjoy a positive outlook on life.