I have nothing in my life for some years now. I'd like to think I've got used to it, but I feel like I sure didn't or it just takes much more time. Demons and their servants on Earth prevent me from developing my few remaining hobbies, I feel like I don't enjoy doing things that I considered nice anymore. In the end, I deserve this fate, in some way. I'm a sinner that did some depraved things.
what did you do ya dirty dog
>>42252533I fucked yer mum real good. How about that?
>>42252709You too?
>>42252505Stop blaming external agency for your insecurity and take some fucking responsibility like a man.
>>42252505I am sorry to hear that anon. I will say that you don't deserve that no matter what you have done. Work on removing the entities anon. Ask Odin for help.>>42253002The beings anon is dealing with really do literally suck the joy out of things. It isn't his fault, although only he can fix it.
>>42252505>Demons and their servants on Earth prevent me from developing my few remaining hobbiesI've got the same feeling. This current reality is really hard to navigate through, like constantly having to swim against the tide for even the most basic stuff. I observe others and they seem to get their shit pretty well, I'm starting to wonder if I wasn't just nerfed by some matrix script. It's really frustrating. Best of luck OP, I believe we can sort it out one way or another
>>42252505same OP. >>42254479>I'm starting to wonder if I wasn't just nerfed by some matrix scriptyou probably were. I was at least. in the end though it takes two to play this game, if I had been strong enough to throw off the yoke of the learned helplessness programming they saddled me with as a boy then I would have been able to ascend and meet my potential long ago, but just like OP I am a sinner and a man of tasteless depravity, I chose to lay in the bed they made for me.your comment about needing to swim against the tide for even the most basic stuff really resonated with me. in addition to basic shit being made into a struggle for me, my buttons get pushed everyday constantly in small imperceptible ways that I'd never be able to communicate to anyone without sounding completely insane. I'm pretty resilient mentally but I fear that eventually the sleep depravation and constant negative emotional states will cause my body and brain to fail physically, which is probably the plan.
