Is the spiritual path inherently doomed to be recursive periods of bliss/despair or is goying myself out somehow worse?I notice suspiciously unvaried life events. I've experienced a strange cycle where I meet someone special in August, followed by an intense honeymoon period (whether romantic or platonic) in which my life is very enriched followed by a crash in the Novembers/Decembers, which ultimately concludes in a very brutal detachment in April. I would not pay mind to this, had this not been the 3rd year in a row where such a thing happened.I've been attempting to get into spirituality but with how confusing and circlejerkish it is I'm a little bit lost and do shit solely based off of vibes sometimes. I guess what I'm asking is if my life narrative thus far is mere chance/retardation on my behalf. Im getting really tired of having some serious groundhog day shit every year but with switched characters. Sorry if this post is a mess, I'm not even sure how to explain it fully.
>>42257371You've been doing your best with limited perception. There is a trade off for opening your mind, as it will re-frame how you interact with everything other than you. Pick literally any spiritual path that resonates with you. It has to resonate, otherwise you're a gambler.>I guess what I'm asking is if my life narrative thus far is mere chance/retardation on my behalf.Yes, welcome to the club
>>42257371do you complain about sleeping when you are awake? about wakefulness when you sleep? life runs on many cycles. each aspect of you deserves its turn to live in its proper way. very few connections are lasting, but they are precious when you find them. look forward to august, anon
What does this drug have to do with anything?
>goying myself out somehow worse?Yes goymSeek GodJesus Christ be praised
>>42258118pic unrel, it's the most recent saved image i had, i was discussing the phenethylamine group with someone
