i've exhausted all rational hope to fix my medical (partly spiritual) issues, so all that i have left left is to hope for something else. i have prostrated myself out to god ever since i was a child, but never had anything i felt like was a response. i have had many situations where things could have easily been much worse and i have gotten lucky, so i do feel like i have been protected from the worst outcomes for some purpose. i've also recently experienced a string of losses which have unencumbered me from a number of things that i had been tethered to. what should i do?
>>42272706if you're free, use your freedom. you can't decide to become healthy, so just try to enjoy life as much as possible for now. Carry your burden through.
>>42272721i feel like i have spiritual aids. compensatory hedonism doesn't sound very satisfying to me
>>42272735i didn't mean it so narrowly, but it sounds like you know what you want already
>>42272706https://haidut.me/?p=1810>A very interesting study, which once again corroborates the hypothesis that there is no chronic condition, which is not either caused or heavily influenced by steroids.
>>42272745i'm not even really sure what i want besides the absence of the yoke i have currently. but i have been crying out for that for almost 20 years and heard nothing so far. everything positive i felt like i've had to claw out in spite of god, in spite of guidance, just happening to find something.there's another surgery i can try to improve things in the meantime but it will be a long time and be pretty large. maybe that will be enough for me to not care.i don't know if this is related but i've noticed that i've always had a problem with envy. on the one hand i still have so much i want to do and have and maybe that's stopping me from being as grateful for what i have currently. maybe i learn to just accept my burden, but when 99% of people don't have to deal with what i have to deal with every day, and there are even so many other things that i see other people have that i don't, it is hard to not be envious of others.
>>42273014thank you, i don't have GERD but i do suspect that i have IBS or something like it, at least sometimes. it's not really that bad though.
>>42272706I'm sorry to read that. I have no idea what your illness is. So i can't recommend you how cure or reduce it without more information. But i will try to give you some advices. About health and about feelings.Advice for health:Try to eat healthy if you don't. Minimun enought proteins and vitamin C. Just if should be easy. It will help you to feling better if you didn't do it before. If you want do somenthing more, try to eat more balance, more vegetables, more fiber, less sugar, etc. Well internet can show you.If you can, go out and get some sun, not too much. Vitamin D will help you to prevent depression and make you feel better. Besides, if you like sport and your illness allows you, try to practice some fisical activity that you like. Hiking, yoga, danceAdvice about feelings:It is fine if you don't feel grateful. If you care about what "someone up there" think about you, try to think how you judge at somenthing that is sufering like you and doesn't is grateful. It is supose that you are less compasive that a "higher power". For last. If you know you are doomed to die, try imagin nice things that you would like do if you were born again knowing that you know. (It was that i did when i wanted kill myself) If not, think about what do you wanna do if you won't die.I hope all goes well for you.
>>42274800my illnesses all come from genetic birth defects unfortunately. i need something outside even the bounds of normal body healing and function>It is supose that you are less compasive that a "higher power". this is a very good point, thank youi will never die. but i want to live at least like everyone else gets to
>>42272706>>42274477>>42274833I'm very sorry to hear this...I think I might understand what you're saying I'll pray for you.Also, maybe one day soon they'll be a cure for what you are trying to describe...or maybe I or someone could help in some other way. Like via donation??? Not necessarily of money.
