This will sound EMO as fuck but it is not my intention. Over the course of a week I have suddenly stopped identifying as a human, and randomly started to think the 'Illuminati' are right with their abuse over the masses. This is unlike me and I think it could have been like implanted in my mind?It made me think about the weird 'masquerading as human' synchronicity that has gone on, with 'Demon Face syndrome', that indie game, etc etc. Am I being targeted to be inducted into that group?
>>42298633get off the internet, go do something fun
>>42298633Would be interessing to meditate on such and write down the thoughts thay show up, then reflect upon it.Might give you an answer or insight in this whole ordeal, bless ya OP
>>42298643Can't since I live in the middle of nowhere and I'm an autistic retard. I have always been separate from humanity but I've never had this level of weird contempt for them, it seems unnatural and like something has forced itself into my mind
>>42298643^^^^^^^Also this
>>42298633shameless selfbump in case anyone has more input. Not even for advice just want peoples thoughts. Anyone else noticed what I have, with the syncronicity?
>>42300961Tbh OP, i can't be sure but when i felt such dettachment of everything i turned in meditation and physical training to rest my mind and reflect on it laterIt helped me
>>42298633>the 'Illuminati' are right with their abuse over the masses.I wish you knew what they were really all about. They're like bugs.
>>42298633>Over the course of a week I have suddenly stopped identifying as a human, and randomly started to think the 'Illuminati' are right with their abuse over the masseswhy not explore the dark hallways and see what's behind all those closed and locked doors? who knows, you might find some treasure.
>>42298651If I roll dubs go touch a fucking tree or something
>>42304675Ah well I guess you're the chosen one and there's nothing we can do
>>42298633I lived in both worlds at once most of my life. The key is not balancing them, rather reconciling.
Isn't it funny how these spiritual boards will talk about dealing with your emotions and shadow work, the individuals will show extreme kindness and helpfulness to people who say they are having issues with sadness, depression, addiction, schizophrenia, absolutely no judgement, but if anything even suggestive of being against other people is posted it has to be prefaced with all this dismissive emo handwaving. Maybe that is the real psyop. Well OP I suppose my advice would be the same as anything else. Lean into the feeling. Try to pinpoint where it's coming from. Maybe you had an experience when you were young and this situation resonates with it. Experience it to let it go. Don't let fear stop you from progressing yourself.
>>42304764This is a satanist board fyi.
>>42304764>Well OP I suppose my advice would be the same as anything else. Lean into the feeling. Try to pinpoint where it's coming from.I'd say I probably know where it is coming from, despite it being some months ago. Basically someone I loved went against my advice and revealed that they are both completely foolish and possibly they want to just end it (I'd prefer to not reveal much). If I had to think upon this I imagine that is the moment I realized humanity itself is beyond help and regardless of what I do in this life, everyone else is just lambs to the slaughter.This made me feel very powerful, on one hand, since I finally felt like I was above others and I noticed I am more of a manipulator. But it also made me feel soulless and to be honest a few days ago I was thinking of just game overing myself. Overall it's a very dark and horrible mindset. Right now I am sort of in the middle of 'pro-human' and 'anti-human' mindsets and feel quite a bit better
>>42305833>Right now I am sort of in the middle of 'pro-human' and 'anti-human' mindsetsyou do realize that there's several different species of humans on earth, and different generations ranging from degraded down to rats, to just freshly abandoned previous cycle, to newly made aryans?
>>42298633>you will never be nicohttps://youtube.com/shorts/62cN3AVVoY4?si=3ovdTueZa2TOI5ll:)
>>42305833Having two such drastically different reactions to it means you probably aren't losing your humanity, or else you just would have and wouldn't really need to question it. You definitely wouldn't be considering offing yourself. It sounds more like you are dealing with a mix of disappointment and betrayal, from this person for behaving in such a low, stupid manner, and that they have not tried harder to be better humans, both for themselves and for those they are supposed to love, you. Maybe you felt like manipulation would be helpful in protecting them? The problem is if we want anyone to respect our own free will and freedom to choose them we equally have to respect others free will, even if they are basically alcoholics slowly killing themselves day by day. If we all have a life, destiny, and karma to work through then we do a disservice of others to deny them their experience and choices in life. You can try to help to others but just being a good example to others means they can take nothing from you, more direct help that they then decide they no longer want can lead to more disappointment when it is spurned. It's a difficult choice, but anyone who cares about you will tell you to choose yourself first. I'm glad you're feeling better but recognise these kinds of feelings take a while to get over. Just look at all the seething that goes on in vax threads because people tried to talk their family members out of it, who subsequently got injured. Little steps.
The pessimism and nihilism of today were caused by the digitalization of the world and by MK Ultra but i will bring back light and optimism to the world
