> be 17, dumb, think it's edgy to make a covenant with a succubus> want power, want sex, want to feel special> get what i ask for – not power, not pleasure, but hell> see twisted faces, no eyes, just rows of teeth, laughing that chaotic evil laugh> get delivered, spirits cast out, no porn, clean for years> but swedenborg was right – profanation leaves a permanent stain> celestia and spiritual heavens are closed to me forever> only the natural (lowest) heaven remains – lower than most christians> my will is broken. brown stain on everything i try to do.> conjugial love damaged. future wife under threat.> regeneration is a lifetime of daily scrubbing. no feelings. no visions. just obedience.> but i still hope for the higher heavens.> not because i'm special or better than anyone.> because the lord showed me mount zion in a vision. he gave me the promise of a wife.> maybe his mercy is wider than swedenborg's map.> maybe natural heaven has degrees and i can climb a little.> i don't know. i can't force it. i just can't stop hoping – desperately, not proudly.> warning to every generation:> don't fuck with evil spirits. you will lose what you can never get back.> seriously. it's not a game. the stain is real. the loss is permanent.> but if you already did what i did – don't give up.> even crumbs from god's table are enough. keep scrubbing.pray for me. i'm still marching.
>brown stain on everything i try to do
Not sure if I’ve gone as far as encountering a succubus but I can’t stop pay cam girls for cam shows, sometimes even incorporating a degradation thing about my ex. I desperately want to stop. Spiritual implications of this? How do I heal? Am i permanently profaned?
>>42302578> didn't covenant with a succubus, just can't stop paying cam girls> even bring your ex into it for degradation> ask if you're permanently profanedno. you're not profaned. profanation requires mixing holy truth with evil intent, covenanting with spiritsbut this will be your fate, you're not damned to the deepest pit, but you're building your own brothel in the afterlifeswedenborg says your going to be covered in shit lusting having sex feeling no pleasure. only hatred.that's your eternal apartmentconjugial love dies. marriage poisoned at the root.But you can heal in a way i cant,YOUR heavens are still open. you can still reach the heights. BUT only if you stop.stop paying todaykill the fantasy when it risespray for hatred of the sin, not just shamenow fight. your heavens are still open.Lord, he's stuck in filth. He pays to use. He degrades the one he once loved. Break the contract. Kill the fantasy. Give him hatred for the sin, not just shame. Lead him to war. He can't do it alone. Amen
>>42302409Then, again, you could find a better, more relevant, Non-Abrahamic religion and get the Hel out of, and forget your death warmed over zombie damnation cult! Go your own way, soonest. Stop believing in your brainwashing cult crap.
>>42302923i saw it. i made a pact with a demon.
>>42302526as gross as it sounds
My guy, you are having all your post basically based on whatever Protestant heretical bullshit a random low tier Swedish guy said.Embrace Catholicism. Stop Subjectivism. Put effort on works. Understand the Sacraments. There is always a way to fix things.
>>42302987>ut effort on works. Understand the Sacraments. There is always a way to fix things.I hear you im already doing that.Im currently fixing things i understand works. Im living right repenting and purifying myself and trying to love others and god. Im not sold on swedenborg but alot of what i saw lined up with what he worte when i was delievered.
Brother, the plea of a sinner is closer to God than a priest, God is with you and you have been put in this for the greater benefit of your soul and yourself, God loves you man don't forget it, you have repented and that's all that matters, you're on your way and we're with you.
Most people don't get away to tell the tale from a demon, you've made it past that, the worst is behind you and you're here, you're loved.
>>42302526>trying to doo itThere's your problem>>42302946Demons are literally below us in hierarchy>Tree makes a rotten apple>"Ugh, I'm just a rotten fucking tree!"Funny how you gotta let the apple die before the seeds can grow lil nigga
>>42303177Repenting hasn't given him shit! He's still beating himself up - as if some higher fucking power is gonna descend from the sky and save him.What a sham!God rewards those who save themselves
>>42302867Thank you for prayer anon. I will pray for you as well. I hope you find our way out.
>>42304517As if saving yourself isn't the reward!As if you aren't the God that saves you!AS IF THERE WERE ANYTHING TO SAVE YOURSELF FROM!
>>42304526i believe gods merrcy is unlimited, but i have seen so much close to what the old swedenborg witnessed. I believe i will be healed.
>>42304517I thank god every day i am healing slowly. any fate is preferable to the place i was headed. so i thank the lord. God is the only judge not Rome not Swedenborg.
>>42304496ive been fighting engaging spiritual combat against evil. Im higher then it. and will make sure im above it for all time.
>>42302946Demons sound kinda weak why not make a pact with a angel?
>>42307193cuz i wanted to get my dick sucked, thats literally the reason. you cant make pacts with angels.
>>42302409Be free. Go forth and sin no more!
>>42307219I ENGAGE EVERY EVIL THOUGHT WITH COMBAT.
