Time is running out for me. I thought I was prepared mentally but I'm getting nervous yet. I fucked up this life with being a massive loser. I would love to start again to find true love if that were possible. Gay I know. I try to think positively and hope for mercy as I did learn a lot from this experience but it's too heart-rending and I'm too useless now and in too deep to turn things around. I can only hope for a better start / end on the other side.
>>42343522>Gay I knowDo not be ashamed. This is not an issue, there are many posters like this. Just be yourself anon. The /lgbt/ board can help you out. Even if you die you’ll go to the right place for you. Be strong, be proud.
>>42343641What do you think the Astral realm is like?
>>42343707Depends on the person. You create it yourself.For OP it will be a sauna full of hairy burly men. As above so below.
Imagine that after dying you reborn with your memories. What would you do?Think about it and consider how good your life would be with that knowledge. If, even knowing what you know, you still fail, you're in trouble. Thing how to fix it.You don't know what will happen after death, but you can fantasize about it.
>>42343522Don't give up on life yet. Are you religious? If so, have you tried asking your God for forgiveness and to take away the burden of your past sins? Think of how you would life from then on if he does forgive you and wash away your sins. Perhaps right now is the moment that you can choose a better path for yourself that won't lead to pain and agony. Suicide is the wrong choice if it is to avoid consequences of your own actions and will not do well for you if there is a next life. Again; How would you live your life if your sins were all forgiven? Perhaps that's the place to start. God has the power to change the future that you feel is unavoidable into a better one.
>>42343522nobody knows how much time is left. nobody even knows what time is, or why it is.whatever it is, if you think it's yours, then start acting like its yours.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Af-k9sTAYEQ&pp=0gcJCd4KAYcqIYzv&ra=m
>>42343716What's wrong with burley men as long as everyone is cozy
>>42343641Lol
>>42343641Ouch
>>42343716What about me? I like naked women ages twenty eight through forty six in high heels sipping champaign. Or not even champaign, but just drinking out of or merely holding a champaign glass filled with water or some clear beverage. Also femboys ages eighteen through twenty four. And tofu chow fun and a six pack of Sierra Nevada IPA that never runs out. There are always six of them. And dank weed.
>>42343522Learn to time leap anon. https://timeleap.vercel.app/articles/time-leap-success-stories#heading-8
>>42343522Get your sins under the blood of Christ before you go. Ignore this at your own peril
>>42343522If only we could all be so lucky, there's even more fish in the next sea for you, I know because I saw it for myself due to a near death experience I had when I was younger when I was pronounced dead before coming back, which I later found out millions of others had throughout history and in recent times in terms of what everyone saw. Every since then I wanted to go back but I'd never neck myself to get there again, I'm trying to help as many souls as I can here. Just keep being yourself on the other side in the Afterlife, there's many who will love you for who you are but there's one who is deserving of you. There's not really any reason to be nervous, even if you think you did bad here you are forgiven. Maybe we will see each other in the eternity we've been given.
>>42345634Based.You will go to based hell.>>42346272I agree. Just like you OP can manifest the man of his dreams!
>>42343522>find true loveno such thing. it's all fantasies in your head to explain the hormonal bonding/reproductive drive.there is no love, and there is no "the one"
>>42347325I want to find hormonal bonding then. I'm living in a world where absolutely everyone around me has experienced pleasure and happiness that eclipses everything I have experienced and it's making me go insane.
>>42348023I don’t get why you need to be using paranormal means to deal with your gayness. You can manage your homosexual bonding without this. It will be ok.
>>42347325It exists, rare though
>>42343522ive felt like this, brain damaged and wanting to start over but learning crafts and practical stuff/art practices is making me want to see it through. good luck anon in all da lifetimes
>>42347325love can exist without it being about partnership. love can be with just you, for hobbies, for the environment and nature
