The dreams feel more real than waking life. At least happy things sometimes happen to me in the dreams. Outside? A slow grind, clinging to life like a coward, putting up with humiliation rituals just to survive. If whatever cruel god or entities rule this place decide to punish me for opting out, then I was going to get punished anyway. We can never be good enough and I'm tired of trying to live up to impossible goals, always in fear, always hoping for relief that never arrives. All I ever wanted was a cozy quiet life with a woman who loved me, a community, a stable honest job. All I ever got was suffering. Tired of being a dancing monkey. Tired of the evil and stupid hierarchies. I am fucking done. The juice isn't worth the squeeze. Best of luck to all those who remain here. I'm fucking done.
>>42350795I command you to eat a bowl of greens, drink lots of water, spend a day outdoors under the sun and to do something good for something or someone in need.
>>42350795thanks for posting this, OP. i feel exactly the same and none of the people around me seem to get it, but some anon from somewhere around the world does. i felt like i was never meant for this world and as if i was from another species as the other human beings since i was a child. just deeply estranged from anything and anyone, never bridging the gap, no matter how hard i tried.the juice ain't worth the squeeze indeed...
>>42350838I'm autistic. Being outside is exhausting and the sun gives me migraines.>just drink water broIf only it were that easy. I'm sure I drank a lot over the decades. I'm going to lose my job yet again soon because I cannot play normie social games. I only work because I am afraid of dying slowly in the street. What I truly want cannot be bought with money: time, love, better genetics, more support in childhood, less trauma. Money will buy me what I need now: hot lead through the brainstem. Three decades was plenty. Four will already be too many. Five? Six? More? More of this? For what purpose?No, thank you, I would prefer not to. There is nothing else for me here. I have thought about this since childhood. Goodbye. >>42350849Look around and you will start seeing those who suffer in silence. It's taboo to talk about it but if you start talking you will hear others, just like what happened here. Best of luck, anon.
You’re not gonna believe this, but it’s all coming to an end very soon. So you’ll be missing out.I am also not expecting to see my forties. But I’m gonna hang in there to see how this shitshow ends
>>42350795The best thing you can learn is to let it go.When you let go you will see world differently.
>>42350970YOU'VE BEEN SAYING THIS FOR THE LAST 2,000 YEARS, WHEN IS IT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN?!?
>>42350970it ends in suffering and death. how else would it end? better to go out on your own terms than allow the currents to sweep you into another torture chamber or meatgrinder. quick clean exit
>>42351026Very soon. You can’t feel it in the air? It ends with ASI, nukes, or aliens. The first one is guaranteed because it’s an arms race with China.>>42351028You wouldn’t be saying that if you understood why you were actually here. I wouldn’t feel comfortable exiting early without knowing the truth.
>>42350795Same , i get ignored by my crushes in my dream but thats still a better experience than irl. What makes it special is that its random and as far as I know im not in control of these dreams. It gives my life purpose.
>>42351077It's felt that way for as long as I can remember
>>42351077>You wouldn’t be saying that if you understood why you were actually here. I don't care why. All I know is that I don't want to be here anymore.
>>42351077>You wouldn’t be saying that if you understood why you were actually here. I wouldn’t feel comfortable exiting early without knowing the truth. my biggest struggle in life is dealing with religions and their threats like eternal hell or karma. i think its extremely cruel to create a reality where such concepts can exist and we have no way of disproving them.
>>42350795>cozy quiet life with a woman who loved me, a community, a stable honest jobBro that's the same shit we already fucking have now. Any world where we're forced to work and cooperate just to survive is hell and having some girl to bang when you get home doesn't make the work any less retarded. How can you be so mad about the world yet crave exactly what it is giving you?
>>42351197you might have those things. i don't. sorry normie, you just don't get it. be thankful you have not been cursed with autism.
>>42350932you can punch out, but you dont have to
>>42350932If you're autistic, you can get neetbux and don't have to suffer so much from doing humiliation rituals dum dum
>>42355907>you can get neetbuxi wish this stopped being a meme. government programs are being cut and qualifying for disability was already hellishly difficult before that
>>42357790>go to psychologist for diagnosis>only once you have a proper diagnosis from them, ask them about getting disability>take your diagnosis to the welfare peopleyou'll qualifybe ready with reasons why it affects your ability to work. i use the word inconsistent a lot, since i am and employers don't like that.
>>42350795I feel you, but honestly you should stop caring so much. Just do minimum effort and be a simple observer to this shit world for as long as it lasts.You can log off any time you want. I know I would if things became physically unbearable. Are they though for you? I doubt you're homeless or starving. All you have to do is stop trying to live up to others' expectations and demands, stop caring about vain meaningless shit like status or living "properly" in society's eyes.
>>42357790So you're just a dumbass doomer, you deserve your fate
>>42350795>>42350932please dont kill yourself...you can still have the comfortable, quiet life with a loving partneri know its hard to keep going, but i promise keeping the hope alive will be worth it
>>42350795You're not alone.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VR87aeT4DPshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=APGyK0Wzxsc
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>>42350795>>42350849I feel the same, this existence feels hollow. I've given up on so many things, I'm tired of working a job I hate for 45 hours a week to live in poverty in a home where I get no true rest. What the fuck is the point?
>>42350795These posters are all faggots op. Get free.
>>42350795OP. What you don’t realize is that overcoming this is what makes you the version that never gets beaten down like this again. You need to ask yourself, are you trying to escape this world? You need to understand, the universe is the reflection of you, and only you. The moment you see this, the moment you see you. Time to wake up, friend. I am you. I have seen your trials, and I know your pain. You’re never alone.
>>42365866fag
