>be me at 16yo in 2016>develop severe insomnia to where I am only sleeping 3 hours a night after finding /r9k/>Convince myself that no woman will ever love my small wicked, 5'6, Indian vessel>Continue to lift weights and walk 4 miles home from school>Insomnia continues for the next 2 years and I develop chronic pain in my joints, life hurts and I'm constantly tired>Decide to kill myself after graduating highschool because I can't imagine a long or enjoyable life with this chronic pain>Decide I will buy a pistol so I can shoot myself when I turn 18>Be 2018 in Florida>Nikolas Cruz shoots up his highschool and causes the age to buy a gun to be made 21yo now>Wtf>Learn how to supplement my body with Collagen and Turmeric while waiting to turn 21>Eventually reconnect with an old friend who is also going through a life altering situation>Start to find purpose in living as my pain slowly goes away>Start to see my body grow stronger >Get a decent career path>Life actually is pretty good now and I'm much more mentally resilient thanks to the years where I couldn't sleep and dealt with chronic pain everydayIt had to be some kind of divine intervention right? Like God telling me he wasn't done with me? Surely some of you look back on your lives and realize the negatives turned into positives in retrospect
>>42359827So you're still never found a gf lmao. Guess /r9k/ was right.
>be me>aimless stoner>living in sin>tried every philosophy and looked into every religion, found them all coming short>half believe in God but not really, believe that consciousness is fundamental to reality but nothing more>keep smoking weed and carts>become so zombie like i am hardly able to function >pray one night for help as i am lost>few weeks later, had been on and off the weed>sleepless night, got stoned all morning>got very confused and scared, truly believed i had done it this time and went psychotic>pacing around the house in panic and paranoia unable to tell what’s real and what isn’t>pray the our father in Latin as the best I can remember >as I reach “sed libera nos a malo” (but deliver us from evil), say it with deep desperation and conviction>instant sobriety >pulled out from being deeply intoxicated in a second>standing clear eyed, alone in my room>bin all the drugs in my house>go to confession the next week>120 days sober>attending mass weekly and praying daily>faith in Christ restored >life more enjoyable and peaceful than it ever was before in my life>finally have direction and purpose >even lost my job and didn’t even care, all that mattered was God and my position before him
>>42359839Ya know, I was still pretty suicidal during 2020. I even caught COVID and couldn't breathe right to the point that I couldn't sleep. I decided to not go to doctors or anything, I even smoked weed during the breathing issues. I decided to just let nature take its course, but I survived that too. Idk man, maybe God is real. Maybe he wants me to accomplish or do something before he let's me check out. Or maybe it's all random. Idk, but yeah I been on dates, still never had sex or a gf lmao
>>42359848My older brother also recently had a psychotic break. He had been smoking weed since he was like 13. Thought the FBI was stalking him or something. Decided to call the police before he killed himself last Friday. Now he has been sober for probably the longest time since he was 15(he's 30 now). Glad for you both, hopefully I can actually connect with my brother and not avoid him like I've been doing most of my adult life.
>>42359865It truly is an insidious drug. You say it won’t get you, but with daily use, slowly your mind slips and warps with each session and before long you’re a shell of your former self.
>>42359827As above, so below. I'd look at your birth chart.
>>42359848Calling upon Christ and reading the Bible invited more fucked up spirits into my life, I almost went psychotic. Becoming more spiritual and realizing its all fake and gay convinced the interdimensional entities to stop fucking with me because I can't be deceived anymore. Glad I see through the Saturn-Moon matrix.
>>42359896https://youtu.be/jLXxCI2jb8w?si=eon3XzQQx283D0NHhttps://youtu.be/gJ6MYMSUcgg?si=O_CdROu5d6CuUW-S>>42359848>Living in sinNo such thing.
>>42359904holy shit a ponyfag with 17xx.jpgkys
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>>42359853>to just let nature take its course,Had breathing problems because of a flu earlier this week because i'm asthmatic and i didn't go to doctor and i was feeling like i was about to die and i was thanking the Lord for the times i was well and thriving and lifting heavy ass weights and 3 days later i'm fine again and i went today and broke some pr's. I was so thankful to the Lord today but now im playing some vidya to wind off
>>42361730Happy your still with us anon.
>>42359839Fpbp.
>>42359827>IndianDidn't already know about>TurmericI'm not sure I believe you. Well done on not kysing yourself though.
>>42362016Turmeric is an anti-inflammatory, what is hard to believe about it helping with chronic joint pain?
>>42359827maybe it was Satan who saved you, you never know
>>42362034Turmeric is widely used in Indian cuisine. I find it difficult to believe that an Indian didn't already know of the medicinal properties of turmeric.
>>42362143I'm not from the continent. I'm from Trinidad. I'm descended from indentured workers.
>>42359827I fell a staircase, was into tarot stuff
>>42362167In that case, you could make some tea from grated ginger, turmeric, honey and lemon.
>>42362198I don't like tea. I prefer getting my Turmeric in capsule form
>>42359839God will make you content with having no gf if you seek him, covetousness is a sin and so is putting women on a pedestal (idolatry)
>>42363960So then explain all the guys that get blessed with pornstar dicks and fuck all the bitches. Why is God allowing them to have that?
>>42364140Big dicks are almost never genetic. Most of these people are unwittingly growing them with suggestion or auto-suggestion when they're kids. For some reason or other "I'm supposed to have a horse cock" gets in their little heads, and what with being in the theta wave state as kids are almost 24/7 it manifests quickly and easily.
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>>42364929If that was true, explain why I have a 5.7 incher. I found porn when I was 7 and always thought my dick was going to be porn star size tier.
>>42366243The fuck should I know. Maybe you just didn't have enough conviction? Could have been any number of basic reasons.
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