when i was around 11 i first realized that i was only a memory and it's haunted me ever since. every moment i experience is just a memory, i don't if it's for some stable future me or someone else but either way everything is pointless and fleeting. this knowledge feels like a cognitohazard and every positive experience is poisoned by knowing it's only something for someone else to reminisce over. every dull moment is filled with the fear it'll be instantly forgotten and i'll fade away. how do i cope with knowing this and stop letting it bother me so much?
>>42365773U need to remember this, you have never not been.
everything that will exist already does. Everything that has existed still exists. Time is an illusion. You are more than a memory, you’re eternal. Your life will always exist. There was no beginning and there will be no end, in higher dimensions all time exists at the same time and all matter is one. Matter is neither created nor destroyed, what you are will always be; in higher dimensions, your life is a page in a book, and one need only find that page to see you in all of your eternal glory. You are life, a small part of the story of how the universe became conscious and learned to know itself. There can be no greater honor than to be alive, to exist. You were never nothing, nothing does not exist, there is only the something, the collective of all things
I marathon big o
>>42365773I melt into the now and dissociate from my memories for at least 4 of my waking hours a day. I get why it sounds scary to forget what makes "you" you, but it's really not. Death is one thing, but forgetting memories while still being alive as you are is really quite peaceful.
>>42365812big o was part of turning point when I came to realize everything is fated
I am the tape itself, not what is projected through it.
>>42365799Time is the ultimate reality. There is nothing that is timeless, existence began when time began.
>>42365773I'm my soul. My body is what it is in, my mind is what rises from the body thanks to the soul. Its memories are not me, they are the memories of the body. When it dies, I will persist.
>>42365773>how do you cope with the knowledge you're only a memory?Pretty sure this is actually you realizing you're an NPC. There's more to reality than time, space, and temporally locked phenomena.
>>42366156Read moar plz
>>42366156there is no beginning or end, the universe has always and will always exist. Time is an illusion, even Einstein admitted it
>>42365773>how to copebecome a hard deterministeverything you've ever done or ever will do is set in stone on the timeline"now" is an illusion - a reader going along the tape
>>42365773>when i was around 11Like last year
>>42365893Can you talk more about this? Do you know how you do it? It's something I struggle with as it does not come easily for me, but I understand how healing it can be.
>>42365799If thats the case Explain aging and the necessity for it
>>42370501explain aging? It’s evolution, everything dies eventually. >necessity It’s not about necessity, it’s about biology. Lifeforms cannot live forever, but the lives they live are eternal from a higher-dimensional perspective. They’re an immutable part of the universe, but they still die and already have died. We’re basically already dead and always were, but are also alive and always will be. I’ve said it many times before but I’ll say it again: time is an illusion, everything happens at the same time in the same place, overlapping. Our lives are basically illusions
>>42365773Put your big boy pants on and grow up you fucking faggot.
>>42365773i feel u anon, been thinking about this scenario a lot recently>die>physical body naturally decays>including my brain>brain contains not just my memories but also my capacity for emotional expression, my human instinct, my spatial and temporal awarenessits making me think it might be foolish to be concerned about anything if its all going to vanish in an instant
>>42365773I never held on to the me of yesterday. That person dies every night. We might be the same but he's dead and I have the choice to create. The tomorrow me doesn't exist so it has no weight in how I exist right now. This doesn't remove or excuse yesterday. But I know it's a cycle so I can fold it into something else to preserve the meaning but lighten the gravity so I can be more balanced in the now.
>>42365773There are still parts of you that linger even beyond memory.>>42365812Tell me about the tomatoes. I think they are an allegory for a foreign interference because the red balloon is also red and round.
>>42365773Deep deep introspection and speaking to the creator. Every stage of my life has been to prepare me for something, and ive gleaned lessons from all of it that's helped me become a better person or look at situations differently. I believe there is no end when we die. We have to go somewhere.
>>42365773>when i was around 11 i first realized that i was only a memoryWeird, around that age I had rather deep existential thoughts too. Like I would zone out, and eventually everything began to feel fake, even myself kinda.
>>42370414It's something you have to feel your way into. Ironically, I learned to do it best during periods of intense emotion or stress. For me, when I reach a boiling point of anger/depression/anxiety there is always a moment just before I really lose control that sort of feels like im "falling" or maybe better put it's that moment at the peak of a Rollercoaster where you know you're about to fall but for just a second you feel still and free of any thought other than what is occuring in the present. If you can imagine and focus on this feeling intensely, it's exactly what you use to empty yourself at will. I find it easier to enter this state by falsifying a high stress event in my own mind instead of approaching it from a typical meditative state, When I try really hard to be calm, sit still and meditate traditionally my mind just races and I get distracted easily. When you achieve the state just focus on what the initial or most intense feeling you notice is and burn it into your brain. Keep practicing and it eventually becomes as easy as breathing.
