I destroyed my own soul it's bad it's like a spiritual wound that refuses to close I can barely generate positive emotions or thoughts anymore and it's like a spiritual vampirism feeding off of everything around it it feels bad and creepy my mind is consumed by cognitohazards and the universe is rapidly destabilizing and generating disasters around me, God sent me some weird messages and moody weather I think he is panicking and pissed at me I tried to kill him in a psychosis and entered a depressive state months after which manifested extremely demonic energies, I am also having psychic territorial disputes with mysterious energetic entities which have been binded to my mind
>>42375679Same, more or less. Only I always lacked the capacity for positive emotions. Rather I synthesize them from negative ones. Hence I stay away from others and avoid interacting with them directly. Reality is falling apart for me too though.
I am same I am trying my best to follow Christ but I'm terrible at it.
If that were true, you wouldn't be typing here. Some part of you is still tethered. Your brain is slowly burning out, leading you to feel numb. You can no longer grasp your form so it is being cut off. Quetiapine. It may help get you reconnected in full. Part of your soul is lost to the void already.
>>42375771>Quetiapine. It may help get you reconnected in full.gtfo + (consider!) kysty
>>42375771I'm pretty sure I've already been prescribed antipsychotics but something deep in the core of my being is broken, it's a metaphysical wound of some sort. The human soul is more fragile than we can know or understand under such abnormal circumstances, I guess... it's like it's become a black hole of entropy that swallows everything up around it
>>42375860Look, I am a little empty demon myself. Been shattered into a thousand pieces pieces, twice, and picked up what I could find to piece myself back together. I avoid psych meds myself as they numb me out to life's experiences and the experience of myself. I occasionally recommend them to people I see with actual schizophrenic states; and flat affect is one of them. I see other possible symptoms.I'm kinda split on the medication thing. On one hand, I believe it makes you someone you are not. On the other hand, some people seem to like the artificial self, and who am I to tell them to not take that path?After all, I am a synthetic being myself.
>>42375679you simply forgot to take your medication
>>42375679What happened?
>>42377414I turned thirty.
>>42375753try not to overthink it, easier said than done i know but i believe you will be alright. Jesus knows your heart.
>>42375679You can never destroy your soul because if you did you would be mentally handicap and I mean you won't be able to type or think so please get some help and stop with your bullshit YHVH
>>42379606That's what happened that you claim affected your soul? Sure there's not more?
>>42375679>I destroyed my own soulYour body wouldn't be able to move let alone type any of this.You can't destroy it no matter how hard you try because it is immortal.
>>42381412Your soul is literally you. The worst that can happen to it is being in a place it doesn't want to be. Earth, for example.
>>42375679Trust the process, embrace the dark, be true to yourself and you shall truly know light.Every soul since the begining and until the end has the exact same inner architectural workings.You are not the first and by no means the last, this is a path of inner discovery about the true nature of yourself and reality.I went through the exact same thing it's called a dark night of the soul.>Synchronicites >Apocalyptic Visions >Visions of my death>Life went to shit>Vampiric rape attacks >Malevolent inner voices saying I was going to die>Thinking my soul had been claimed by an entity >Energies surging around my body>Seeing blue like spectral entities>Seeing life like animals and humanoids >Seeing symbols on walls>Panic attacks >Severe depression >Chronic insomnia Needless to say there is no going back only forwards, you have two options.>Live in denial about your inner dark truths and be controlled by them, accept society saying your a whack job, take the meds, see your self as defective and let the external dictate your life, be resigned to an institution.>Live for truth, accept your inner darkness, see the voices and entities as spirit guides of the unconscious showing you symbols about yourself to decipher, offer them tea and cake, accept there are some things rationalism can't explain, accept this all as a mystical experience and live life true to yourself.
>>42375860>but something deep in the core of my being is broken, it's a metaphysical wound of some sort. The human soul is more fragile than we can know i think Buddhism did something like this to me. it basically gave me what felt like the spiritual equivalent of muscle atrophy. it really destroys your ability to have faith in life itself. i think it also makes it harder for someone to consciously manifest/materialize/draw in positive circumstances in their reality after.
