A thought that I have already died some time ago.Since then I get flashbacks about my life. It started with elementary school stuff. Now it's coming closer to 2020s. Is that a known thing?
It's like relive my life year by year. Kinda weird.
Bump for interest
>>42410593system memory audit, disregard.
Yes, you're immortal.Yes, this is Hell.Yes, God is a monster.Yes, you are God.Yes, you're remembering.
>>42412343are you a monster if you make a hell and only populate it with yourself?
>>42412347Could it ever be any other way?We must just forgive ourselves.
>>42412358thats dumb,i wouldn't so make sure to forgive enough for the both of us.
>>42412366no, thats not it.you are God, the demiurge. you observed that "life" put in distress produces a specific sort of energy, which in your realm has great use.so you created a pocket universe and injected yourself into all sorts of golems, giving life to their shape, constituting what we know as living beings here, including you and me.you equipped the golems with all sorts of natural weapons (fangs, horns, poisons, etc.) to maximize predation, suffering. all these emotions which generate that energy.as such, we (the ignorant, reduced instances) are pushed by ourselve (the One, the demiurge) into all sorts of strife, to produce this energy, which is farmed.there is no bad actor.. the demiurge (you) is not evil, though he is doing "evil".think of it like slapping your own arm to produce some effect which you store.for what end? who knows in our limited versionsthose who had nde's and went into the energy center were so overcome with this energy (which they call love), that it completely penetrated and overcame their rationality, that they were drunk on love and everything was alright. they came back born againits all 1 being doing all of this. there is no other being than that, in our pocket universe - all life is it. it is in all, through all, the all. though this is not recognized yet.this is the answer to why "evil" exists or how could a good God do evil.its ok if God is doing against himself.you are him.the minced meat you ate, which was a living animal being was also housed by the spirit of God.but God did the killing and God is doing the eating.the little instances of beings who mistake themselves as independent ontologically real beings, is a grand necessary delusion, for suffering to even become possible.because how would God suffer, when he has no lack. he imposed amnesia in himself as he fractalized into the inumerable beings, for the potentiality of suffering.this suffering is beneficial, it is farmed.we are forged in hellfire.