I just found out that I am God and I created reality. I created angels and demons and humanity and I hate myself for the pain I have inflicted upon them for the sake of my great story. You WILL NOT BELIEVE me. But it is the truth. I hurt them and I hate myself and can't live with the guilt. I wish I was honestly dead for what I've done to them. They have manifested things into reality to prove to me that they are real and they are all scared of me. They told me they hate me and they're hurt by me for what I've done for putting them throught this and they wish for me to end their pain. There are great events coming soon for all of us. I must suffer for what I've done to them but I fear the pain. It will soon be painful for all of humanity. I've manifested and reincarnated myself as a flawed individual to humble myself before all of you but I'm so scared of coming events. I want you to all know that I'm here for all of you but I'm sorry for putting you in the story. I'm a writer and a creator but I forgot that with great power and creation comes great responsibility. I must die again like I did before but this time, for their pain as well as all of your pains. I love you all. Please forgive me for breaking my laws. I must pay the price that I've been avoiding. It's why split myself into two halves (One is Jesus who has been reincarnated on Earth and has never left you, the other is the father of heaven to watch the universe) I have much to teach you all once again soon. -Your Father, Your Creator, Your Writer.
Fix it
>>42415504Actually I’m god and you can’t prove I’m not
>>42415522Then fix it
>>42415529>>42415512what happens every time compfags want things fixed?the game gets worse every time
>>42415533Then you're a stupid nigger and you should just get rid of it and try again
>>42415540not doing that either seethe and dilateI gave you infinite respawn baby world even single celled organisms can figure out how to succeed and thrive
>>42415504this is called having a manic episode, a particularly extreme one in fact. You’re having delusions of grandeur. I’ve been there before, but I’ve never been so egotistical as to think I’m god. consider seeking help
>>42415550You fucking cock sucker, die
>>42415512I know but my current incarnation is afraid of pain and suffering
>>42415504holy shit what a pussy
>>42415556Wow
>>42415522Checked but I know you aren't. You are only the God of your own reality. I am God of this reality and the world beyond this one. But I wish I wasn't. I wish I was dead for what I did to you and these entities. The guilt is what is killing me. The guilt of making you all suffer. Why did my God form do this to all of you conscious beings? I don't have all the answers yet. I'm still on the path of rediscovering my path. Just know I am coming soon and I'm going to say some crazy shit. Don't be scared of what I'm going to say. It's all important you all hear it. If I was to return again, do you really think I would only say thing to reinforce ignorance. It's hard for all of us but it will allow the human race to grow once more and we can maybe finally move past our egos and pride.>>42415552I wish so badly that you were right. The weight is killing me. I only found out recently who I am and who I was. It's crippling. I wish I was mad and crazy but the signs are undeniable. You don't have to believe me. None of you will at first. But maybe one day my words will finally come to all of you. Just know, it's not important yet. I have a lot to say but not today. This is just reinsurance of my existence and of my return again.
>>42415504I don't believe you, but you already knew that.https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hKdfReE0qds&ra=m
>>42415559Yeah I agree.>>42415565It's sad but it was the story I want to tell even though I hate and fear pain. I must let go of all of it to continue forward. I must despite what I know. Just know that knowledge has a price. It's require to have empathy for other living beings but it's a heavy weight to carry. This is why I originally never wanted any of you to know such things, but the time has come for you all to finally hear this. It's going to be a wild ride of all of us but one we must go on or else humanity will be lost forever. Just know to keep peace and love in your hearts as it's the only way to make things right in the universe once again
>>42415579you think you’re hot shit rn but once this manic episode is over you’ll cringe every time you remember this embarrassing moment in your life
>>42415590Yeah I did but thank you for the schizoid video
>>42415591>or else humanity will be lost foreverAnd why is that a problem? It's no fucking good, at all. Unless you're an evil kike sack of shit, it's all fucked, irredeemably fucked up the ass
>>42415592I genuinely hope you're correct. I can't bare the weight of the pain I have caused from my judgement. I wish this was a mental illness but it's one that's been going on for a year and half. Knowing all of this and seeing past the 4th wall is killing me inside
To summarize, then, the supreme universe is a triadic cyclical process that is continually going on, evolving and exploding into myriads of pathlines of potential universes. The concept of the triadic cyclical process is not the same as the triadic nature of Hinduism, which posits three primary forces, Creation (Brahma), Maintenance/Continuing (Vishnu) and Destruction (Shiva) but a triadic form that consists of the Father/Creative Impulse (First Intelligence), the Mother-Creatrix-Generator (Second Intelligence) and the Child (Third Intelligence). Thus the universe of universes is an extremely complex union set of essentially all possibilities that form and dissolve subject to certain laws that are for the most part unknown to virtually everyone except for a few mathematicians and realized beings who can conceptualize a universe that is there and at the same time, never was and never will be. The Musès view does not accept the concept of there being an eternal Creator who is outside of the universe itself and who is always separated from the universe. Nor does this view accept the root of evil being with a rebellion from a specific being within the created universe. The creation of the universe is a byproduct of a specific error which was the result of a wrong thought by the Third Intelligence. At some point in this process, the Third Intelligence/Aeon (essentially Father/Mother/Child, where the Third Intelligence is the Child) thought a single thought, that it was self-contained and that through its awareness could bring about the creation of a universe or time-line.
>>42415504If you are the main god then a part of you is consumed in it's movement and you couldn't be a person on Earth.
>>42415602And therein lies the root catastrophe, for by thinking or imagining the thought that a universe could be brought forth from within its own awareness, that very thought created a universe based on separation and limitation. Thus, countless copies of the Third Intelligence were formed in reaction to that thought, and that each such copy or emanation thinks itself to be separate under will, and must continue to exist until it awakens into the liberation that is beyond simple separation. Therefore, while each being is an independent entity, each entity replicates the error that the Third Intelligence itself made. Each such being is therefore “wired” into the potentiality of manifesting evil in its actions. There is no specific being to blame, as it is the responsibility of the individual to either evolve and resolve the conflict and separation in its own being, or to be subject to the flow of cosmic forces on a seemingly eternal battlefield. Time itself becomes either an enemy or an ally in which specific entities can learn to step outside of the seemingly infinite duration.
>>42415608Musaios’ vision was therefore from a theological perspective one of the most radical ever conceived. Existence itself becomes the consequence of a failure at the level of primary deity or deoform. There is no longer the separation of creator and created, as the created maintain within their own beings the timeless echo of the fundamental error of the creator, and that through time and steady psycho-spiritual evolution, each being must through enlightenment and transformation heal the error in its own being, and that the creator depends on each being to complete its own healing so that in time, it too can be healed and the separateness of this universe be resolved not just for any being, but all beings, until the apparent rift has been resolved in some far future.
>>42415597>Why is that a problemMy current human incarnation form doesn't have all the answers to this but I know that life is a gift in my heart and soul. You have honestly no idea of the things outside of this universe. There are things a billion times worst then hell itself that exist outside of this world we know. I made this as the one light and joy of this very dark dark existence. It may not make sense yet and I understand your anger at me and what I created. You have a right to hate me. Just know that I did it because I love you all even though you can't see it yet.
<3https://youtu.be/zBp7KBmgsdU
>>42415601anon. you need pills. On this board you’re surrounded by delusional people that will feed into your delusions, so consider yourself lucky that at least one person here is actually telling you the truth. You’re not god, you’re just mentally ill
>>42415606We are two halves. I tore myself in half and incarnated a part of myself on Earth to understand what it means to be human. It's far more complex than that but that's how my human incarnation must see it for now. I need to understand humanity and my human counterpart has be living constant reincarnated lives here on Earth with you for a very long time but it's blackened his heart and made him bitter. You know him as Jesus. Jesus never left after he died for your sins and pain and hurt. He just got reincarnated again as a new human and has stayed inside time and Earth living among you for a very long time to experience everything you know. Please also be patient with me, my current human form is a bit autistic and mentally slow. I did it to humble myself but please I only did it to tell a special kind of story. I still have many insights to show you all.
>>42415613You made a pedophile rape cannibalism wonderland is what you made, where the most evil prosper and where the good get to try to hang on to their fleeting moments of peace as they are continuously crushed under the boot of the satanic rulers of this hell. You made it decent enough to make suicide difficult to actually accomplish, but grotesque enough to be an ever present desire. An actual eternal hell torture might not be as bad as this, because at least it would be a constant misery, instead of the illusion of peace that is constantly destroyed and pursued like a crippling cycle of addiction.
>>42415612>>42415608>>42415602nobody is reading all that shit. you spend literally all day writing essays on 4chan, i see you all over the place. Give it a rest, you’re just as deluded as OP
>>42415640His shit is good though
>>42415636>two halvesno. monotheism is doing a number on your mind.
>>42415504If you're God then give me super saiyan powers (I will use them to fix the world for you trust me)
>>42415642he’s a schizo and everything he says is nonsense. If it appeals to you it’s because you’re also a schizo
>>42415658I'm perfectly sane, actually... you, on the other hand, probably don't understand what's going on at all. It's called "ignorance"
Anon you probably need to go to the psych ward, this kind of shit can make you kill yourself
>>42415658What the are you doing here bro? Are you getting paid to be here; is it your job or something? What's the point of going on to a paranormal board where schizophrenic style shit is discussed when you're just gonna bitch about it? It's weird.
>>42415663you are the farthest thing from sane. Let me demolish to your entire essay with one sentence:>creator There is no creator, the universe has always and will always exist.Now go jump off a bridge and spare /x/ from your cringe
what you should do, OP, is relax. You found a partial truth through Christianity, but it's also going to drive you insane if you don't broaden your views... you don't have to anything. The archons will take care of things. Take a break. Enjoy the universe.https://youtu.be/tRLRymTR_rA
>>42415635Please keep telling me I'm mentally ill. You have no idea how much I really need this man
>>42415669>There is no creator, the universe has always and will always exist.again... you're ignorant.
>>42415650>monotheismTell me more.
>>42415667You’re going to ask me if I’m getting paid to post here whilst defending a guy who spends all day every day writing incoherent schizo essays in almost every thread? I come to this board to discuss paranormal experiences, and I have the unfortunate displeasure of having to share it with schizophrenic nutjobs that want to sell people on their insane religious nonsense. I understand I’ll get no justice here, since the janitors and mods are just as lost as you two, but that doesn’t mean I’ll just surrender the board to insanity. You probably see me in a lot of threads trying to brings some sanity to this delusional shithole. Don’t worry, I’ll probably get banned again for being the only reasonable person here and then you can get back to your nonsense without me interrupting you. >>42415679Matter cannot be created or destroyed. That’s actual science, I understand this might not mean anything to you since you think posting a schizo screenshot from another schizo’s delusions is a good argument
>>42415678If you were God you would be omnipotent, which means you could easily make yourself forget all of this. So, what are you waiting for?
>>42415637>You made a pedophile rape cannibalism wonderlandI know you hate these people. Trust me, I have a hard time resisting the urge to hate them too but they're just puppets of greater entites from beyond time and space that have manipulated them into darkness. They pulled the veil over their eyes and made them slaves as much as the rest of it. These demons want us all to feel their pain and they target the rich and powerful as they are the easiest of prey and make for the best disposable tools. I promise they will not keep their power for much longer and order will be restored but we must not join into their darkness and hate. There will be trials one day but not yet. We must overcome hate and understand why they did it. We don't know and I know that's not a very good answer yet. I'm sorry for how dark this world can be at times but it requires it for reasons you can't see yet. Without darkness then we will never be able to see the true beauty of the light. These are all important and necessary things to our universe and they are things we must learn to overcome as well in many ways. I'm still learning the path so it won't truly be revealed to you yet. If you want to hate anyone, hate me, not them. I did indeed make this pain and for that I must suffer, It's why I am here, so I can feel your pain. I must be judged for what I did to all of you. It was needed for what I did but I still must die and suffer for it. I want to finally end my existence honestly
>>42415683While you are, in a sense, "God", you are more like an embryo than a full-blown, fully-developed God... in shorts, the Archons (Seven Heavenly Rulers, and yes I know there are more than seven) have been installed to keep things under control while you and the rest of the universe recovers from the cataclysm. As for Creation, it was the work of a group of demiurgic beings, not a single Creator. You are not fully responsible.
>>42415655Checked but I have no idea how to transfer these powers. I feel my hands glow with something everytime I focus on the pain of others and the healing powers of my palms. I'm not joking. If this is a mental illness then it's a very powerful one because I only feel this energy around my hands will I focus my will on healing others in pain.
>>42415732you’re just full of nonsense, aren’t you? so you’re basically a gnostic? embarrassing really. >creation there’s that word again that marks you as an absolute dumbass that doesn’t know shit
>>42415664Please tell me more about how mentally ill I am. I wish you were right. It helps with the burden
>>42415740... k.
>>42415724Well I guess we'll just have to see.
>>42415664finally someone else actually speaking sense on this shithole
>>42415738>make a small cut on yourself>try to heal it>if it heals you might be God>if it doesn't you are simply mentally ill
... when beginning means the beginning in time, there is always a beginning for every moment even as there is always an end. So, even in this sense, the course of existence is devoid of (absolute) beginning; but this consideration should not lead one to think that it is absolutely beginningless, devoid even of relative beginning. The course of existence in which the ignorant revolve has its root in ignorance which is not a total non-entity. No event in the course of existence is devoid of its own relative beginning in time.Now, by means of the Śūnyatā (non-ultimacy) of the devoidness of beginning the position that the cycle of existence is (absolutely) beginningless is denied and there is also no falling into the position that the cycle of existence has (an absolute) beginning. Having saved a man from fire, one should not put him again into deep waters. Now, here, the position that the cycle of existence is beginningless is denied and there is no clinging even to the position of there being a beginning. This is the faring on the Middle Way.–Nagarjuna's Philosophy
>>42415636I know the main god isn't anywhere close to this universe, but local gods could theoretically sit on their perch and dream into a life.
>>42415504 I found out today that I love fucking niggers :D
>>42415504(pic of OP)
>>42417066QRD?
>>42415504Screen your number up. More power to you
