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I don't wanna sound weird but I really love you guys

>>42589699
We love you too anon, I wish you the best anon. You deserve a good life. Now go forth and have a prosperous adventure.

Day 21 here, had a wet dream last night. Was mainly seminal fluid so not a big loss. It was a fuckton though. I was swimming in it.

>>42589717
<3

>>42589721
>had a wet dream last night.
This is gonna sound weird but i can control my dreams. I saw my ex at the gym yesterday and i dreamed of her the same night, we were outside doing something together but i was controlling my movements and denied her sex, is this weird?

>>42589791
I’ve had dreams where I have declined invitations for sex. Sounds like a lucid dream. Or a partially lucid dream. Whenever I’m lucid in a dream the dream master tries to regain control.

>>42589688
What dies it mean when the fap makes you start drooling and making animalistic sounds here and there, and gets you licking crap like your bedframe? Is it demonic? Serious question.

I'm starting to realize that sexual energy is just really powerful stuff that is meant to be retained so our body can use it for other purposes.

I'm new to the journey, but yesterday I woke up after a nap and was really horny. Decided not to fap or indulge in lustful thinking. I felt the sexual energy in my body and it felt kind of feminine? Like it was kind of gay feeling, but it made me want to stretch my hips/legs out in a gay kind of way lol.

So I got up and went about my day and realized I wasn't stressed and anxious like I normally am.

Also noticing that whenever I do watch porn/edge I'm kind of beat afterwards

>>42590188
>and gets you licking crap like your bedframe
It means you're mentally fucking ill. Seriously. What the fuck are you doing.

>>42590188
You were just really horny lol

>>42589699
i love myself too anon

Coming up on a month without ejaculation. I did relapse but was able to endure the punishment of blue balls without release.

The June solstice hit me hard, job opportunity seems to have evaporated, and the new girl ghosted me but I persist. If only to spite the demiurge until it gives me what I want. Until then its no pmo. I am willing to bargain with the Devil but I know what my soul is worth.

I do wonder if I need to cut the caffeine and nicotine and kratom as they've certainly been coping mechanisms.

The effects are real, although they plateau and become ordinary once you adjust to them.

Day 16 going into 17. Its been a while since I have made it this far. Interactions with people are starting to get weird again. Instead of being somewhat invisible im now getting pleasant or hostile interactions.

Trying to remain obedient to Christ and this is one of my major vices. Gooning and probably pride. As I cut out the gooning it seems like pride creeps in. The devil will really use whatever he can to attack you. If I can squash these two, he will probably use greed.

>>42590878
Post more jew book quotes.

>>42590880
I didn't post anything from the bible you demon.

>>42590878
How does pridefullness increase after you stop gooning?

I've been noticing bad luck as I approach the 30 day mark. Has happened in previous attempts as well. Is this a thing as you start going further along with sr or what? Genuinely asking. I know good luck is supposedly something that happens once you hit the 90 day number.

>>42590763
I highly suggest quitting kratom asap. No withdrawals and it will improve your mood so much. That stuff makes me so anxious and PARANOID when I'm coming down from it. Hate that shit.

>>42591203
I doubt the bad luck is sr related

>>42591203
yea it's a real thing. karmic wave you have to endure to prosper in the end. your entire time off of sr you are fucking off and incurring karmic debt, now that you're on the path it doesn't just automatically mean that the slate is wiped clean. you have to pay the price
>>42591332
retard

>>42590266
everything you observed is correct, anon. sexual energy or anything else was turned into a fucking commodity by humans. it's just another part of the body that is to be left alone so it can like you said be used for other/higher purposes. and by commodity i mean both an industry and a gateway for addiction. the feminine feeling is simply the energy. all you have to do is what you did which is observe and say okay whatever and then move on. that's it. that's the reward for not giving into that energy and fucking with it, it helps guide you. yea if you watch porn/edge now while you're on the straight and narrow then yea you'll feel the difference energetically for sure, it's catastrophic if you really pay attention to the fine details

>>42590154
the moment you decline something during a dream that would ruin your reality state is the moment you know your soul is aligned with your sr goal. or another signal is if something does happen lets say and it could be anything even talking or whatever, and if say you felt that intensity during the dream but you woke up to find yourself still intact? then that's an equal signal that your body understands your higher goal now

>>42590878
>Interactions with people are starting to get weird again. Instead of being somewhat invisible im now getting pleasant or hostile interactions.
everyone here that has reached as many days as you can vouch for the same exact split in reactions. remember, you're at point zero inside, you will never be able to see yourself how others see you sadly, so there's nothing you can do about it other than accept that this is the way things will be when you're radiating a different frequency. you're a mirror is what you're becoming. that simply means that because you're now pure, it means that when someone looks at you they don't see you, they see themselves. there's no you inside so they only see their own issues so they lash out and get pissy

I feel possessed by the spirit of mirth

>>42591112
You get into your head and start thinking you are doing a good job, and its all your hard work and everyone around you is a turbogooner. Not as extreme as it sounds, but you will notice little things like a cat walks up to you but not someone else and you just think that they must have recently gooned. At least thats how it is for me and its something I have to be aware of to combat.

>>42591447
Luckily im not a very angry or confrontational person or I could see how it could be problematic. I guess that just amplifies the mirror even more though. People probably want a negative reaction out of me. This is definitely a much better way to live though. The once a week relapse is never worth it. Theres so much more. Pretty sure the boomers all got oneshotted by drugs, sex, and pornomags and never recovered so here we are.

>>42591328
Kratom makes me dopey. I begin to forget words and cannot string a coherent sentence together at higher doses.

At low doses its definitely a stimulant but its so addictive its very hard to only have a little. Plus its EXPENSIVE. I mean I wouldn't pay $9 for a cup of coffee.

>>42591825
I suffer from this too. Once you completely abstain you start seeing signs in others that they goon and if you're not careful you will start to look down on others. I try to be humble about it since I know eventually even I will give in.

>>42592481
Yeah, and its not even for that long too. Im barely over two weeks in. Two weeks ago I was probably watching the sickest shit imaginable while the daily gooner is probably just typing milf boob in their search bar. Takes me 30 minutes just to find what im looking for. Im feeling good right now, but im just one day of boredom and a little too much scrolling and im knocked off my high horse.

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>>42589688

>>42589688
My girls going thru a medical procedure and can't have sex for another 2mo
I already waited 2 weeks and had to fap one week in
Help bros

>>42590763
>cut the caffeine and nicotine
i am about a month since stopping my morning coffee and cig and cut energydrinks/soda altogether
let me tell you bro, my mouth is so much more calm, i get to bed easier, and i feel less urge to relapse
i cant really explain that last one other than it seems to me internally my brain is saying "ive already relapsed with one theres no point holding the others"

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I think a better word for “evil”- which is kind of charged and oversaturated and thus over-broad and diffuse, is nihilism. The pretense that your life and the things you do don’t “matter”- whatever that means to you- is the single essential motivator that literally every negative human behavior has in common. Every manifestation of “evil” can be reduced to someone saying “fuck it” 100% of the time. I can’t think of an instance where this isn’t the case.

Discipline is an almost perfect antithesis of nihilism, maybe only behind religious fulfillment and true and honest altruism. Like knowledge, discipline is its own reward. Discipline is nearly pain for its own sake, but not quite. It’s deliberate self-deprivation of comfort for the purpose of training resilience and focus. Only listless, fickle people will pretend that they see no difference between self-discipline which is purposeful suffering and asceticism which, when employed improperly, is a waste of time. And once you’re able to let go of one empty vice the rest have a way of losing their appeal.

It’s possible to be strongly committed to self-discipline and still have an overarching philosophy of nihilism governing your course in life but it requires significant cognitive dissonance in order to remain coherent. Very disciplined nihilists would tend to be powerful people who act selfishly like corrupt politicians or businessmen or criminal overlords. At any rate, nobody that ever commanded any significant force in this world, whether it came from wealth or leadership or great strength of the body, ever achieved that power without discipline. Pic unrelated

>>42592481
>you start seeing signs in others that they goon and if you're not careful you will start to look down on others.
I always remind myself that I literally threw my life away, severely impacted my health, and missed out on collosal opportunities because of gooning for years. how can I judge? even worse, I was aware of what was happening

>>42592481
>its EXPENSIVE
druggie tax. its literally just ground up weeds. when i was into kratom back in 2017 it was like 1 USD for a pound of the stuff. Couldn't tell you the price now because i left that shit in the past. Its the same for marijuana, that stuff grows wild in the valleys of the himalayas, one plant can produce pounds of the stuff, its a hearty perennial that could grow out of a sidewalk crack. yet you can find it for 30 USD for a single gram at a medica facility. Druggie tax.

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>>42592750
highly underrated gem post

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Why is this general and movement still going? I swear whenever I click one of the videos where the topic is semen retention it's some hairless estrogenic zoomer in his dirty room talking about le superpowers. Not even realizing that if you receive placebo benefits you will also receive placebo drawbacks. Imagine cucking yourself to this degree because you refuse to solve your inceldom the correct way by fucking women? Jesus.

Men have been ejaculating daily since the dawn of time but now all of a sudden it is le bad? Yes we all know that porn is bad, even jerking off should be in moderation but ejaculation is vital to a men's well being. The chemicals released when having sex with your partner can not be replicated anywhere.

It's all so incredibly fucking incel coded, no matter how you put it.

>>42593199
>one of the videos where the topic is semen retention
every video on youtube about any topic is cringe as fuck. maybe try forming your own opinion through experience instead of relying on pathetic losers who sit inside and point cameras at themselves while they ramble for 45 minutes?

>>42593199
Shalom

>>42593199
the seed of man is sacred and wasting it is unreasonable.
now for someone who does not have a girlfriend, it's in their best interest to retain their seed so they may receive divine help and return their hormones to healthy levels.
women can unconsciously sense men with a lot of seed because they smell the pheromones released by our bodies and naturally become attracted after the brain interprets our pheromones.
obviously if you were a biological organism and your primary objective was to reproduce you would be most interested in males with high status and/or a high probability to reproduce successfully with, and our pheromones reveal to nearby woman and people that our bodies are ready to fertilize their seed.
jerking off and abusing yourself by viewing porn is a form of self harm and psychologically damages the victim of pornography by implanting a feeling of shame and sapping them of their energy or life-force.
a high amount of resources are dedicated to the production of semen and you would be losing protein and other stuff like zinc perhaps, thus it's more efficient to retain from a material perspective as well as a darwinist perspective as well as a spiritual perspective as to waste our seed is to delay the next harvest or to risk famine and an offense to God.
semen contains the capacity to generate souls so it is a sacred material object that is imbued with the spiritual essence of man.

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i havent jorked it for a week i think,

>>42591447
wow screenshotted, amazing mirror analogy will use that myself.

>>42593199
>ejaculation is vital to a men's well being.

holy fuck you are retarded please kill yourself, brother.

>>42593251
What in the ai slop is this?

>>42593352
it's not ai and it's not slop.
your post is more like slop than mine

the primary objective of retention is to restore one's connection to the source.

>>42593199
Incels used to have great self deprecating attitudes.
Now they literally circle jerk about not jerking off.

I'm trans btw

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Serious question.

New to Clean Streaking and loving the benefits (I day streak is my best) and I really want to keep going strong with no masturbation or lustful thoughts.

Unfortunately, I pee every 30 minutes to the point where idk what to do about it anymore. I've seen doctors and they all say something different and it never works.

Prostate Massaging is a genuine way to combat this according to the Internet, so I'm thinking about getting one, although I know it will be a sexual experience for me.

So I need to fix this problem but I don't want to ruin my steak (I won't cook, but I will get aroused).

What do?

>>42593910
Try it and if it helps with your incontinence then that is a price to pay for better health. I would suggest other methods for dealing with this though, but give it a try

>>42593910
I’ve never had this problem but is there REALLY nothing else you can do about it? If you’ve tried every other feasible remedy you’ve come across after many hours of research then yea whatever, try it, but this reminds me of the problem that opiate addicts face when they’re prescribed pain meds or when fat people lose a bunch of weight but they obviously still have to eat. Drug addicts will consciously limit their prescribed opiate intake to as little as they can stand and essentially the same with overeaters. The moment they know they don’t need the meds anymore they dispose of them. It’s all in your head and only YOU truly know to what degree your goal is recovery or indulgence.
I’m thinking there has to be another way though. Are you fat? How old are you? Has this been gradually worsening over time?

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>>42589688
No orgasm in 21 days, but I have edged a few times, some precum lost too. Does it count as semen retention if is not connected with an orgasm?

>>42593988
Looking at porn, edging, entertaining lustful thoughts constitutes a dirty streak, but as long as you don’t buss, it’s still a streak and most of the benefits will be retained

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Would you rather wake up tomorrow with a billion dollars in your bank account, but have no arms- or wake up tomorrow as you are now?

So when you wake tomorrow and you still have your arms, realize what that’s worth and appreciate it.

Why do I post this here? Because part of this enterprise is about recognizing what you don’t need. Extricate yourself from the formulaic, nonliving npc habits that are no good for you and live each moment with mindfulness and openness, like a child going into the world alone for the first time.

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Day 7
I wanted to a couple times this past week but I refrained and I feel proud of myself

>>42595932
If you can do without it for 3 days you can do without it forever, congratulations

>>42595932
One thing that has helped me was any time I felt an urge I distracted myself by going to the gym. Since my urges were pretty much daily I went to the gym daily. And now I'm currently on a ~30 day streak and I'm ripped with a 6-pack. The haters will not believe and thats fine. But by distracting oneself with healthy pursuits we can sculpt the person we want to be using energy that would have otherwise gone to pleasure (waste).

>>42596327
I just started going back to the gym too since im on day 17. Want to start building better habits. Its easy to skip when you are gooning and feeling depressed. In a cycle of goon I just wanted to basically eat and rot. Nice to know that I can regain a lot of the muscle I used to have relatively quickly too. Read that you can get back to like 70-80% of your strength in like 8 weeks from atrophied muscle fibers due to "muscle memory" Got a haircut too and cleaned up my beard. Jerking off literally saps your soul.

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day 0
year 3 of failing
idk if im gonna make it anymore bros
Whenever i get a 1-2 week clean streak i literally cant do anything else if i accidentally edge for 3 seconds. I just have to fight it and eventually i lose

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to anyone past say, a month or two i gotta ask:

is it possible to have a bad life on SR?

>>42597031
Man, I'm on day 0 too. We'll make it, but 3 years is pretty bleak. Reach out to Christ, pray for Him to come closer to help you break the habit. I had a 230-day streak once, but my record this year is two weeks.

>>42596327
Me too! I don’t go to the gym but whenever I want to masturbate I just get on the floor and do push-ups instead until that energy is gone. For me it’s a bit like eating because you’re bored and you’re not actually hungry. So I just use that energy to motivate myself to do something else.

>>42597031
>if i accidentally edge for 3 seconds.
DON’T ever do that. How much harder for a heroin addict would it be to quit if he said, “every time I wrap a belt around my arm and stare at an open bag of heroin, I wanna shoot up”? Don’t for the love of fuck do things that are related to jacking off. Don’t even think about sex at all. I know it’s hard. Maybe now all the things you’ve heard all your life about how religious people in the past treated the demonic influence of lust as the powerful and deadly force that it is makes sense. This is why the Victorian British covered their tables with tablecloths- because the rounded off legs resembled a woman’s too closely. Women used to wear a giant fluffy pillow around their waists underneath their dresses so that you couldn’t see the contour of their hips. I don’t think I even need to address what steps the Muslims have taken to avoid lust. This is not a small matter, it’s one of the most potent levers in the human consciousness there is and it’s ruined kings and warriors and geniuses since time immemorial. You’re a healthy and strong young man who’s taking his first steps to do something that <1% of his peers are currently doing. The path of innovators has always been difficult. You can do anything you want to.

>>42597031
Sounds like self torture

never posted here before but i felt i needed to. I've been trying to do sr for many years now and never really got into it, never passed a month. Yet, this time, I believe I have passed about 3 months already (idk, I am not counting).
And boys, it is real. Alongside semen retention, I have stopped watching porn entirely and started visualizing, mentalizing a better version of myself.
In brief, here's what i experienced:
at first, the first couple of weeks, maybe even the first month, my emotions got heightened, especially rage. I am a very calm person but I was getting easily irritaded and would've gotten into a fight with the first to really annoy me, even though I abhor fighting.
Then my feelings stabilized and my confidence boosted. I mean, before sr, I would feel immature whenever I was in a group of older folks and would rarely if ever speak up in a group. Now, I feel as though everyone lost their "aura" that was suppressing my own. Now I am probably the first one to talk, even in big groups, I don't feel any pressure nor shame, nor anything bad. It is as though now I have an energy field overriding the others'. Now, of course, the women. I consider myself really handsome, but I have worked for over a year in the same company and none of the women there really cared about me. Now however, It is unbelievable how much I attract. Even if they don't approach (they're women afterall) they dig me with their eyes. Whenever I go out too, there's always women flirting, sometimes they even stare straight into my eyes, with clear longing. Now, I must say I am 31 and have been struggling with psychological (supposedly) ED.
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>>42597784
I have felt maybe two or three urges and a couple of wet dreams this whole period, but nothing really hard. the ED also remains, sadly.
Also, I don't know if it is related to sr, but I feel like I am way more patient/methodic now. For example, before sr, I would lazily mix all of my food together in a pot and cook a sort of monstrosity, but now it doesn't bother me to cook 3 or 4 different dishes and set it all nicely on my plate.
Porn and masturbation was probably my biggest failing as a person and I feel like I have finally overcome it. For at least the last 10 years, I have never felt better.


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weird question, but does anyone have any advice for dealing with nihilism? on longer streaks i just stare at the ceiling instead of trying to fix my life, as if that life has somehow lost its meaning now that it is free of coom. will i ever get the motivation to live normally again? thanks.