question. do you believe in a god, and what do you think about shia Islam, how do you if at all
pray, what do you think about the vedas.

god does not control or affect reality. hes only accessible permanently once you die. this I currently believe.

>>42635208
>a shaman i spoke to told me that in his line of work he deals with something called "spiritual damage" which happens when a person suffers too much. he said that energy bodies can be traumatized just like physical bodies.

by the way he said this in response to me telling him that during a period of my life where things were so bad that i became suicidal i had a dream where i heard a voice tell me "Some people choose to be tortured in this life so that they have an advantage in the afterlife."
i think this was just some new age demon entity. there's no point to a life where you experience mostly deprivation and suffering and being a victim of evil people who get away with everything they do to harm you. and then when you die it's a complete fucking dice roll as to what you'll run into on the other side. being an immortal god in a heavenly world would be the best thing ever. i agree with someone who said that "suffering just teaches you that you don't want to suffer". it's pointless. this is all pointless. i hate my life, but I'm too scared to kill myself as well as what could happen to me if i fail, and i have ocd about it like "omg something good would have happened if you stayed alive and you lost your chance". I've been tortured my whole life and neglected and abused from childhood to adulthood and am so mentally fucked from everything that i can barely function. meanwhile the people who torture me all get away with it. i have such an abnormal life that i can't relate to anyone except people on tohno chan.

i didn't "learn" anything in this life except that evil people (for example, abusers) are allowed an appalling amount of freedom to act out evil and there's no way to know if they ever really get punished for it. fuck this world.

>>42635236
please answer my questions if you do I'll include you in my prayers from now on.

>>42635221
>do you believe in a god, and what do you think about shia Islam, how do you if at all pray, what do you think about the vedas.
i dont wanna answer half of this because i have severe ocd and think that whenever i say something on 4chan the opposite comes true. ocd is torture.
>what do you think about the vedas.
i grew up in a hindu cult founded by a pedophile who admitted to marrying an 11 year old in his 20s and getting her pregnant at 13/14. fuck hinduism. and fuck buddhism too. if abrahamic religions didnt exist, dharmic religions would be the worst ones that exist. claiming victims deserve their abuse because of hypothetical actions from hypothetical past lives. i despise religion.

>>42635236
Personally my cope has always been the choice of suffering. I tried my best to find them but I can't find any memories of a life before this one, so to me its my first. And if its my first how could I possible know what I wanted? I think this life is just some huge random chance. You said "I want life" knowing nothing on all its good and all its bad and randomly joined some Earth RPG server. I agree that it sucks ass and yeah I strongly agree with the idea that now you're better off because you know what'll you want and don't want.

For me though what breaks is okay so this life was a teaching tutorial thing, great. So why can't I leave then? I feel I've learnt enough. Every day I ask myself "if I didn't have today's memories with me in my next life, would I have been worse off?" and most of the time the answer is no. I keep waiting for that moment where I celebrate how glad I am I stayed here to experience it, but it never comes. I don't regret this life in its entirety, I'm glad I exist, but I feel like I've reached the peak of understand what I want out of existence. Yet it feels like I can't seem to get it until I'm not in this world, yet for some reason I can't will myself peacefully out of it. I think more and more of committing suicide too, but its this weird alternative view of it. I know my soul is immortal, so suicide will just boost me along the path I desire right? I want to kill myself out of the premise of so much more, not just because life her sucks.

>>42635236
>Some people choose to be tortured in this life so that they have an advantage in the afterlife
This does make logical sense but not in the way that sounds so obviously bullshit to you. New agers have tainted this idea. If something sounds like horseshit, it is. Self-flagellation for karmamaxxing is a thing but crucially it must be voluntary and have no element of guilt other than guilt for not having done it sooner. (such as going vegetarian) Not every single bad thing someone does to you is a divine lesson, the actual lessons aren't that ambiguous or cruel, and the capacity to defend oneself is limited even with divine intervention, requiring skill to fully take advantage of. Does this help?

More bluntly I'm one of those people who actually torture themselves and it's nothing like your experience. You do sound somewhat evolved but also at your limit. No divine plan in this, just demons feasting as you've correctly recognized. Any cultivation you've gained from this is accidental and not something anyone should be expected to put up with, and not something to glamorize.

>>42635264
>i grew up in a hindu cult founded by a pedophile who admitted to marrying an 11 year old in his 20s and getting her pregnant at 13/14
proof (including audio):
[Room Conversation, August 15, 1971, London](https://vanisource.org/w/index.php?title=710815_-_Conversation_-_London):

"I was married, my wife was eleven years. I was 22 years. She did not know what is sex, eleven years' girl. Because Indian girls, they have no such opportunity of mixing with others. But after the first menstruation, the husband is ready. This is the system, Indian system."

[Morning Walk, June 8th 1974, Geneva \[this one also has audio\]:](https://vedabase.io/en/library/transcripts/740608mwgen/)

Prabhupāda: "Their statistics in the Western world... Inductive knowledge is always imperfect. They have not seen in India. My wife gave birth at the age of fourteen years. She is still living. She is ten years younger than me. So sixty-eight, sixty-nine she is. She gave birth child at the age of fourteen. In 1918 I was married, and 1921 she gave birth to child, my first son. And she was never unhealthy; neither she had to go to the hospital for maternity help. Natural delivery of child. Hare Kṛṣṇa."

the cult is called ISKCON and was founded by abhay charan das aka "prabhupada". it attracts people with severely warped minds and dark souls. my father was a member and tortured me my whole life and destroyed me and my mother's lives, and I've also heard multiple horror stories about other kids' families in this cult. a guy threatening his wife and kids with a machete and later hanging himself in a park, another guy shooting himself in the head and killing himself in front of his wife and children, sexual abusers, my own father and incestuous predatory aunt, etc.

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Also OP, if you want me to try and figure anything out for you I can try. From the perspective of someone who's seen some shit and carved out a relatively peaceful existence in spite of the cards dealt. Asking consent first cause I sure know how punchably annoying unsolicited help can be. Be as blunt as possible in describing your problem.

>>42635264
>>42635292
Well hello, I've been raised (and beaten, robbed, humiliated and degraded in every possible way) by vajrayana buddhists.
We seem to agree on the hierarchy. Though teenagers marrying in the early 1900s isn't that far out, this was before modern medicine, remember. You can easily find enough to have beef with those people without reaching for anachronistic comparisons, especially when it's just indians being indians. Have you read this by any chance
>Geoffrey D. Falk - Stripping the Gurus
cause it's a good laugh

>>42635306
what do you personally think of god, prayers, and allah buddhist raised person.

>>42635269
>I know my soul is immortal, so suicide will just boost me along the path I desire right?
probably not, unless youre like asians who are smart and just kill themselves when life gets too fucked up because theyre actually brave enough to do it. im always so jealous of asians lately cause their parents force them to study and get good degrees and good jobs so they are financially secure as soon as they become actual adults. and when things get too bad they seem to be brave enough to commit suicide. it's pretty hard to fail at life if you're asian unless you get extremely unlucky.

>>42635280
>You do sound somewhat evolved but also at your limit.
>No divine plan in this, just demons feasting as you've correctly recognized. Any cultivation you've gained from this is accidental and not something anyone should be expected to put up with, and not something to glamorize.
i fucking hate that i dont even know how to defend myself from beings like this without relying on a deity or organized religion. meanwhile i read that people in ancient China learned cultivation and how to straight up become actual gods. i still have dreams where i dont remember much of the actual dream but remember things that were said to me, like "every god was once a human" and even recently (maybe even 1 or 2 nights ago) "every human being is God itself". i also had an extremely disturbing unsettling dream before speaking to the shaman like some thing was trying to disturb my mind on purpose and make me think that dream was a compilation from a past life of mine. i told the shaman about it and i said that i think it was just something "inserted" into my consciousness by some external thing and he agreed with me. he also said that a surprising amount of people assume that spirits are telling them the truth when they communicate with them and implied that it isnt good to do that and that spirits can lie.
i really wonder why we, humans, were designed to be spiritually blind and deaf, but also at the same time vulnerable to malevolent things from that side. it's like being attacked by invisible enemies.

>>42635295
>Be as blunt as possible in describing your problem.
i have an abusive father who financially (and mentally) crippled me and my mother through 2 decades and counting of severe abuse, so we're a step away from homelessness, I've had bedbugs for 3 years because of that same piece of shit purposely spreading them throughout our house including locking up infested items with a LOCK and key for his bedroom, such as an infested mattress from his sleeper truck he works/lives in and other things, he has been performing "surveillance abuse" on me and my mother since i was 12 years old or younger and constantly quotes things verbatim from private conversations between me and my mother, and even now will call or text my mom something directly in response to something she said to me out loud "privately" in our house or car when he is not present (example, my mom one time when we were doing laundry, by hand, said "I'm so tired, i wish our washer worked" or something and my father called her and just immediately said "if you're so tired you should go to sleep"), my aunt does the same shit and my UNCLE (her brother) even told my mom he suspects it when he lived in her house temporarily after getting out of prison and said she would always somehow know when he had people over and be angry at him about it despite living a town away (she used to have 2 houses), i have severe ocd and can barely do basic tasks because of it and couldnt function in college because of it and dropped out (and also got financial aid suspension for getting really sick with covid EXACTLY at the beginning of my first semester and having to drop multiple classes when i couldnt catch up), i have a minimum wage job i hate, my father and aunt and half sister on their side may also be doing black magic on me and my mom and have talked about it (my mother also had a dream a long time ago that my father let something really evil possess him, he also admitted that he has heard voices since childhood).

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>>42635295
>>42635361
i have a really abnormal life. even this site is full of "normies" now so the only people i can relate to with lives as fucked up as mine are people on tohno chan.

>>42635208
Why can’t Indians just use their own sites?

>>42635306
>by vajrayana buddhists.
I'm op. I absolutely despise buddhism because i converted and took it extremely seriously when i was 18 and it ruined my life. it made my ocd so much fucking worse too. at one point i didnt even consume pirated media, use images from the internet as my phone wallpaper amd just used a screenshot that i manually filled with a solid color, didnt listen to music unless it was an official artist or record label upload on youtube. and it made me actually scared of my piece of shit abusive sadistic father because they say that if you kill either parent you go to avici hell for literal quintillions of years because killing a parent is "anantarika-katma". but if a parent kills their child its just normal karma for killing a person, lmfao. and it's so fucking nihilistic too. the end goal of the religion is literal metaphysical suicide. and a sri lankan ex buddhist said the same thing that i eventually realized before leaving, the religion just says that everything is pointless except their practices which eventually lead to literally annihilating your own existence, and are also fucking excruciating on top of that. i have been trying for YEARS not to believe that buddhism might be the only solution to reality, but havent. it's hell. because of "duality" i think that evil and suffering and bad things will always exist. Taoism has been the most helpful but its still not enough. and it also slightly is unhelpful because it makes me think that if evil and bad things will always exist because of duality then not existing might be the only way to be permanently free from suffering. i hate buddhism so much, even more than hinduism.

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>>42635208
>life on earth is just experiencing economic slavery
You have plenty of ways to change that. Hnenry George has written about how to fix this way back in 19th century and there are plenty other authors. But you like many others dont read anything.

>>42635306
>>42635406
(cont.)
>especially when it's just indians being indians.
yup. dharmic religions are fucking trash. karma is a foul, disgusting belief. to tell a victim that they deserved what happened to them because of a HYPOTHETICAL action from a HYPOTHETICAL past life. india was always a barbaric shit heap.
to be fair westerners and their abrahamic religions were also barbarians. they are literally the reason the whole world are nihilstic "biological materialists" who think any form of spiritual belief aside from mainstream religions is schizophrenia. they got so tired of being threatened with eternal hell that they forced the ENTIRE world to believe only in what can be "scientifically proven". i think east asians are the best race t b h .
>Have you read this by any chance
>Geoffrey D. Falk - Stripping the Gurus
cause it's a good laugh
i havent, but it sounds like it
indian culture is basically just ultra-classism and also this goblin-like nature of deceiving others as well as exploiting people's natural vulnerability to religiosity. i despise any country that has associations with indian culture like Thailand. i was looking at a picture from some Thai food market yesterday and thinking how Thailand looks beautiful to me because of the nature but i despise it because of their connection with indic culture and their practice of dharmic religion.

>>42635374
I'm not indian, i just grew up in a hindu cult that was intended to convert foreigners

>>42635208
Immortality is having kids and being remembered for your actions, not some game with god. Hell/karma is being hated, punished, or forgotten due to your life choices.

You’re missing the entire point of religion. Reality wasn’t designed to cater to a single person, so we have shared cultures, values, morals, etc.

Kill your massive ego. The world seems chaotic because you’re only looking at how it impacts you personally.

All religions = shit
All. Religions. Equal. Shit. Trash. Filth. Cults. Useless. Meaningless. Brain. Poison.
Reject all rituals. Deny all gods. Fuck authority.

>>42635315
I'm a waifudaoist, you can read my worthless drivel in the latter parts of >>42621578 which includes my views on prayer if you read carefully. Definitely not a fan of ritualistic subservient worship.
Allah is conceptually cooler than the other versions of god from the same branch, an undefinable mathematical fractal god. Comes naturally with being defined later. But I also consider islam just a politically motivated mistranslation of Christianity full of errors; it was created for a specific purpose as an ethnic religion of a population in a state of war, to legitimize a newly created polity. So it is simply the racial religion of arabs and blacks in a state of war with Europe. I respect the math and geometry aspect but I don't think God has such a stick up her ass that I can't draw her as a waifu or use the feminine form, I haven't been smitten so far at least. And muslims are generally no-fun hypocritical assholes, they don't really follow their own religion other than in the most degenerate ritualistic way possible, and their scripture is just an uninterpretable jumbled mess.

>>42635361
Okay, so it's the standard shitty parents package. Expected worse honestly. Escape at all costs recommended, trust me, whatever you think you'll lose escaping is much less than you'll lose by staying. Is there anything you're good at? Correct for any gaslighting they may have done on you, hell, just tell me what do you make in your spare time. Do me a favor and adopt a tripcode for this convo from this point onwards, ok?

>>42635444
>oh yeah just kill ur ego bro so people with more ego can fuck you over
>bro earth is just like a school bro just be uhh compassionate and let people fuck and scam you and abuse you dont forget not to ever take any revenge against anyone who did u wrong and of course respect evil unjust authorities!

>>42635457
U know what religion is
Schizophrenics, brain damaged people, and low iq, and followers, gullible folks
All religious leaders are charlatans and frauds and swindlers, do not tithe, do not give them attention, do not obey.

>>42635410
>But you like many others dont read anything.
people who speak like this are always obnoxious snobs who think that everyone else is stupid and they're some elevated genius above the rest of the population. fuck off, dickhead. most people have to work to survive. and if you're unlucky and didnt have parents who put you through college, you probably have to do minimum wage or hard labor to survive. and if you're too fucking mentally ill to function in college WHILE ALSO having to work at the same time so you can get a fucking degree to get a job that isnt fucking dogshit, then you just have to do minimum wage or hard labor. unless you're in Japan where people somehow manage to be neets for 40+ years (tons of people on 5ch mention this).
after physical and mental health, your quality of life mostly depends on how much money you have. everything in this stupid fucking shit heap depends on money. fuck the human world. also fuck the concept of currency. money is the difference between living at the mercy of abusers or having freedom and independence.

>>42635463
I study all religions, they are all trash mind control systems designed to make you a slave to some authority figure leader who pretends to know better than you. They die like any other man.
They love their stupid fucking books written by stupid dead old men, and dead old rituals, and their disgusting "holy" relicts and "holy" magical statues.
Do NOT obey them. Only slaves prostrate.

>>42635478
They always demand you bend a knee, or prostrate, like some kind of slave, or teach you to serve others. They want free labor, and free $$$, in exchange for nothing but empty words and false promises.

>>42635482
But in secret, they are all the same, taking peoples property. And what is a monk, other than a professional homeless person, who, unable to work an honest living, begs for food, and presumes to be a moral authority. The worst is the deluded dogmatic religious follower/authoritarian, who vainly threatens you with torture from his worthless dead god, if you refuse some worthless ritual, or refuse to affiliate with them, or give them $$$. Why cant their god feed them without your $$$? How curious...

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>>42635470
Correct except for the mentally ill part, life experience isn't a disorder. That stuff is part of the system too, reject it. So how about that tripcode? I insist. Although I could probably tell you apart after 10 minutes of conversation anyway, making sure would require me to do some unorthodox moves.

>>42635406
>vajrayana

They ritually consume period blood and semen and urine, such holy men!

>>42635444
>we have shared cultures, values, morals, etc.

Wrong.

>>42635510
Used to at least. Worse, they eat animal meat and claim they can somehow purify their intent. Absolute trash tier. Tibetan lamas molest their disciples too.

>>42635457
Sorry you live in low-trust society, sir.

>>42635515
Might will make it right. Soon

>>42635444
>Immortality is having kids and being remembered for your actions, not some game with god. Hell/karma is being hated, punished, or forgotten due to your life choices.
this is 4chan masculinity and like those patrick bateman looksmaxxing edits but with philosophy
>You’re missing the entire point of religion. Reality wasn’t designed to cater to a single person, so we have shared cultures, values, morals, etc.
heirarchy and respecting your family is big in asian culture and black culture. but sometimes family members are pieces of shit and abuse you (including sexually). does that mean that every single asian or black person has to automatically respect and venerate someone who's a piece of shit because they're a family member and respecting family is their heckin "culture"? you appear too obsessed with authority and your idealized view of "tradition" and culture. you dont seem to think about individual aberrations that happen in life.
>Kill your massive ego. The world seems chaotic because you’re only looking at how it impacts you personally.
see above
and of course I'm looking at how it impacts me personally because i have very significant personal issues. this is like saying someone is too focused on a gunshot wound they just got and they need to calm down and think about their diet and exercise instead of going to the hospital to get emergency treatment

>>42635528
stay on the ground. the LORD will give emergency treatment.

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>>42635451
being anti-authority is kind of based but at the end of the day you have to be strong if you want to be free. i think all of reality is honestly the same as the "law of the jungle". everything is still about strength.
like, i bought a lamp from the thrift store a few days ago and immediately had nightmares where something was impersonating my friend but looked incredibly creepy and demonic when i looked in its eyes, i could sense the malice in its eyes. i then got sleep paralysis for the first time in a long time and ended up calling out the name of the hindu god i grew up worshipping for help and then physically forcing myself to barely recite buddhist mantras to wake up fully and break the paralysis. i threw the lamp out and burned incense in my house and it didnt happen since.
my point is i was weak and ended up looking for help from places i hate because of the situation i was in.
it's really hard to defend yourself without help. if you want to be truly free you really have to be strong. reality is unfair. it kind of sucks.

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>>42635470
I am literally working a job that gives me some 900€ after taxes if I dont do any overtime and other bonuses. And I have been bullied and mentally ill since elementary school. Yet I still find the time to read, because I was led by my parents to read and love the books. We were never rich and I never really had many new stuff that other kids had, and even now my computer is like 8 years out of date. You are a dickhead for trying to project on who you are talking to while making shitty excuses.

>>42635521
>Tibetan lamas molest their disciples too.
lmfao i remember someone in a suicide thread here recently said they heard from a tibetan lama that if you kill yourself you get reborn as a disabled person. what fucking trash. the suicide threads on this board always bring out the most foul beliefs and claims from people. imagine telling people who are suffering so much that they are thinking about ending their own life that they deserve to be punished for it. religion is so fucking disgusting honestly. and so are people. i really see why some people become misanthropes and despise people in general.

>>42635528
>>42635515
he proved my point in >>42635527, but i don't think he's a bad guy. i think he just has a mentality he got from being overexposed to 4chan-adjacent ideals of masculinity or culture where they think that you have to assert yourself and dominate and focus too much on ethnonationalism and history (which i think a lot of is fake now)

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>>42635545
op please adopt a tripcode for like a few posts because i can get you a better/extra job potentially. now that i've said it this will be more complicated but i'll deal with it somehow. please don't just rot in that hellhole like i once did

>>42635528
Then do whatever idgaf. I tried to genuinely help, but you’re a whiny, self-absorbed clown trying to scam for salvation.

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>>42635545
i apologize. you seem like a nice person. and i actually really like the artwork of tokyo ghoul by sui ishida a lot. i just got irritated because my mom used to say the same thing as you to me ALL the time. "you need to read more". she has always had a superiority complex towards others about intelligence, despite fucking up both of our lives because she left europe to marry an abusive piece of shit in a cult.
she also taught me to read and like reading like you. she made me read Dostoevsky in 6th grade. one of my dumb fucking cult member teachers in school actually made fun of me for that because i guess that teacher was an idiot.
you also could have insulted me way worse than you did in your reply. so you seem like you're a nice person.
i just get irritated when people say stuff like "you need to read more". i also meant in my original statement that a lot of life includes working a job that you hate to survive, that's what i meant by economic slavery. i also got messed up from a really bad life and dropped out of college, so i feel hopeless about finding a good job anytime in the near future.

oh whoops, i got people mixed up. oh well.

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>>42635575
i appreciate you saying that, I'll give you my discord for now but i currently am doing something else to resolve my situation that i cant mention the specifics of
picrel is like the closest thing i can give for proof that its me. and also another thread i made yesterday using one of the pics i posted in this thread. >>42635365
>>>lgbt/thread/44108450
my discord is kn95__ (with two underscores)

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>>42635575
Got triggered, did ya, glownigger?
>>42635586
Well, education and reading is the strongest weapons that an ordinary person can use in this modern world. Because the elites, politicians and corpo are constantly trying to engineer a new generation of compliant and stupid idiots that will be easily controlled into what they want. There are plenty of authors who have talked about the injustices of the system and ways to reform it. Henry George is just the tip of that iceberg. He used to be quite popular in the past, run against Teddy Roosevelent, his ideas were supported by people FDR, Churchill or Sun Yat Sen. And now nobody remembers him, because his ideas go directly against the modern world. That is also why the elites who got spooked by Occupy Wall Street and Ron Paul in 2008, hijacked social media and use them to further divide society. That is why any greater and deeper ideas are being laughed at and why base concepts like sex and porn are pushed so strongly.

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>>42635601
shit. discord is something i don't use unfortunately, not free enough.
if the anime you just posted is what i think it is, i am probably also banned by company policy from hiring you. it's the leader's decision not mine. he has imposed a (rather understandable) quarantine on a certain fanbase and i'd be in giga deep shit with him if i pulled that in.

if i were to drop you one bit of advice it would be to understand crypto /biz/ stuff, not from 4chan just from observation. spend your time crawling crypto twitter for airdrops and join various retard cults and talk to people, just be everywhere at once, have a lot of alts, milk any freebies you can. observe the charts over a couple years and learn the patterns, and you might be able to start engaging in advanced judaism that can liberate you from financial samsara. be very cautious and don't follow the herd, go against it. don't bother with the meme casino, just stack boring network tokens. the earlier you learn how to use this stuff the better. never put real life money IN the computer, only ever take it out. acquire computer skills that cryptards could hire you for.
this is basically an accurate summary of how i escaped. don't expect college to carry you, times are changing. max out tokens on all free AIs you can sign up for to do shit for you. have a real computer besides a phone. start hoarding skills even if they don't seem useful at the time.

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>>42635623
>trying to groom mentally unwell people into a crypto scam
Wow, you are literally evil

>>42635629
not really, i work in video games and i literally said i can't hire op anyway. what i meant is that op could learn to squirrel away his money on the computer so that his family doesn't steal it or even know about it.
what's mentally ill is you chastising me for telling op to learn survival skills because it sounded funny in your head

>>42635623
>if the anime you just posted is what i think it is, i am probably also banned by company policy from hiring you. it's the leader's decision not mine. he has imposed a (rather understandable) quarantine on a certain fanbase and i'd be in giga deep shit with him if i pulled that in.
HAHAHA gintama like in my op pic or tokyo ghoul >>42635586?
thanks for the advice. some of my friends used to be deep into crypto stuff and one of my other friends jokingly called him a plutocrat because he was actually really good with it and doing well for himself. he finished college too so it isn't his only thing or anything like that, he just was really talented with it for some reason

>>42635608
I'm reading some stuff about him rn but it's mostly talking about his economic ideals, but I'll continue reading
I was never really deeply interested in politics so I'm new to this

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>>42635642
hmm ok then, you might be salvageable. sorry i don't watch animu i just got alarmed by the white hair. don't want to get fired myself. mind if i stash your discord for later and go to lunch, i'm starving. don't expect me to contact today or even this month, for now i'm adding you to the pool of potential errand people with a "needs help" sticker. do you have a computer capable of running blender? any art skills? what are you getting a degree in?

>>42635208
wait till you find out that its really about overcoming all that

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>>42635208
>WELCOME TO WHERE TIME STANDS STILL
>NO ONE LEAVES AND NO ONE WILL
>MOON IS FULL, NEVER SEEMS TO CHANGE
>JUST LABELED MENTALLY DERANGED
>DREAM THE SAME THING EVERY NIGHT
>I SEE OUR FREEDOM IN MY SIGHT
>NO LOCKED DOORS, NO WINDOWS BARRED
>NO THINGS TO MAKE MY BRAIN SEEM SCARRED

>SLEEP MY FRIEND AND YOU WILL SEE
>THAT DREAM IS MY REALITY
>THEY KEEP ME LOCKED UP IN THIS CAGE
>CAN’T THEY SEE IT’S WHY MY BRAIN SAYS “RAGE”

>SANITARIUM, LEAVE ME BE
>SANITARIUM, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

Refine yourself and find your personal Daimon inside and let it guide you. You will then be on the path to become a new God someday. A new God for someone else. Just be better than the current One.

>>42635487
i heard from the shaman that i (op) spoke to that gods actually need our worship, because those acts of worship are basically their "food". i actually saw in a Chinese TV drama, "Mo Dao Zu Shi" or "The Untamed", a scene where a guy was speaking sacrilegiously, saying something about how "gods can't even carry themselves", and acting and speaking in a challenging manner, testing whether or not a wish he made in front of a statue would come true because they were at some kind of shrine with a statue of a deity and someone said that they heard that making wishes there is really effective. i didn't understand what he meant by that sentence when i first watched it, but after what that shaman told me, i wonder if he meant something connected to that, that somehow gods need our acts of worship to function. Chinese people have a lot of interesting specific spiritual beliefs. My Chinese friend told me that they believe that the gods reside in a higher realm and us humans in the lower realm, and our realm is "insulated" from theirs, so they cant do things to us, and if they want to interact with our realm, they have to send down an "avatar", but that avatar wouldnt have the same level of power in their form as an avatar, so it would be like a regular guy. She also told me that they believe that humans have creative freedom while we are in the lower realm, and that they believe that some of their ancestors ascended to the higher realms in the past and fight the other gods to protect their human family members currently living on Earth, something like that. She also said that when you ascend to the higher realms, it's a one-way ticket, that you can't go back down. I was interested in Taoism and Chinese spiritual beliefs (NOT buddhist beliefs imported from india, but specifically Chinese spiritual beliefs) for years but i never heard that.

>>42635639
You deffinetelly don't work in videogames. Nobody in indie sphere would care for op's anime images, and corpo doesn't care for anything as long as line goes up. No, you are literally trying to scam him pulling him into some crypto scam, while pretending to be a savior, which is a typical scammer behaviour that pyramid scheme scammers and cultists commonly use.
>>42635644
He is primarily focusing on the economic aspect of things yes. His goal was fixing the conditions that led to working class getting poorer despte technological progress advancing.

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>>42635696
i literally said don't ever put money in the computer, how would i be trying to scam op while giving him directions to avoid getting scammed. i don't need to scam anyone bro, let alone someone who has nothing. we'd literally have to pay op to learn dev skills from scratch if we go through with this and i'm willing to do that cause he doesn't sound evil and i consider that a lot more important. there's non-dev paper pushing positions too if he's short on time.

i once hired an anon who supposedly had 3d skills but poor moral character and he handed in trash consistently and refused to follow directions. i still paid him for that garbage out of my own pocket cause time is time. since then i filter for iq and morals not skills.

anyway op if i ever do contact you i'll show you our projects so you'll know it's me. people who can't prove they work in vidya will probably be actual scammers. i will never ask for any money or labor up front or send you weird links. if someone does it's not me. got it?

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>>42635763
And why exactly can't you show him your projects now? From what it looks like to me, it really sounds like a scammer fishing for whk might be susceptible to manipulations.

>>42635208
yes you're finally growing up, now time to move on and stop beating urself down.

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>>42635678
i want to overcome it
>>42635687
Thanks
>>42635696
i see. I'm not as sophisticated about stuff like this but that makes sense. honestly i wonder if the problem of inequality and classism can ever be solved. human life is basically just a few evil people controlling the rest of the entire population. someone on this site said a while ago that if it wasn't the 1% and the 99% then it would just be local mafias ruling over small territories but now it's a small mafia ruling over the entire world.
>>42635763
i appreciate it, but some aspects of my situation i can't disclose, so i genuinely wouldn't be able to do any sort of work or possibly even have reliable internet access for a while, but thank you
i dont even have a usable pc atm cause of the bedbugs LMFAO
i tried to use my laptop once recently and got bites all over my arms. i wonder why something like bedbugs exists
>>42635821
move on where we cant leave until maybe when we die :(
it's crazy to think there's really an entire spiritual reality out there and we're basically just living in the ghetto of reality with no idea what's outside. like attack on titan
i wonder if higher beings are really watching us

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>>42635982
>wonder if the problem of inequality and classism can ever be solved
I want to believe that it can. I refuse to give up hope like the world wants to forve me to. That is why I am trying to use what I learned to awaken as many people as I can. If enough people awaken and realuze there are different options then things can begin to change.