I'm a biological male. I'll never be a woman, never thought I was, etc. I was just born with feminine traits and explored femininity sexually. I have my share of mystical experiences, which was mostly divine inspiration. I never practiced any form of demonic magic, seals, necromancy, etc. My path was mostly philosophical and directed towards inner self. I was brought up in a catholic household and I find satanism kind of cringe/repulsive.Some time ago I had more recent and profound experiences. That made me look for answers and recently I focused on elements of astrology, with emphasis on watching the moon cycles. Moon is tied to femininity and I did suspect my mystical experiences are tied to feminine side of my spirit. Yesterday I had a very deep meditation session, during which I felt uneasy. I fell asleep/unconcious during the meditation and woke up to very painful cramps in my stomach. I had a dream which ended with woman screaming and waking me up. I got chills, my ears got plugged, I felt dizzy, saw intense light and thought I was going to pass out. My thoughts raced so fast I couldn't focus on any single one and felt like I lost it completely. I emptied my bowels and pain lessened but it stayed in different form.I laid down exhausted and entered a trance once again. I had a vision I was pregnant with some form of creature, to which my body responded with sudden rush of hormones and a stiff erection. I felt connection to the thing that was in me, and I felt motherly proudness that I will give life to something - whatever it might be and wherever it might've come from. I figured most of these signs I would normally recognize as some sort of possession but I wasn't sure it was the case. I didn't physically pop out a goblin or an imp, but I spiritually felt I actually have birth to some form of demonic entity or a lesser spirit.I just wanted to share this story. AMA I guess, but also please give me your advice and interpretations of the whole ordeal.
>>43007150You will never be a real woman. You have no womb, you have no ovaries, you have no eggs. You are a homosexual man twisted by drugs and surgery into a crude mockery of nature’s perfection.All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your parents are disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your ghoulish appearance behind closed doors.Men are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed men to sniff out frauds with incredible efficiency. Even trannies who “pass” look uncanny and unnatural to a man. Your bone structure is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get a drunk guy home with you, he’ll turn tail and bolt the second he gets a whiff of your diseased, infected axe wound.You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your birth name, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a man is buried there. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably male.This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.
>>43007150Who's the father? What's the baby's name?
>>43007150This is not feminine
>>43007156Wow! What a hero. Thank you for saving us.
>>43007202>Who's the father?No idea, I do not recall any intercourse with anything. I was unconcious and woke up to this state.>What's the baby's name?Not once it came to my head that it's mine to keep or name. I just felt like something else deliberately put this thing in me for it to hatch and be collected afterwards. It wasn't form of mammal offspring one has to bond with and nurture after birth>>43007209What is feminine?
>>43007429Do you work with any demons or spirits?
>>43007511As stated in OP, no. I never had an interest in interacting with any supernatural entities. For me spirituality is mostly a path to inner self and most of my mystical experiences are visions and spotting weird patterns.
You're a dumb fag, OP
>>43007150Were you sitting up while meditating or lying down? It could have just been a dream. Feeling dizzy and seeing lights plus passing out sounds like a health issue. When is the last time you saw a doctor? Not trying to be a dick, OP, but this doesn’t sound spiritual. I’d argue it’s hard to be connected to the spiritual world if your physical health isn’t in check, as it’s the vessel you use to interface with reality.
>>43007150what's going on there, why is there a sheet? why is there toilet paper?i smell a stinky
>>43008395>Were you sitting up while meditating or lying down?Sitting first, then lying down.>It could have just been a dream.I did fall asleep but I do know the exact moment I woke up. During the moment of birth I might've been half awake, but the pain was real and persisted after waking up fully.>Feeling dizzy and seeing lights plus passing out sounds like a health issue.It was paired with stomach ache so obviously it was a health issue. I'm okay when it comes to physical health, though.>When is the last time you saw a doctor?3 months ago maybe
>>43009042I tried to join and got flagged as a bot or something, lmao
>>43007156you are a raped nigger who cant read
>>43007150OP stop bullshitting.You got knocked up by Lilith, didn't you?
>>43007150https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HhGp6BYNY-QYou really do anything for attention, don't you?
>>43011360Nta, but if you're OP replying to him you have no idea how ironic your post is.
fake and gay
>>43007150Damn, I got no idea. Keep us posted though and congrats on the baby I guess
>>43007150Congratulations!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWLIgjB9gGw
>>43011343Well done, good work, if that’s ur site, it’s quite good.
>>43007150>I had a vision I was pregnant with some form of creature, to which my body responded with sudden rush of hormones and a stiff erection.kys tranny
OP here.>>43011497>You got knocked up by Lilith, didn't you?I don't even believe in Lilith being an entity you can interact with.>>43011939That wasn't me>>43014223I had minor cramps till end of this moon cycle. I could've given birth to more than one thing, but not more than 3. It all feels like a grotesque dream nowadays, except that I know it happened and I made this thread to note it down.I will try to establish contact with whatever was in me. I will try to command and to ask what it wants. I have no experience in contacting any spirits/etc. so I guess I will just stick to meditation and try to find my way there.
>>43014628At least post pics of the parts of your body that imply that you're ''pregnant'' and also timestamp instead of these lewd pictures.
>>43014710I wasn't visibly pregnant in a conventional way and I'm not trying to recreate any of it to illustrate the story, or whatever. Just posting pictures as a form of self-id, but 98% of my pictures are either personal or nude/porn, so I'm settling on these few where I'm clothed.Pregnant with spirits is a content theme I might consider exploring in the future, thanks for the idea, haha
>>43007150>>43014628>>43014869>I'm settling on these few where I'm clothed.An incubus or succubus got you pregnant, crossdresser. Case closed.
>>43014970what are the implications of that? What do they impregnate with and what happens after the birth?
>>43015010>what are the implications of that?You got rewarded for being a pervert.>What do they impregnate with and what happens after the birth?The succubus or incubus used a spirit dick, duh. The offspring is now going to rape others.
>>43007150Ye I also saw the new omen movie it sucks and the ending is Marvel (tm) levels of retardation. If you ever get mindbroken irl you're supposed to an hero instead of making a clown of yourself stealing the plot of a retarded movie and making a tr00n version for an /x/ thread of all things get a life and/or better material
That's a demon. Being an astrology tranny is demonic
>>43015865>Being an astrology tranny is demonic>trannyarguable>astrologyhow come?
>>43015134Why are you so petty and angry?
>>43007150boomer here, if you're looking for demons ill point you to my cunt of a mother. before you try to explore your unconscious mind, figure out if you just watched a horror film or something that'd make you think about giving birth to one, sometimes you can have an intrusive thought that later manifests into a dream days, or even weeks later. otherwise i guess on a spiritual level you wanted a woman's defining experience, but think it'd be wrong because you're a man, hence the dream. but yeah i hate my mom.
>>43007150You meditated on the planet of child birth and had a vision of child birth. Big surprise.
>>43007150>>43014628>>43014869Post your d!scord username.
>>43007150oy vey tranny, oy vey.
>>43007150May I see your natal chart?
>>43007150Yeah ok but how many cocks have you sucked?
>>43021420emmak_03459>>43021452picrel>>43021678Not many, actually.
>>43007150It's far more likely that you "gave birth" to your astral body. Your psyche has not integrated it as an aspect of self so you see it as "other" aka demon (which makes sense considering the catholic upbringing, the unconscious/subconscious can only communicate in symbols). You didn't give birth to anything outside of yourself. The spiritual seed you planted with your practice (contemplation, meditation, inner work) has sprouted and it being "not like anything" in experiential waking reality in combination with ignorance of the actual goal of the spiritual practices you use are trying to accomplish results in wisdom without understanding. Or vice versa. Just stay on the middle path and genuinely if you think "demons can get me pregnant" while simultaneously saying "i don't mess with demon stuff and only practically engage with philosophy and meditation" then obviously there's something going on there. If you aren't messing with demons then it is very obvious your catholic societal programming is labeling an actual encounter with the divine in order to preserve your tunnel view of reality. If you think demons can impregnate you, you are crazy. I am not great with wording but what I am trying to say is that "i think i got impregnated by demons" being something you are legitimately considering cannot coexist with "i only do practical spiritual stuff for inner growth". I don't know what the answers are for you in that dialectic, but you need to come to some sort of synthesis because "practical spiritual inner work" should not lead to "am i getting impregnated by demons". Just read Gurdjieff or Jung, bro. Pick a path and walk down it. They don't have all the answers, but no one does for that matter.
>>43024079Also in regards to your erection during the encounter. When the light body is formed, it redirects seminal or ovarian fluid through meridians of the body. The ultimate goal being to "open your chakras" or rather cause a chemical correspondence through the endocrine system from perineum to forehead (3rd eye). It is very normal to get an erection during this. In fact some people practice "sexual alchemy" with their partners with the goal of achieving this consciousness expanding "gift from god". The idea is that if you "hermetically seal" your sexual energy you can use it to create a permanently accessible non-physical body. Sex tantra, sex magick, sexual alchemy, inner alchemy, neidan (juxtaposed to weidan), the dry path, etc. It goes by many names. Just don't freak yourself out about it. When you plant an apple tree and water it, one typically isn't surprised that it bears fruit eventually.
