>>31091778

Which one would you buy? Just need it for browsing and maybe the Sims 4 (low graphics setting) or some other old game (not a new 3D shooter lol).... help, pretty please!

i don't know for what i was born to live a live of torment, suffering and loneliness

It’s too early.

>>31091778
fuck didnt load pic - incognito mode field cleared?

- dell latitude 6300u 5480 i5 16 gb $244 or
- lenovo t470s thinkpad i5 6300u $292

I love how he autistically pauses to try and cowboy sexy talk for me. <3
And how the french german twink just wants to cum to my face.

>>31092012
The Sims 4 is trash compared to its three predecessors.

>>31092084
Yuck that's fucking disgusting, why are gay men like this? Don't you like love, why all about sex?

>>31092140
Yeah, I agree (especially gardening) but my old xbox isn't working with sims 3, I'm not buying it again

Thanks for not helping though!

>>31092111
From Yerba Buena down to the coast, you’re fucking with the ghost who rocks the most!

>>31092156
I’ll help you as soon as you stop consooming shit games

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>>31092030
I know how that feels. But I found out, it’s better not to question.
Because suffering is limiting your view and you might not understand that some things rightfully don’t work out.

And the panic to get out of the pain is clouding where you really are, and asking the wrong questions and longing for the wrong people and doing things that are not appropriate or well thought.

So its better to not question but wait and let it pass. Let it go through you and feel whatever you are feeling without trying to understand.

What a slog of a week this has been. Lots of upsets dragging me down. My mom just called me crying to tell me that a close friend of hers just died. Plus my dad is currently ill. Trying to keep my head up. I just want everyone to be ok.

>>31092084
Envious. This friday night too i am single and alone

>>31092203
Don't want help from a game snob anyway.

this women I'm seeing is deadass trying to neg me as if she's some early 2000s PUA. talking about how she's not physically attracted to me, but when I see her she can't keep her hands to herself

pretty sure my husband is bored of me and tired of my shit

Free Dexter

>>31092367
I hope I could do that. The problem is that my mind doesn't work well and that is the reason why I can't have a normal life.

>>31092371
When you reach a certain age all you will see is people getting sick, old and dying around you.

time to do some fishing

>>31092957
Yeah, I know. It's still a bummer to see everyone miserable.
There's just been a pile up of garbage lately. I already had to deal with a lot heartache recently, and my financial situation isn't looking good either. So much turmoil in such a short period. I'm tired and not sure what direction to take with my life these days.

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I ruined a band for me because I jerked it when rping with ai chatbots while listening to their music. Now I can't help but get a boner when I listen to their music. Fuck Pavlov, that is all.

>>31092945
i know what you mean. my mind too is somewhere in another stratosphere or burried two storages underneath or i have to chase it with a landing net, dig it up and down. its anything but working as it works for others. It is okay.

Put your attention to the basics (yes that too is most challenging), to keep yourself alive. cleaning house, eating regulary, a little workout or going for a walk..stuff like that.
Maybe we ought not to have a "normal" life, but a somewhat functioning and we have to create trust and safety in different ways. Im sorry thought that you experience all that though.

2nd unwanted pregnancy and pill abortion soon. pain

sex is overrated

>>31093177
close your legs you stupid whore, or at least start using birth control properly.
you've killed two of your potential children, what a disgusting and selfish act

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Truthfully, there's no way you can recover from having shit parents. Especially in this economy, where you're stuck with them until you're mid-20s at least. There's really nothing you can do. By the time you have autonomy and independence it's already far too late.

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>accidentally knock a glass cup down at work
>everyone gasps and the whole office literally gathers around in a big crowd to gawp at it

exactly how I wanted the day to end

>>31093198
aww so sad i killed what i don't want )-:

you're a man so you don't have a say in what women go through, goddbless tho

Reconstructed vase
Flowers

>>31093209
>that pic
He just like me my entire time through grade school fr fr

>>31093267
>you're a woman you can't decide where my dick goes.

I don't know how to interpret what you did yesterday
Maybe you did it just because, after a long time, whatever
Maybe you did it because you wanted to mock me on that special day
Maybe you did it as a gift
I'm glad you're looking ok at least

>>31093124
Yeah, we really could have done without Pavlov.

>>31092479
hes probably been trying to communicate something to you for a while but hes not getting anything back so hes given up. in that phase hes going to be starting to look for solutions to his problems elsewhere.

if you care about your dude you better start listening to him or youre going to find him with somebody else.

I wish you'd die J

>>31093124
that's hilarious, what band was it

I feel like I might have autism.
I don't fucking want to have autism.
I don't want my brain to be retarded.
I don't want the reason why I'm so awkward and bad at everything be that I was just born this way and will always be this way.
I want to fight, to improve, to learn to be better, a successful and more attentive worker, an interesting and fun person to be around, focused and able to get my points across.
I want to be fucking normal, why was I cursed? I'm almost 100% certain I have undiagnosed puzzle brain fart garbage rotting my mind. I'm 30 so I'm pretty sure it's waaaay too fucking late to learn to live and find happiness with this. There's no support for this crap unless you're also the type that shits their pants.
I feel like I should just jump off a cliff. I don't want to be "special.".

>>31093530
Typical response. Men never take responsibility for their own actions in a relationship.

>>31092479
Your problem is you're a misogynist and that's why you're here. I'd never let my husband get bored of me or "tired of my shit". Why? Because I'd fucking put him in his place before that happened. You think a marriage is one-sided. You have a lot to learn in life. You could easily be bored with him and too and sick of his shit. If you think he is perfect, you're extremely controlled.

Why the fuck was there money missing again? After she warned me, and I was careful about it?
Why am I fucking cursed to be an embarrassment all my life? This is why I can't make friends. This is why she didn't invite me to the New Years party at her place again. This is why she keeps sending texts to the others while giggling every time something silly or dumb happens to me. And then she sends me away due to 20 missing euros while she stays there, probably so she can rage at me in peace without me knowing about it.
All I want is friends, and all I get is this. People who hate me and think I'm a clown.

no friends no job but loadsmone

>>31093614
Only when I get to have sex with M first. Then I can die happy.

>>31093640
nice word salad did your feelings make you type that

>crying on the ground drunk
>dogs tolerate but clearly uncomfortable
>pet them and console them and make my tone happier
>they visibly cheer up and seem happy and relieved
>do 5 jumping jacks and start manically asking if they want treats shaking the bag
>they love it
>give them treats and let them outside
>cry more
if any man in mi wants to move in with me and take care of me I'd appreciate it. I'm female

>>31093267
Woman would rather brag about getting abortions than use any self control. You can get condoms for free at the same place you're getting your abortions.

Woman are psychopaths.

>>31093791
K?

>>31093796
Nope

>>31093770
>word salad

You don't even know what that means apparently... you simply don't like my opinion because you're a pos misogynist. I don't have feelings for people like you, I just think you should be slaughtered with the rest of the Arabs.

>>31093811
Based, husbands must be trained. Not even in a mean way you teach people how to treat you

>>31093791
Sleep it off.

>>31093795
Stop fucking women then. Younger women are now turning asexual because they know males are idiots.

Also, that woman is an idiot but so are you.

>>31093821
Exactly, you're a smart one, you get it.

Please don’t just ignore me

>>31093336
Fair point but you need to be on the pill. For your own sake too.

>>31093841
Ok here a you. I'm perma leaving though.

>>31093841
its not like i want to but wives need to be trained bro cant have you peeing on the rug and stuff

>>31093856
You aren’t him

>>31093824
>sleep it off
I'm not even that drunk just sad. Everything is too much. I miss my ex I never should have dumped him. He helped me a lot. Nobody will help me. I asked my mom for help and she unloaded random stuff on me and she basically said she can't help. I am alone. I need a man to save me or a very nice friend but I have neither. I have been crying a lot. I'm going to see spy x family with a guy tomorrow that I don't even like tat much just to have somebody to see it with. I'm so low I hate my life

>>31093866
Nope, never said I was.

i use transit every week-or-so for business related matters and i specifically time my trip so that i get to be near the group of 18+ ADULT COLLEGE TEENS leaving their local private catholic girls' COLLEGE. bros the skirts they wear are so fucking hot i get diamonds whenever they're near, one time one of them was sitting next to me and i could feel her thigh pressing against mine and i could barely contain myself from just groping her on the spot. i think i'm gonna start figuring out how to get upskirt photos of them soon.

>>31093867
Spoiler alert... no one is going to save you, it's a do it yourself operation.

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>>31093911
Guess I'm fucked then

>>31093917
You just need to grow up a bit. You'll be fine.

Everyone in my family got amazing grades at prestigious universities, while I struggled with basic high school math and science. I swear to God I have some sort of learning disability.

I sexually identify as a Pikachu.

>>31093925
I've been through too much I give up man. I think I am being gangstalked a lot too. Here is why:
>even on imageboards I get people referencing my prior posts, on a diff one I think the jannies are stalking me NOT this one
>people crowding me in public places very obnoxiously like touching me and bumping into me
>roadraging against me and weird drivers like for instance I wanna go in a taco place I go to use the left lane but a guy uses it very early and blocked me weirdly
>turban guy walks away from his gas pump he was pumping gas at, walks over to stare at me like he was mad for a long moment then walked back over to his pump
>go to go in store and as I opened the door to walk in a woman and her child tried to walk in front of me? (I'm young female and wasn't opening it for them in any way) and then the mom shittalked me to her kid that I was rude???

>>31091778
>>31093949

Why would you be gangstalked? Are you involved with a gov operation? Do you know many important people? Why do you think anyone would care about what you do? Are you extraordinary in any way? A celebrity?

I didn't write give up, I wrote grow up (and sober up)

>>31093977
I have some opinions that are radical and I am an online influencer in a way (offgrid but I've created many memes (the qt gf meme being one) that are used on multiple social media websites, I have a big personality and creative drive)

My editor is a good editor, but he works on books he doesn't like and I don't think he likes my book. I'm torn whether or not to hire him again, because maybe I just need to write better in general first.

>>31093997
I don't know what the qt gf meme. Everyone has extreme opinion online. How many followers do you have on social media? How do you have a "big personality" and if so, why are you alone?

>>31094004
Big personality as in I say shit I mean. I get called "bait" a lot because people don't get that free thinkers still exist. I hate that btw, zoomer peons call everything they disagree with or that slightly activates their neurons bait. It really disappoints me. I think they are dumber than me. But yeah I am being actively silenced and squashed and you are being gay towards me I can tell. Go take your prep dose and fuck off

>>31094010
Asking questions is being gay? You think you're really important enough to be gang stalked by people that hate your meme? I was trying to help you but it's clear why you're alone drunk on the floor, now. Go see a shrink and stop making memes and posting extreme content if you're a paranoid schizo. It's not going to help you.

You have no real problems.

I’m 25 years old and 10% of my hair is grey. Should I kms? It’s so fking embarrassing I can see poeple staring at my hair whenever they talk to me

>>31094029
You're dumb and don't get nuance and are too literal to be of any help to anyone, pinhead

>>31094035
You're uppity and think way too much of yourself for making a stupid meme. Sad. You sound unlikable.

>>31094034
Men are so weird just dye it

>>31094056
Fuck off you can't eat my ass

>>31094061
No thanks tranny, I'm sure you don't wipe. Probably why you have no friends.

Driiiink yoooour Peeeeepsiiiii!

>>31094068
I'm white female and you are african american male with a cellulite ass cuz of your excess estrogen. Sad

>>31094057
My hair is too short to dye. I would have to dye it every week which I don’t even know how to do/if it’s possible

>>31094075
No, you're just a freak that thinks too much of yourself. Gangstalked because of a meme,give me a break, you narcissist. Everything you described is just normal assholes in life, you need help.

It's cute how you think you know anything at all about me though.

>>31094069
no sugar is bad!

>>31094104
I knew you were here... I wonder how...

>>31094092
You are black and overly literal there are multiple reasons why I'm being gangstalked. You are a mean ugly scrote with a tiny dick picking on someone already picked on. I wish you aids, faggot

>>31094107
spritual connection probably

Also I know you were the one pretending to be my ex on those threads about him. I would rather slice my vagina with a thousand knives than share the same room as you and breathe the same air you freakish fucking golem

>>31094115
I wish I was black, it's weird how you find that an insult. You're a useless cunt that wants to be gangstalked by a bunch of black guys. Maybe then you'd get laid (saved I mean)

>>31094123
Again, no. You're not that important.

>>31094126
>I wish I was black
Abbo? Thanks for the kek, dreg

>>31094132
You should just kys, you'll never get laid.

>>31094130
You are black and I can tell who you are. Your typing style is very distinct. Moron.

We're making love tonight, my girlfriend and I.

You don't know me at all and you never will. Thank God.

>>31094120
Not.

The next time you do that weird sexual harassment shit towards me I'm going nuclear. I'm warning you, leave me the fuck alone you disgusting stretched out coal skeleton

I am about to have an opportunity to move out of my families house at 29, I have a girlfriend who I love, but I keep quitting jobs because of anxiety attacks and fear of anaphylaxis. I want things to go good and to get a job, I am continually rejected at mcdonald’s.

I just need you to be ok…

You are my favorite cuckquean. I wish you were here, feather duster in hand.

I cannot believe you posted about our old relationship and said you never really had romantic love for me after saying you loved me, you wanted to marry me. And then when I said ONE THING, not even to you, you acted like I had been harassing you for years.

You know I see this right? And to see that you went "Oh I never loved anyone I was with, I just pretended and acted so they'd be happy" is so fucking hurtful. I'm glad that my real friends reached out to me and said they thought she went too far because I was incredibly hurt.

He was a 33 degree royal arch mason - sometimes I wonder what he did to get it. Is it because he knew Einstein and Oppenheimer at the Department of Energy? Maybe a glowie here knows. I was always a little afraid of him in a way as a small girl, he was larger than life.

>>31094161
you really just have to walk into these places and put your balls on the counter bro. management isnt going to read your resume they have more important things to do like take 50 smoke breaks a day and gossip about the employees while getting fuck all done. go in and talk to a human and sell yourself to them. be like ' hey i see youve got shit im somewhat of a shit expert myself and i happen to be looking for work. i can take care of your shit for you im avaiable whenever for whatever hours. heres my shit if you want to contact me about doing shit with your shit and shit.' real shit. online applications and even just dropping shit off with joe whoeverthefuck at the desk is pointless. face to face bro.

>>31094222
Who gave my dad 4chan and a 4loko

>>31094181
AEC* then

Anyway, as my friends told me, I shouldn't waste my time with these freaks here. I just need to know about my past. It's all that I care about now. I'd do anything to find out, it all haunts me.

>>31094151
...i knew you were gonna say that. how queer.

yea bro you cant trust anybody here unreliable narrators who use their fancy word salad to weave their plausibly deniable prepubescent posts about porn and patriarchy nonbodoy wants to have a conversation they just want to obtrain imaginary clout via frustration and obfuscation of manipulating those that dare its all a psyop to make you feel like you know nothing and enfeeble you so they can enact their evil tyranny upon us all n shit

I dont know what to do anymore.
Nothing makes sense. I'm not good at anything that I attempted during my whole life. And now I just wanna stop trying.
Most people have that "column" or power that helps them during their lives. Loved one, money, friendship, health, family, or even talents. Things that is always there for them, even during the worst nightmare. I don't have a thing like that. I'm alone, and without any skill or shit that makes me proud of myself. It's so fucking over

>>31094254
Lies

>>31094270
Your dumb opinion means nothing, to no one. Speak to the void because no one cares, including me.

>>31094303
Stop being black on here you are disturbing the vibe and you are annoying nobody fucking likes you H

>>31094303
projecting much lmao

>>31094309
If I were a black guy, I'd get so much pussy. You should wish you were black, then maybe you'd be more interesting and be able to get laid.

>>31094317
Wow, you're really upset by that one. Yeah, no one here cares about what I write, except you apparently. Two replies!

>>31094281
man i dont think most people are good at much honestly. not that they cant be but they never stay good at anything cause they never stick with anything. theyll write on their resume all this shit they used to be able to do but you ask them to do it and they haven o fucking idea bro.

series. you dont have to be good at something bro if you can be passionate about something then youll get good at it as you stick with it. learn how to love shit bro

>>31094325
I'm white female and redhead are you kidding me I wouldn't re-roll you're nuts

You already know you're nothing. I don't have to tell you that.

>>31094329
Yet you need a man to saaaave you. Pathetic tranny, you'll never be a woman.

You should've just been nicer when that person was trying to help you, drunk person. You kind of deserve this. Go cry more.

>>31094343
It's nice having someone living with you helping you with shit I know you can't relate incel.

>>31094351
You're really creepy and I'm confronting you about this if you keep going H

if I wasn't mentally ill I could have fucked that asian girl that lived in my neighborhood, could have fucked that tight asian pussy over and over. shit. that stings

I was black once

>>31094361
Bahahahahahahahahahahaha

>>31094354
Now you're lying, contradicting what you posted before. Just lie to yourself all day because you're bored and lonely. No one cares.

>>31094369
What are you even talking about schizo what lie? I used to have a bf but I'm single rn

>>31094363
Michael Jackson?

>>31094375
>It's nice having someone living with you helping you with shit

You're dogs don't count.

Stop replying to me horny tranny. I don't want you.

>>31094384
My ex lived with me for 9 years. I'd rather grind on barbed wire than stand behind you at kroger

Damn. I want to be in a domestic partnership with hozier.
But only if he shaves his beard.
I want to kiss his pretty lips into my dimension of frozen time.

>>31094376
You just reminded me

I think I had a dream a few hours ago that Michael Jackson was secretly still alive

>>31094386
He finally woke up and left.

>>31094406
I kicked him out of my house and he cried and still gives me tech support

Some people just want to be miserable, it seems.

>>31094416
I see... he was only with you for your house. Clearly. Finally left the wicked witch of the trannies.

>>31094420
whosat and why?

People do that. They pick fights to get away from psychos (make it seem like it's their idea). Then do tech support so they don't attack them in their sleep.

>>31094428
You wish you were female so bad it's funny

>>31094435
Right, thaaaaat's it! You seem bothered.

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I am enraged and betrayed that my own mother would subject me to child-genital mutilation (circumcision) as a baby. I feel so betrayed and hurt by her. I just want my foreskin back. I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive her or love her again.

>>31094450
Black midwit can't even argue properly

>>31094455
Yet, you're still screeching like the wicked witch you are. You're boring and not creative in the least in your replies. Boom! Bye

>>31094452
She should've cut it off and fed it to the chickens.

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>>31094465
I'm a witch alright I cast a spell of seethe on you it's super effective

>>31094452
I had a botched circ and I still have a scar, its fucked, fuck circumcisions

>>31094402
He is, he just looks like a regular burn victim. He didn't have vitiligo, he has some rare skin condition that would have probably been named after him.

>>31094481
That sucks, Anon. I wish it had never happened to you. You deserved better.

>>31093620
Fucking Good Kid, man. Go listen to them, they're pretty great, just don't make the same mistake I made.

>>31094497
t-thanks you too anon! crazy how one little snip can alter your entire life. and people keep on doing it.

>>31094479
You really tried hard with that one! Bwahahaha

You are actually extremely evil, whether you know it, or not. You deserve the freaks here, your people.

>>31094545
Yeah, I hate living in the USA. The least I can do is try to educate people on it and give out some empathy when appropriate, because God knows practically no-one else in this godforsaken country is going to give any regarding this subject.

Intact men when I talk to them about circumcision:
>Wow, that's horrible! And that's the most sensitive part of the penis, too.
Cut men when I talk to them about circumcision:
>Um... ackchooally, I was circumcised and I have no issues with sensitivity.
[They have no frame of reference because they can't remember what was stolen from them. Their egos try to defend themselves by denying the severity of the practice, thus preventing them from having to admit to themselves that they were mutilated as babies.]

>>31094181
Your dad's a nobody. Couldn't get into Brown, couldn't make any connections. He was a patsy who never had his number called, god bless him.

Had a potluck today and I brought a dessert item that some colleagues did not like, and they made it visibly clear. Overheard one guy said he felt like throwing up and then came up to me very clearly pretending to be nice when he said it was so good.

Gonna be honest, it's got me feeling a certain type of way and the people I can safely tell this to is very limited. I've eaten (subjectively) shitty cooking before, but I don't tell it to the face of the guy who made it, for fucks sake.

Your dad couldn't get into the public sector because he didn't register with the selective service, shit you not.

1. My fridge is broken. I've been eating from it for days, and getting diarrhea. My housemate gaslit me and said it was fine. I bought a thermometer and it's literally 65 deg F. She thinks she is right about everything.

2. I think I am an alcoholic. I don't drink every day but I eagerly wait til the weekend to binge drink because I'm too ashamed to drink on a weekday. The fact that I'm ashamed is telling.

3. I must have done something different lately because this guy who's been fucking me for years actually tried to last longer. Like he kept stopping so he wouldn't cum and left marks all over my neck. He usually cums in like 1 minute lol. Then when I said bye he said "i love you". I said it back really quickly. It was kinda awkward but cute. But now I wonder what I did differently???

4. My little brother keeps sabotaging his life. He turned out so many good opportunities because he feels like he can't do it. He has no idea how lucky he is. My parents want to retire and move to a smaller place and they are trying to get him to move into my house. He's not trying hard enough to get a job. But my parents are pushing this on me when it's their fault for not helping him. But then my brother won't even try. UGHHH
he just expects my parents to keep saving him. I really don't want to live with him.

Your dad gets a tummy ache every time he eats rye bread. His wife steps on his balls with high heels and yells at him in public.

Yeah. I'm supposed to have depression. I am drowning in trauma to the point where I am having short term memory loss from the stress.
I wish I could delete shit off my brain's memory permanently.

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I'm so tired of gender war bullshit. I understand that women have historically had it harder than men in western civilization, but this online men vs women thing is so terribly annoying. I'm tired of people saying men are trash and all the men coming out of the woodwork to say "yeah, we are useless". Like shut up, have some respect for yourself. But it feels like you can't really have pride about being a man. Complaining about people intentionally being inflammatory and making generalizations results in the incel accusation. Suuuurrre male allies, play along. You totally don't feel weird about this at all? And I get it, there's way more misogyny on the internet than misandry, just look at this place. But as a man I can't help it, this gender war bullshit is demoralizing. It's not "we want equality", it's "men are useless and it's good that they're suffering". I'm not a spiritual person but it feels as if there are satanic forces at play trying to demoralize me into committing suicide. And the worst part is that I know I don't have it as hard, I'm safer, so that feels to this sense of ungratefulness and even guilt sometimes. Like I'm not supposed to feel bad about it. Sorry but I'm a human being too, if we're to make collective progress then I'm allowed to not repress my feelings about things like this. I won't be gaslight into thinking I'm fragile or that I have an ego, being thought of as a violent oppressor because of something intractably part of your identity feels bad, and that's all there is to it. The internet is satanic and it wants me to die. Resistance to this makes me secretly a horrible person? Anger even? So be it. But I know who I am, and I am not an incel. I won't be gaslight by these satanic forces anymore.

>>31094679
>Like shut up, have some respect for yourself.
Bro, those are only the non asshole men that get we are referring to men that do bad things on purpose. Which is a lot of them. Men are most criminals, which they acknowledge.

You got what you wanted, Dutch

Every year it seems like I have a new health problem that isn't serious enough for doctors to care, but it dramatically lowers my quality of life and it seems like no one else can help me.

First, my ears just stopped popping all the way. The ENT said everything was fine and I got surgery on my nose because it's all connected I guess but all it did was give me chronic nosebleeds and my ears only got slightly better but still don't pop all the way.

The next year, I keep getting food stuck in my throat, but not in a choking way. It just gets trapped in a pocket somewhere in my throat and sometimes it moves and then I start choking. I can barely swallow anything. I can't swallow my meds anymore because I'm too scared of choking. I have to get everything in gummy form.

This year, when I was drunk my friend fucked up my eyes by doing my makeup while I was passed out and ever since I woke up from it, I've had permanent floaters. I think she accidentally got chemicals in my eye and she won't tell me the truth. Then she has the audacity to say I'm a horrible person for accusing her of blinding me when she literally did it without my consent! I have to put special eye drops every hour but it doesn't really help. The eye doctor can't do anything about it and says he has them too and there's no cure for it. WTF?

I just miss being able to go outside and not see constant floaters.

I just miss being able to hear music normally again and not have a constant headache from ears not popping.

I miss not having a mini panic attack every time I swallow.

And no one cares and no one can help me. I'm just afflicted by the most annoying uncurable shit that makes me want to kms.

>>31094684
I just don't have respect for people who engage in self-deprecation like that. It's one thing to acknowledge that but to refer to yourself specifically as defective or inadequate in some way, it makes me sad. Maybe those people are secure and perfectly well-adjusted though. I guess I don't like how leftists go about acting as if everybody should just automatically know this stuff and put anyone on blast for not getting it. I'm not saying you are but I see it elsewhere. White privilege for example, it's a concept I think makes complete sense, but you always see it be used in an inflammatory way, and when people get offended leftists assume they're an incel or something. I think they fail to recognize that their language can be charged and easily misinterpreted, but I'm getting off track. I don't know if I want language to be sugarcoated but I think leftists are also quick to make assumptions about somebody's character.

>>31094726
good moral character is the phrase

I can say any fact to my dad and he will respond by disagreeing wholeheartedly. he is the most contrarian person I've ever met.

>>31094587
How is a shitpost within 2 mins trying really hard

white privilege is people calling you a colonizer and getting jumped for saying the wrong word

Please text me back why won’t you text me back any times I can’t

>>31094740
Give examples?

>>31094740
Patently untrue. I'm sure your father is a very agreeable man with a huge cock. He probably just doesn't agree with anything YOU have to say.

>>31094740
Is he even disagreeing with you though? Like maybe he's arguing with himself and with that thing that's out there in the treeline just beyond his vision. Something to think about

His eyesight keeps getting worse and that thing keeps getting closer and closer.

>>31094662
whats ambient? could be an iced up fan or overheating compressor. you can open up the back at the bottom and see if shes all fuzzy if so givr a clean and she should come back into it. froze up fan youll probably want to letr rest for a day or so unplugged to let the ice melt out. easy shit to try

Dream/spirit bf is so comfy. I love you honeybunn.

>>31095000

thanks so much omg i will check that

>>31095000
>>31095038

and ambient is also 65 so it's pretty much room temp yet the lights are on and the freezer seems to work

I love you :3

>>31091778

I realized how much you took from me just now. You took my enthusiasm, belief in higher things, in positivity, in healing, in nature and you corrupted it with your blackness, pessimism, cynicism, artificiality, skepticism. You're the old dinosaur Newtonian system and I'm the new quantum energetic systematic. You took everything from me but I let you do it. Now, I am casting you into the lake of fire. Be gone demon. For good.

>>31095017
This is not me. I see you as the opposite of this.

Someone is out there crying for help but being completely ignored, going completely unheard but the Lord says to not even care so much. Just pretend to watch it all from a distance. Learning time is learning time. If you need to take a break, take as long of a break as you need.

>>31095081
There is immense suffering everywhere. The problems that people write about on here as usually not much compared to what goes on. Kids being trafficked for sex, organ harvesting, torture.

I don't get it I start working at this place
Phones start to malfunction for some reason
Router has malware and for a day we're having trouble with being redirected to a shitty website
Lights start giving out
Coworker falls down because the office chairs are fucking ridiculously old
Printer gets some serious paper jam and we're unable to fix it, temporal printer #1 doesn't like its own cartridges, temporal printer #2 only prints halfway through, new printer makes labels just disappear inside with no hope of recovery
We had trouble with our emails too
Even the fucking radio just doesn't work right anymore

My boss looks at me like "god please help me why is this happening to me" but I don't believe in curses

I don't like you, let alone love you. I'm not sure where you got that idea from. You're toxic, you're cancer, you're death and sickness.

>>31095045
thats good news. so youre dealing with an iced up or failed fan then. yeah id just let it dethaw a day then unplugged. when you go to plug it back in listen for the fan in the freezer if you dont hear it kick on after a bit it may have failed. $20-$100 part depending on the model. easy enough to replace that it could be done with a youtube tutorial.

>>31095106
That post wasn't for you anon. Don't seethe. Ignore them next time

>>31095110
Could be Anon’s defrost timer. Some can be manipulated.

>>31095121
What post are you on about? This isn't about you. Please don't reply to me. People are really stupid here.

>>31095129
Then stop projecting. You're stupid too

>>31095133
Projecting about what!? What the fuck are you talking about?

Noobs.

I scroll up and and see someone wrote I love you, which is rather stupid in itself but worse, that person is so delusional they thought I was replying to them!? Wow, lunatic.

You're the freak

Someone is really angry they got called out, wow.

Fight the future!!!

W o w you're retarded asf

>>31091778
No one who lives on 4chan, day in and day out, is even capable of love. They just want someone to 'save them' because they're an immature, selfish being, with a terrible character and no morality. A thing like that can't possibly love.

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What happened? Here I am, after 5 months of peace, assmad over this bitch, why do I even feel this unreasonably angry? It's absurdly unusual to me, I was always trying to fucking help you, you absolute fucking dumbass, and at every step you feel the need to insult, to poke, to annoy, to work against the people who dare to give a shit, and then when you realize you're being shitty you can't even deal with it, what is your fucking deal? It's not hard to just say "sorry i was a cunt" and then when someone says "yeah it's ok we're good" to just fucking take that, instead you keep diving into more ways to be a cunt because you know you hurt people, and you keep hurting them more and more because you hate that you hurt them, it is (???????), it's retarded, but it is me who's more retarded in this story, because here I am, sitting on my ass, hating, thinking about ways to tear you the fuck down and tell you to get a fucking grip, AND NOT WANT TO, BECAUSE I'M STILL YOUR FUCKING FRIEND AND ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU TO BE FINE.
YES. I'M TAKEN. I'M SORRY YOU LOST YOUR SHOT, YOU CAN'T BE A CUNT TO HER, I WON'T FUCKING HAVE THAT EITHER. AND YES WHEN I'M ANGRY SHE'S THE ONE WHO'S GONNA CALM ME DOWN, YES YOU MADE ME ANGRY, YES I NEED A MINUTE NOW AND THEN AFTER YOU ARE A CUNT, THEN YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO SAY "SORRY", I WILL SAY "IT'S OK, I'M GLAD WE GOT PAST THIS" AND THEN WE MOVE THE FUCK PAST IT.
I wanna shove a fucking popsicle stick in both your fuking eyes, strangle you down, yell at you to stop this bullshit, slap your shit, and tell you to fuck.off.

WHY AM I SO ANGRY, I'm a married man, and I have a bunch of shit to do, what the fuck am I doing.
Blogpost over.

https://youtu.be/9tClVGRq2xY

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I'm turning 26 in a few months. I can't stop thinking about how I've spent the last 6 years. I learned a lot, I grew a lot, but I'm still in the same place I was 6 years ago. I don't have any friends. I don't have a career. I work odd jobs, temp work, etc. I haven't had a GF in almost 10 years. I haven't developed any real skills or done anything impressive that takes time and discipline.

I'm sitting here wondering how I'm actually going to get any of that into my life. I know it's a joke to think that I can just turn things around on a dime. But I can't help but feel like it's over for me. I waited too long.


I'm fucked. Am I right? Am I wrong?

please come back???? I need you so much nothing is ever going to be okay again please come back

>>31095270
One question I've always found hard to answers is: "What do you want to do professionally?"
It's difficult to know that. Work is work, after all. Do you make this assessment based solely on salary or social signifigance? That only leaves you miserable. Do enter the field just to see whether or not you like it? That can be costly and time consuming. What you gain in odd jobs is experience and the opportunity to find out what you DON'T like and that's very helpful. Perhaps now you just find yourself in the position where you're ready to advance to more specialized work. It might not be a bad idea to see what kind of programs are being offered in your area. See if you can get trained to do something you don't dislike.

26 is still young. If you take care of yourself you could remain very active until you get to around 60. The thing that is going to get you in more trouble than you can handle is that mentality of wondering whether or not its too late to do something. Its that fear that will prevent you from doing anything until its too late.

Optimize, man. Find ways to be more efficient in what you do so that you can invest that energy towards your future. You've got time if you start today.

some of these people on twitch have that drug money donating $100k every month.

>>31095077
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IEtAmeR9p7U

Standard practice is I disregard every post that doesn't affirm how cool I am.

I have been reading up on CPTSD and narcissistic abuse and suddenly my past has been clear for me now. My mother had always been difficult when I grew up. Usually my dad was the supply but when I was 7-12 years old, he probably woke up to the fact and started doing "business trips". My mother, in need of a new supply, turned her abuse towards me. I don't remember much of exactly what happened(it's probably too traumatic) but remember smashing my hand and breaking a piece of glass. This is why I have a 2 inch scar on my hand. But about what exactly, I don't remember. Don't remember going to the hospital afterwards. Guess that's what CPTSD does to a person...

>>31090420
im drinking rn and i thought about blowing it smoov off but then i think about my dogs and my parents and its fucked. i cant do that

>>31095332
He doesn’t have an iPhone

>>31093038
who cares everything is shit or is good until it becomes shit so whatever you do it doesn't matter because eventually all will become shit

>>31095068
I love you too, D. Last week was awesome, I can't believe how much effort you put into your appearance just for me.

I haven't and will not give up on you. Let's start practicing those things you're an expert in together.

>>31095764
Nobody asked you

Hope I don't have any stds but my shit feels weird and I've been fucking tons of dudes raw. I'm such a stupid slut. I told the guy I was fucking he should get tested too and he freaked out at me. Fine give your gf my issue I'm sure that'll make her stay with you. Bro she is location tracking your phone she's onto you an std will surely give you away. Think

imagine if there was a medicine for every mental illness and you take it for some time, it is cured and you can go back to normal

how much suffering would be ended in the world

>>31095600
That IS pretty cool.

>>31095190
You have no business talking to a woman who likes you if you're happily married. Not only that, it sounds like you have extreme anger issues that haven't been dealt with. It appears like you want to control this woman. Stay away from her, you're going to pop a blood vessel.

I hate to point this out but most every person here is bottom of the barrel, worthless sludge. Desperate, insecure, immature and unable to just live their life properly. Why do you all congregate here? Do you actually think you'll get good advice from a bunch of losers who also can't handle the basics in life?

If you want to improve your life, don't surround yourselves with a bunch of losers. Are you all really this stupid?

I've got job interviews coming up and I can't fuck it up but with how things are turning out nowadays it'd be a miracle if I don't.
I just want to end this fucking thing

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How do I convince my scrote to stop eating hyperprocessed garbage? He keeps eating dogshit like frozen burritos and then complaining about having constipation and making mega shits. He makes fun of me for eating salad and things he considers healthy. I'm afraid he's going to die of ass cancer at 35 or something like that.

>Feel like I need to jerk off to get on with my day.
>Don't actually feel like jerking off.
I've just been sitting there doing nothing, with no interest in anything, for the past 10 hours. What a strange conundrum.

Holy shit, women are fucking retarded. I can't stand them.

>>31096869
Your what?

>>31096869
Tell him he should be fit or else you'll fuck ripped Tyrone.

>>31096936
>women become more prevalent in video games and movies/television
>quality of both mediums drops sharply
Women ruin everything.

I’ve always liked the smell of cigarettes but yesterday I also realized I really like the smell of smokers (no shit, it’s the same smell). If you have a ciggy addiction please let me sniff you

>>31097010
I knew a girl in college that was a heavy smoker. She absolutely reaked of smoke. Her car was unbearable. One day she made cookies for the class and they were inedible, they tasted like cigarettes.

She probably already had lung cancer.

>>31097010
>>31097010
Are you my cat? It loves the smell of burning tobacco, funny thing is she could care less for a plain cigarette just laying there but when it gets lit oh man. Tldr is my cat an addict how much for cat rehab

I have a female art friend that is pretty talented but she has no style of her own. She just copies whatever guy she is into. For the longest time her paintings were just mirror copies of a week known European artist. It was all black and white and spooky looking. The thing is that she sees her self as a creative lead and looks for high level creative positions but she has the worst fucking taste in art. The last position she got was because she was fucking the studio lead.

>>31097073
Better than "modern" "art"

>>31094726
>I guess I don't like how leftists go about acting as if everybody should just automatically know this stuff
... anon. We live in an era with information at our fingertips. The club has been well established for a couple decades now. You don't get to be mad, stupid, and have an opinion that isn't backed by at least 3 research papers. Smart people will pat you on the back and wish you sweet comforting isolation until you die.

>>31097087
You say that. I follow another female artist and ever since baldurs gate 3 came out she draws nothing but gay porn. So much gay porn.

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Amy Schumer makes me laugh sometimes

>>31092479
Relatable

I dropped out and I have two years to make it™
Either I turn out to be my family's crown retard or the one to finally escape the matrix

>>31091778
I am afraid to finally move out on my own despite having most things ready.

>enough cash to pay a year of rent upfront with plenty to spare
>a car of my own (+work car for another month or two)
>no debts
>basically half the smaller houseware is ready
>currently switching jobs to one that allows me to study and work at the same time (despite paying bit less)

yet i still have massive doubt about taking the leap as i have 2 weeks to pull it off.

>>31097087
You do realize a lot of artists can do traditional realism but then move on to different styles, right? People that don't understand art shouldn't judge because they're ignorant.

>>31096981
Women have always been prevalent, idiot. Mostly just sexualized in the past. Women taking leading roles is way better than a violent man's world. Men are the cause of all the problems in the world. Proven by stats.

>>31096936
Just kys, you're too stupid to exist.

>>31096869
You can't. Men are stupid that way, they never listen to women until it's too late.

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>>31097209
Cringe beyond belief

>>31097298
You're just replying to yourself with stupid pics. We get it, you hate women and this is your way of showing them all! Just fucking end it all, cretin.

>>31093038
Take some time for yourself anon. Do something you like doing, that you know is good for yourself too, even if its sleeping a while. It seems like you worry a lot for those around you. The world will go on. And you will find strenght to face it again.

>>31097277
>prevalent
>as sex symbols
And things were better that way. Anything creative they fuck up since they are incapable of anything but self inserts. Literally backed up by studies.

Women need to stop forcing themselves into male interest and hobbies. Even this board. You can easily tell its a woman's post by how retarded the logic is.

>girlfriend applies for animation job
>doesn't know the software at all
>tell her that she'll get the job easily
>asks me how do I know
>don't tell her it's because she's a female and a minority
>gets job
Shocker.

Oh soulless one, are you still alive?

I doubt I will be able to land another job but fuck it, maybe some idiot will fail to see how useless I actually am and hire me.
I need to leave my current job to preserve whatever is left of my sanity. According to my calculations, I need to quit sometime before 2026 or else I'll end up assaulting someone.

>>31097367
I wonder how many diversity hires are aware of the reason they got their jobs. There's got to be a level of self awareness.

>>31097307
Kat, how desperate are you for my attention? Do you think I have a soft spot for tsunderes? Because I do ..

>>31097397
Nah, they call people who say DEI stands for Didn't Earn It racism, they don't think they're being given charity, they think they're oppressed underdogs in a system that is structurally against them

I'm finding it hard to keep going, to believe that I can keep going, to believe that I'm more than a machine with no freedom. I'm not a rock. Men are not completely determined by external things. Fuck anyone who thinks this, says this, and especially the ones that use "laws of physics" to justify said notion. I won't fall for your psyop, kill yourselves.
That is all, read on anon.

>>31097234
acting is living, anon.
don't wait for it too long.

wow this girl is a sweetheart but she types like a retard

>>31097234
going to agree with >>31097451
not sure how old you are but it hit me this year that time is not going to stop moving. complacency is the silent killer of fulfillment.
I recently started taking more risks, putting myself in uncomfortable situations voluntarily, and I haven't regretted any of it. even if there are unforeseen consequences/challenges I think that's the price of living a fulfilled life.
wish someone would have told me this when I was younger and who the fuck knows where I'd be.

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>>31091778
Ukraine aid bill passed.
I mean I was a realist, congressional gridlock would never last forever, but sad to see that it came to an end.
Russian summer offensive is unlikely to achieve too much now.
Anyway the fight against the globohomo goes on regardless.
Death to ZOG.

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>>31097574
Not to mention crapload of artillery shells are scheduled to arrive early summer.
Sad state of affairs.

>>31097568
>>31097451
28

been a bit of a disappointment for the parents overall like the average 4chin user but i do understand i need to take those steps eventually, and better to do it now instead of procrastinating.

Granted with risks you gotta be calculated to not do something completely retarded.

>>31097427
The amazing thing is that some people think diversity hires aren't a thing. Like, im sure companies end up with dozens of lesbians and trannies naturally so they can have pride parades.

Then there are studies about diversity school acceptance. With equal grades a black person has a far better chance to getting accepted than their white counterpart. You have people like jj Abrams saying there are too many white people in the room like it's a bad thing. Sure, just hire some black female writers so they can turn all the characters into their self inserts like in that new star wars series.

>>31097592
I can't tell you if it's the right call or wrong call but weight your options at least. If you can always move back in with your senpai then fuck it - I would take the risk and try to make it work. Take advantage of a "safety net" that not everyone has if possible.
Risks I'm talking about aren't doing something stupid. I mean if there's an opportunity (even a small one) to get closer to where you want to be in life but there's risk involved, then do it and commit to sorting out anything unforeseen later.

I will miss you so much

>>31096353
We come to here to bitch and complain, unfortunately, you come here to judge and not join in the shenanigans, won't you be one of us anon? Come on, one of us, one of us !

I think I'm not fit to be in a relationship. I don't have enough time to take care of another person daily and constantly. I would just disappoint them.

Is it a common thing for people to be REALLY agitated when they get late starts to their day? I usually wake up at around 730 but I couldn’t sleep last night and didn’t wake up until 1030 today and I feel so… off.

>>31097669
Excuse my malfunctioning sentence, wtf is come to here. Fire brain cylinders, fire. But the question still remains anon, are you one of us?

I'm just gonna let myself be a hypocrite. The burden of trying not to be one all the time is too much.

>>31091778
i have a crush on this one grl that i hang around a lot with we have similar interests and shit but ill probably never confess or anything and we are just gonna slowly stop talking and forget about each other

>>31097615
>If you can always move back in with your senpai then fuck it - I would take the risk and try to make it work

While i have a lot of savings and they can last for substantial time i don't want to burn them. Worst case scenario is yes i can return to live with the parents but i'd rather avoid it.

I need to see that while renting i can save at least 15% of my salary overall (which is manageable) or perhaps fine a waifu which cuts down my cost of living by 30%. This needs to work out for at least 6 months since afterwards i should be able to earn enough to comfortably save up more.

Don't mind if I do

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>>31097603
It's bad. I write with a pen name because I don't want these DEI fuckers to punish me for being white.

>>31097979
In a lot of job applications for video game industry positions they ask if you are non binary or trans. They are clearly looking for diversity hires and I'm really tempted to check the box just so that my portfolio will actually get looked at instead of instantly ignored.

It's amazing how blatant they are being with the applications. They are just desperately looking for anything that isn't male and white.

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4 hour edging session to a text based level drain roleplay battle fuck game involving slime girls complete. My leg and back ache like fuck, my wrist is sore, and I feel like jumping off a bridge. If I see the words "unyu~" or "pyuu pyuu~" again I'm gonna cave the next weeb I see's head in with a lamp. Now I won't be able to sleep. Just another day in a war without end.

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>>31091778
I feel so weird. I keep thinking of being hugged, headpat, "play", etc.
I'm like constantly touching myself. I think I'm ready for an "owner" again.

A couple of thoughts:
1. Wowee
2. Yahoo
3. Yeehaw

I like to imagine some of the posts here are the girl that I like begging for me to come back into her life, but thats me being as delusional as a guy thinking hes a woman because he takes estrogen and wears girls clothing

I am more cringy than the feeling of two waterproofed coats rubbing together

>>31098200
Why aren’t you a part of her life anymore?

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I tried this cold approach stuff
>see normal looking girl sitting by herself in a park
>say hi and start asking her about herself
>she seems neutral, perhaps not interested
>she smiled a few times and I saw her awful teeth but continued anyways hoping to find something redeeming at least like a bubbly personality maybe
>turns out we have a lot of things in common in terms of where we grew up and where we're from
>after all these commonalities that were revealed she still wasn't moved
>just said fuck it internally, didn't ask for socials/number or anything, just said goodbye and left
What the fuck is the point, i thought if we had things in common it would count for something but I didn't even like that bitch and she didn't even emote anything.
That encounter made me question if I can even connect with women anymore.
I can talk to them but there's just nothing there, they don't share my interests(which I'm in the process of accepting), they expect me to carry the conversation as if they have anything to offer, and it's just a hassle to work around their shit tests.
I'm starting to get sick of this. Maybe I should just accept that spending time by myself or my friends is the best way to live life.

>>31098304
If you hate her teeth why even put in much more effort? Stop trying to make it about her not trying. You don't like her teeth, she saw that you noticed and decided to abort, you now decide to blame her. Asshole much?

>>31091778
Too low IQ for my dreams, it was a mistake to think I could be anything more than a very basic retail worker, like bottom of the barrel street sweeper kind of work. I am actually a cursed human being, I just want to die.

>>31096353
I got some useful advice here over the years
I didn't write down how many times I've made some good choices based on explaining my problems here but if you're not dumb you'll know who's trying to help you and who's just trying to get a reaction or get you to fuck up for shits and giggles

you are...
so fluffy
you are
so hungry
you are
a punkin

i want it punk way

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA YOU FUCKING BITVH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

:D

at least read my last message
it was an apology
i'm sorry

I don't know what to feel anymore.

You're the cutest little caterpillar in the whole caterpillar colony!

life would be so much easier if people would actually talk and try and communicate instead of just prescribing emotions to you. i am not angry. i am not upset. it is incredibly frustrating when you tell me im angry when im not.

I don't hate them but fuck my parents giving birth to me when they are both short. Now I have to live life being 5'6. Fucking thanks. As if the world needs more worthless short men.

>>31097855
>Worst case scenario is yes i can return to live with the parents but i'd rather avoid it.
Just based on that if I were you, I would be trying it.
Way I see it you either do nothing and likely end up regretting it (and have to move out later anyway) or do it and fail or do it successfully.

>>31099061
My ex was 5'4" so you just need to find yourself a petite girl. She was asian so try to get one of those. Though, my other ex was also asian and she was 5'10". She was really self-conscious about her height because that's really tall for an asian girl. Luckily I'm exactly 6ft but she preferred guys even taller than me so whatever.

>>31098878
Iktf, lack of communication is what destroys most relationships. If only one person is willing to clarify things, and the other doesn't try to respond with the same clarity, the relationship can derail real fast.

>>31099126
not him, what the fuck are you talking about? most short girls like tall guys.

>>31099133
every girl likes tall guys but if you're short you gotta aim for a girl that's really petite to still be taller than them. Latina women are pretty short too. Gotta go for the latinas and asians as all the other races are going to crack over 5'6"

>>31099152
ah, true actually.

Am I wrong for rejecting a girl who has an OF? She's hot and cool to hang around with, but she wants something serious and not a hook-up/"situationship" thing. I have no interest in pursuing anything serious with an OF girl. I'm also a virgin loser so I'm worried I'm missing a good chance, but I also don't want to create a nightmare situation.

>>31099126
From what I've seen, both short girls and tall girls prefer tall guys. I think for some 5'1 girls, even I am too short (at 5'6).

>>31099152
>but if you're short you gotta aim for a girl that's really petite to still be taller than them

It kind of sucks that's the case because I am not that interested in girls that are super short, like bellow 5'2. I'd prefer girls that are closer to my height. I'd still give them a chance, but that's because I can't afford to be picky.

>>31098878
It's the assumed emotion people default to if you avoid them or are acting distant, and you don't provide them with a reason why you are that's valid or acceptable unfortunately. Even if you are acting different than normal people can assume you're distant or avoiding them. It's really a failure of communication that causes this, it can probably be cleared up by talking to them or simply spending time with them. Unfortunately though these assumptions are most common in people with bad trust or abandonment issues. Really shitty situation.

I met my old friend last week and I think I have a crush on her. We have similar educational backgrounds and I just think that she's smart and mature. I didn't think about asking her number until I went home because well I just expected a nostalgia reunion with some of our old friends too. All I know is I'm in love with her.

>>31099177
You can’t turn a whore into a housewife

How can I search /adv/ archives?

when you look at me you see depression
but i aint lack i always stay with my weapon
always with my homies! that ain't a question
aint know how to suck a dick let me teach you a lesson

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FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Every time I try to love someone I end up hurting them. I bleed my wounds all over them and drown them. I can't beat myself up too much because it's not my fault that I'm so hurt, but every time that I feel that I have gotten better and could try to approach someone it becomes painfully clear to me that I have so many wounds to mend still. Emphasis on "painfully".
I feel cursed, as if I am destined to feel immense sorrow and frustration in my life. At this point I have gotten used to the pain, it's just a dull ache now. But whenever I try to reach out and be honest with people, I am reminded that they are not used to the negativity that I'm used to. And it usually disturbs people to their core. And I feel so guilty about it. I can't help it, this is who I am. I have learned to be reclusive and keep it to myself most of the time, but nonetheless I too long for companionship. I'm not a monster, I'm a human being. But if the most common reaction that people have of me is fear, I should listen. After all, they're just reacting to my acting. And I act like a lunatic.
So where do I go? I could remain locked in my room and spare the world of my insanity. But I'm so tired of that. And then I try to get out and connect with people and I push them away. I'm not ill intended, I'm not purposely trying to scare anyone. I'm just trying to be honest.

>>31099417
How do you hurt them?

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Missing you tonight (every night). I was remembering how enjoyable even something as simple as getting ice cream was, with you. It made you so happy, you’re so cute. I love you so much still. Why did I have to lose someone so special?

>>31099449
By just being myself. Which translates to someone who is hurt, depressed, insecure, anxious, needy, obsessive, ignorant. And when I open myself to people, all of that invariably comes out.

>>31095017
How do I merge good personality traits of multiple guys to be satisfied with men for once in my life?

>>31099417
Just find someone like me. I'm as messed up as you are, you could never scare me off.

>>31099521
I agree that I just haven't found someone that can handle the pressure that I put out. But such people are so rare. Not trying to sound arrogant, quite the opposite. I'm too bent out of shape for most people.

>>31094679
>>31094726
well you seem alright, i wish most men had half the self reflection that you do but majority of them really do just straight up fucking suck and are terrifying, women literally live among monsters im sorry that it hurts your feelings but if men werent so fucking cruel and insane things would be way more normal, they 100% deserve to get criticized heavily, they are a threat and half of the population, you start telling men they are good people they will run with it and never self reflect even thought all of you need to be way more aware than they are about their actions, the natural male behavior is to be violent and oppressive. literally ingrained in them and no amount of feminism will ever fix it, all women can do is chastise them and deny the really shitty ones pussy but a lot of women even suck at that passing on the mans trash can genes. breaking the modern man down is important for the species evolution.

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>turning 21 in a few months
what the hell, I feel like I just turned 19 a few months ago. Why can't time just fucking stop

I did something cringy about 5 months ago and 2 people in the neighborhood saw me and looked at me in horror. I can't stop thinking about it. I am writhing. It was a stressful period of time for me and I was on edge. Now I have to change my appearance to make sure those 2 never recognize me.

>>31099711
congrats on 25

>>31095077
Why are you replying to my post
>>31099497
Meditate, dream, get a reality bending bf

I'm starting to get really fed of up with my new girlfriend.

We've been dating for about 5 months. We have a lot more in common than I did with any of my previous girlfriends (similar hobbies, similar jobs, similar sense of humor).

The problem is her temper/expectations of things.

For example, the other day I asked her where some food was and she snapped at me. (She expected me to know where it was rather than ask her.)

Or, she really doesn't like my cat (she gets upset whenever he does something that she doesn't like).

I mostly have fun hanging out with her but I'm getting kind of tired of how she behaves.

Kind of like, I can't really relax around her because I'm not sure if some (what I would count as) minor thing is going to set her off.

When she gets upset it never lasts long but it kind of ruins my mood for a little bit afterwards.

I've told her multiple times I don't like how she acts but she keeps doing it.

Is this worth breaking up over?

Is this really happening? Why are you doing this?

>>31098039
Lol. Nta. Soon it will be the norm for whites to be weirdos in order to get anywhere, they need to end the blood line. Terrible.

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I remember saying it was like teen love, and then subsequently reacting with immaturity to all negative developments and turning things really sour where they were once amicable.

I hope one day you’ll be able to laugh at this (and me) despite it all. I really didn’t know any better

I wish he never broke my heart. It will take a lifetime to get over you.

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Love really is the answer, I guess.

>>31099948
cope harder

>>31099948
Tell me about it. But what can you do?

>>31099964
Don't think that's possible.
>>31099965
I guess die a slow death if it's in my cards. Restart next lifetime if I am lucky.

>>31099976
How charming was this guy that life feels like it’s over without him? Damn, must’ve been hella magnetic

>>31099976
imagine feeling like it's over because of one failed relationship

>>31099983
he was so sweet, funny and kind and he always stood up for me when I talked about my parents or bad friends
>>31099999
your quints made it reality

>>31099999
Glued my balls
It was inevitable, baby
this could have happened to anyone
life is just fun like that
>quints

I'm so confused, I feel like I'm going crazy.

>>31100017
He wasn’t sweet and kind enough to really love you.

I'm hurt and angry. I wish I had wasted some much time on you and done so much for you. It all seems so futile.

My girlfriend was sleeping on the couch. I said hey, why don't you come over here (my bed) and cuddle. She did. Last night was the first time we made love, before that we'd only 69'd. Thanks for coming to my TED talk.

it's hard to tell

I don't screw random sluts anymore. Now I care about women and date them. I'm a changed man. CHANGED

It's difficult to cope with knowing that you'll never be enough.

https://youtu.be/qD_Sygcsabk?feature=shared

>>31100347
doesnt matter, you are tainted. stick to the sluts, you deserve eachother

I'm starting to think I really am crazy.

My ex tried to reconnect, showing me notes I had written her back in 83. It was like reading someone else's mail, made me feel weird.

>>31100383
93*
jesus fuck I'm not that old

I get happy whenever I see the letter A because I love you.

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>>31100394
Hell yeah

>>31100295
Yeah I know. I guess I have never been truly loved by another man. I feel like if I found someone else who actually loved with with the same looks I would be happy. I think a lot of it is imprinting for me so I just have a difficult type to find in the wild now.

In all aspects of life I hate losing more than anything else. And this time I put my heart on the line and now I don't have a good idea what the next move is. I feel like I've lost and I HATE it. I can't stand it.

I'm terrified I won't see you again

>>31100433
well... what did he look like?

>>31100451
Iirc he is mixed native american anf white but he had sharp yet delicate features. Cat like, upper canthal tilt eyes, nice full enough lips. Sort of a slightly bumped button nose? Beauty marks. Brown hair that could almost seem ashy or blonde with ginger in it depending on lighting. Skinny/lean build with glasses. Pale but could tan well. Very pretty/handsome, rare breed. Nice hands and great smile. Soft. Can't grow a beard.

I can no longer cope.

>>31100318
How old are you?

I hate that I never got high in my life and I am very insecure about that fact, and none of my friends are willing to/can help me achieve this. Because of it, I am 25 years old who has never gotten high in his entire life. It sucks/

My favorite moment was when she said good morning to me 14 years ago 45 minutes before school started. I felt blessed that day.

Do you realise that I compulsively scan the board every night before I go to bed and search through the threads looking for anything you've posted and I can essentially always tell when it’s you and lately the things I’ve seen have made me feel frantic and sick with jealousy and I fucking hate myself for doing it and it’s not even a dopamine kick anymore it just hurts and I need to talk to you so badly and I don’t know why I can’t stop please make it stop

He will never love me like I hoped he would. Life is so dark without mutual love.

I have not had sex with my wife for 10 months now. I am very close to divorcing her, because of this and other reasons.

>>31100612
Just have sex with your girlfriend, duh

I have avoided sleep to avoid seeing you I my dreams. It hurts too much waking up. I try to numb it with coffee and sunshine and my cat checking up on me.

Can you imagine if pornstars had like brand deals and they would get logos tatooed on them that would be dumb ha ha lol any way bye

>>31100818
like just tatted up like nascar

Little fuckers have been going at it pretty much non-stop for roughly 12 hours again.

>>31100491
Are you alright ):

Is it selfish how much I wish I could be there for you? I worry so much
But maybe that’s more about me than you and I can’t stand it

Damn. Both tablets got fucked up.

Sugar Free Lemon Lime Gatorade kind of tastes like, I don't know, bad water

>>31101036
Feel this

>>31099065
Yeah i suppose i will give it a go, especially as i'm currently in the process of checking out a couple of cheaper apartments today.