How do I get endorphins without hitting myself? I don't like to go outside because I'm alone all the time. I don't have the money to join a club and meet new people bc and my job has weird hours and pays me badly. I'm fat so I'm embarrassed to exercise outside. If I jog my knees hurt and get wobbly the next day.Pretty much the only things that make me feel good anymore are jacking off, hookups with men I don't like, eating, and slapping/choking myself. What are some ways I can get endorphins without hurting my body (example: drugs are off the table).Backstory: My friends all left me because my boyfriend took an edible, asked me to fuck him, and said it was sexual assault later. He said I should have known he was too high (I didn't know and if I had, I wouldn't have done it). So yeah, I'm an outcast w a bad reputation w just enough money to get by, I can't like take a ceramics class and meet art milfs
