I am a quarter Japanese born and raised in the good ol US of A. I decided pretty late (turning 30 soon) that I want to learn the language and try to get closer with my family and the people over there. I have a decently strong desire to try to live and make a family over there. I have been learning for half a year and I am making good progress (able to text my aunt in Japanese and understand her responses) but I can't help but feel like I've started this way too late as I have the following obligations that worry me>CareerI work as a aircraft mechanic and got VERY lucky to have the job I have. The only reasonable way I could go to Japan is if I worked on a nearby island base for the company and commute to Japan (4hr flight for free) 4 days out of the week. They have a base in Japan, but the process of getting a visa is on me. My company doesn't sponsor people. I am at a VERY good location currently. So unless I know for sure that leaving that way is a good idea, I am not doing it.>Dad died and I have to deal with a bunch of shitleft over paperwork galore. I am the executor so I have to resolve a bunch of shit he left undone before I fuck off a day's flight away from the U.S.>Mom is getting oldShe just turned 69 and while even though she's in good shape for now, I can't help but feel worried for her. My NEET sister lives with her for now and helps her occasionally. She isn't the best but she helps.