i really fucked up my life by standing my ground against my peiece of shit dad. It really just made my life harder. I couldnt even pretend to go along with his bullshit to get what I want. I tell myself to do that and naturally I just cant stand to be around him. And im genuinely stupid for not just relenting and only focusing on saving money to disappear. instead I just fall on my face. im such a fucking idiot. every desicion ive made has been so stupid and idealistic. I suffer so much more at my own retarded view of the world. Everyone enjoys when my life is fucked up. they arent going to help me. yet im still in a position where i cant help myself enough to live on my own. it wasnt worth it. I wonder whos fault it truly is. All i know is im not going to be able to breathe until im out of this. I need to be financially independent, its literally LITERALLY ruining my life and making me go fucking crazy.
>>31531438Practice self-compassion. Practice forgiveness. Practice not making awful, self-depreciating, threads.
