When I was 16 I made a fictional version of myself to represent myself online, mainly as a form of autistic self-expression because I've never had more than 50 followers on anything. At 20 years old now, I have become attached and still view myself as this persona I created. I've found myself wanting to grow up and grow into someone different, but I can't let go.I've always been very individualistic and have never had many friends, nor do I have any now. I spend my time outside of work alone and socially isolated, playing vidya and creating stuff and generally am a bit of a loser - I've never even drank or been to a party; even at 16, I knew this and embraced who I was despite my shortcomings, so the way I portrayed myself was as a scruffy, rowdy and laidback loser, but innocent from my lack of social ties and a stubborn lack of a desire to fit in. As much as I'd like to 'grow up' and change into the person I want to be and someone who actually takes themselves seriously, I look at that retarded little character I made at 16 and see both past and current me reflected in it: that is me, and I don't think I can change on such a fundamental level. I know how mental I sound, but what do I do?
>>31535467I literally do not understand any of what you typed. Touch grass
>>31535467get off the internethttps://www.bitchute.com/video/mdV9i2yAZ40n
>>31535489>Touch grassI’m not a complete shut-in, I think I’m fine. My job is good and I go for walks in my free time.>>31535549And do what?
>>31535467Realised I was a little vague in the OP so a TLDR: I made a little cartoon version of myself to use an avatar online and projected my loser personality onto it, like a fictional character. I want to change myself but I’ve become some attached and still see my whole being in that fictional version that there’s no way I can change. What should I do?
>>31535702Obviously change, why be a loser
>>31535759I went into more depth in the OP but I doubt I can change on such a base level. I’m very socially isolated, don’t get on well with most others and am relatively innocent due to never really growing up through my teen years. The persona I made reflects that and I embrace these traits because it’s who I am, yet I also know that deep down, as attached as I am to the person I am now, I still want to change.Apologies if I’m not making sense, it’s late for me.
>>31535809Grow beyond your comfort zone. Some furry persona you made won't get you through life anon. You can be a winner not a loser
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>>31535467I recommend distancing yourself from the baudrillardian hell that is teh interwebz
>>31535851>Grow beyond your comfort zone?How?>Some furry persona you made won't get you through life anon. You can be a winner not a loserTrue, but at the same time I think that being a loser is exactly in line with who I am as a person and has become a core part of my identity over the years. I'm not a furry.>>31537523I don't use social media much if at all anymore, I mostly browse here to discuss my interests. I don't have any friends online or off so it's not like there's anyone on the net to influence me.
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>>31535467Nothing wrong with that, just use it to better yourself and not purely to engage in degenerate furry RPing.
>>31539118>just use it to better yourselfHow? Not trying to be difficult but I'm not sure I understand where to go from here.>degenerate furry RPing.I swear I'm not a furry... my sona is just me but anime...
