Why do I hate being alone all the time but also hate hanging out with friends? Whenever I hang out with people I start to feel this creeping sense of dread and panic and lose interest in talking to them after a couple minutes yet when I go long periods of time without interacting with people I am miserable.Should I just kill myself?
You have autism and never learned how to socialize and bond on a basic level.
Are you capable of being completely candid with your friends?
>>31536729Maybe, I have only ever been diagnosed with OCD and Tourette's though.>>31536783Yeah but they show zero interest or make fun of me when I am.
>>31536720You don't know God so you have no joy or peace.
this is how its been for me for like ages now. i can pretend to be enjoying a conversation with other people/friends but in reality i dont really care what they are talking about and dont receive any kind of enjoyment from interacting with them. but if i dont have a group of people i just feel like a loser.
>>31537377That is basically what I feel like. I start to lose my mind when I am overly isolated but never actually enjoy or make good use of the time I spend around other people. It's weird, I wish I could just be alone all the time and not feel weird about it or start becoming depressed about not having friends.
