Hey fellas.Long story short: I've been a KHHV my entire life (20yo) until I dated this girl for like 3-4 months that shattered my heart. It seems like not much of a time, but we spent weeks and lots of time together. It's been 3 months since we broke up. If it starts fast... it will end fast. I've been second guessing myself, like if I fucked up, rephrasing the final letter, basically coping over a bitch.Even though I couldn't see a future with her, neither could I see an end to our relationship. She had bipolar disorder or BPD, one of both (this is fact checked). Before I got yelled at, I will confirm that love is blind. Nevertheless, I should've stopped when I found out but I gave her the benefit of the doubt.Some days are harder than others. Today I had a extremely lucid dream with her that brought up so many memories. It ruined my entire day. I feel a strong, deep, anguish. Also I had a dream of her texting me back, even my subconscious is coping.I haven't contacted her again, even though in the back of my head there's that dangling feeling that I need to do that. If I contact her and get told to fuck off, I would feel even worse than now. Probably not worth it, right?She's crazy so whatever I think she felt during what we had is fake.So I got the chance to encarnate the La La Land guy, I got to live an epic fucking romantic movie with a sad ending IRL. Myself from a year ago would've killed for this.There has not been a single day that I don't think about it, yet. I try to ignore the pain, but there's no avoiding it; it still hurts. >Date more girls!I've been able to get sex again but it's just not... ideal.>Time will healI know. But the healing process doesn't feel like a straight line.>Don't stick your dick in crazyI had to learn this the hard way.Maybe it's because she was my first love, I will be left with this coping for the rest of my life?I should just roll with the punches?Please share your break-up experiences with me.
>>31542782The amount of beta simp faggots crying over a bitch today is ridiculous, just shut the fuck up, no one fucking cares!
