i feel that i am not deserving of love or support, or good things for that matter because "i haven't earned it'. ever since i was a kid, i had a hard time accepting it, just always felt that it should've went to someone worthy or needed it more than i did. it hadn't become a real issue until i had started seeing this girl and more or less fucked it up because something in me believed that i didn't deserve her. what is wrong with me
>>31586376Only Allah truly knows what we deserve
>>31586402i wish i could know
>>31586376sounds like childhood issues. i had similar issues. my mom was fairly abusive. she made sure to let me know how hard she worked and that i could live with my deadbeat homeless father if i didn’t like it. i wasn’t allowed to develop my personality much until i left home. i settled for less because my self-esteem was in the gutter, and i never could trust women enough to believe they wanted to be with me. once i got away from her, i felt true happiness for the first time, it was weird. but i saw the true nature of women and how they can tear your life apart. i avoided vulnerability and never believed that i was worthy of love, always a burden. they key for me was finding a career that gave me self-esteem and worldly worth. i could compare my life trajectory and realized that i was someone of value. this led to better relationships, whereas my previous ones were about pleasing the woman so she wouldn’t abandon me. obviously this doomed any sort of relationship i had.
