Honestly I have no idea what I'm doing wrong I'm trying to be nice and I've completely changed my personality yet people still treat me like shit it's so annoying all I wanna do is have a nice chat with someone and not feel as if I'm disposable all the time i expected not being able to talk to people that well because I spent five months not talking to anyone and I had an abusive stepdad situation and the crippling porn addiction I have but I've been good to people I haven't said anything bad at all even if they piss me off or make me upset WHAT THE FUCK DO PEOPLE WANT FROM ME I'm sick of feeling so restricted all the time I can't risk dark humour I can't risk having an opinion even if I show an ounce of bad emotion I get completely fucking ignored it's so so soooo fucking irritating my autism doesn't help either sometimes I spout the most random shit and they act like I've committed several acts of terrorism even tho i have friends i always feel so lonely and it makes me so depressed and that feeling makes it really hard to talk to other people
>>31675573Maybe try communicating with people offline. You've been online way too much and have been hit by toxicity.Well done on getting past the difficult stuff in your past. Keep your successes in your mind. Take some time to calmly think over your problems. You have a lot on your mind and it's so mixed up it's like a giant tangle of cables. You need to pick it all apart to make sense of things.
>>31675573Make yourself into the self you want to be and then, be that self. Make them deal with it if they don’t like it. Be yourself right to their face. Don’t hold back. Don’t hesitate.
