>26>Badly addicted to weed, alcohol, porn, nicotine, caffeine for a while now>KHV, never been on a real date, had 3 hookups, two of which were gay and I felt extremely bad after, while the other was an older woman who sucked my dick from AFF>Only child living with parents, can't hold job down for more than a year until addictions cause me to quit>Parents scream at each other nightly, dad is a lifelong alcoholic and mom is morbidly obese with countless health issues>In around 20k in debt between medical, credit cards, and loans>Went to school for electronics but forgot all of the theory and haven't soldered in years>Only positive thing is kickboxing, which I am obsessed with and work out constantly in order to fight, figure ill either do well or kill myself. >Still skip class most nights due to drinking or drug use, watching people newer than me but sober pass by in terms of skill and getting fightsI feel so fucking terrible every day, I feel like im drowning in all of the things I need to do to fix my life, my parents eventually dying, my lack of relationship experience, the pressure of being a good teammate at the gym, all of it. Any progress I make I undo and dig myself deeper. I have no consistent routines/hygiene, my sleep is fucked, most days I don't even know where to start, then ill commit to something, make it a week or two, then throw it all away again. I'm starting to wonder if I actually need medication or something because I can barely function and its been years and years of trying.
>>32008429I won't read hopelessly addicted threads. Nothing to be done.
