I honestly feel unlovable, my life has made me so incredibly exhausted and bitter that I can barley fathom the idea of anyone putting up with me. I’m a high functioning alcoholic, I have a severe porn addiction which has given me a extremely warped sense of sexuality and I barley take care of myself anymore. I generally just spend my time reading, fapping and drinking.Physical speaking I’m 20, short (175cm), constantly dry skin from lack of hydration, I used to be pretty built but I’ve gotten fat (85kg around 20-25% body fat), dark circles under my eyes from a lack of sleep and a overbite.My two saving graces is that I have a good bone structure (people used to tell me I could model before I let myself go) and social skills enough to be considered funny and likeable by my friends and most people I meet.
