Today I dreamt with my ex, I can't seem to recall everything, but in my dream I found out she was dead, she had been dead for some time actually and I felt like shit for only having found out about it then. I had missed her funeral and all that made me extremely sad, I felt like contacting her family but felt like they'd hate me for not having gone to the funeral, and I started crying. When I woke up I felt that thing were you slowly come to the realisation that you were dreaming, checked social media to see if she was alive and she of course was. I feel like I had this dream cause in a week it's going to be her birthday. We broke up a little over a year and a half by now. I at least tell myself that I've gotten over her but that's not completely true. I kinda of try to block myself from thinking about her whenever she comes to mind and I've been actively trying with other girls albeit with no success so far, but if I'm to be honest with myself I just have the feeling I won't ever have a relationship like the one I had with her, she was my highschool sweetheart and knew me as much if not better than my own parents. I had forgotten about the dream but what really motivated me to write this was that today I used the Youtube telivision app, which I pretty much never use, and I realised that my search history is all stuff I watched with her. That hit me too hard in the feels, felt like I was suddenly back to when we were together having fun, making out teasing each other and all that sweet stuff. Does that longing ever really go away?
You sound like a cool dude, anon. If you really love someone, you do not ever get ‘over them’, you learn how to live with it while loving other people. No, you won't ever have the experience you had with her, this is obvious, time only goes foward, but you cam find something which is also beautiful and great later in life.
>>32321965the longing does go away because you start to forget the details that made it so specialfor example i was absolutely heartbroken 5 years ago because i lost a really sweet girl due to my own mistakesnow i cant remember any real details about our relationship other than her being a really cool girlnow im in a toxic relationship which is the complete opposite lol
>>32321965Kek if I found out my ex was dead it'd bring me so much peace, too bad not all dreams come true
