My mom is cold, judgemental, and overall a bitch. Everytime I got close to her she felt extremely comfortable to start some shit. She could be really nice to hang out with, but all of sudden super angry, always walking on eggshells when talking to her. Yet always blaming me for wanting to be alone, not even bothering to hear that I wanted nothing to do with her. She doesnt want help, cant take any advice but her own, and I have a brother she treats better. Apparently Im the only one who feels this visceral about her. Im a grown ass man and I still stutter like a kid sometimes. She's also recently found she has cancer. Advanced stages. And she's relatively young (60s). Since she found out, She started talking to family she hasn't talked to for over a year. We fought a lot, but we managed to get her a pension/retirement funds with investments and Im still in debt because of it. Who she is now is the best shes ever gonna get and shes basically the reason I cant even talk properly to people. There is nothing to do now to improve our relationship, and I cant even enjoy our last moments together because I really cant see her for a loving mother. She wants to get close but I always remember her for what she really is, and she still thinks Im overreacting. I honestly dont even know why she even wants to live. She fought so hard to have the freedom to sit all day and watch korean dramas, being angry with people, and a massive bitch. I honestly feel like she has a neurological disorder for how weirdly she perceives empathy. What should I do with these feelings? How do I cope better? I wanna get along but she is still herself, I was even planning to go no contact and fuck off as far as I could. She wants to get close but shes still herself.
>>32322181>I was even planning to go no contact and fuck off as far as I could.This, it's not your job to regulate other people's emotions. It doesn't matter if she's dying. That doesn't justify her mistreatment of you. Your self-esteem, mental and emotional health is just as important as her wellbeing and if she's going to be cancer herself to you than cut her off permanently. Save yourself. You are justified.
>>32322181>She's also recently found she has cancer>1. Remove self from cancer-causersEMF pollution, monsanto food, chemicals in water, chemicals in the air, etc. Practically impossible to 100% avoid in a world polluted by psychopaths but doing something is better than nothing.>2. Do a parasite cleanseThey are responsible for most diseases.>3. Use the power of chlorine dioxideA simple, cheap, and easy to make molecule that cures just about everything without giving negative side effects. It's also known as MMS (Miracle Mineral Solution).>4. Grounding>>>/wsg/5727066Overall it's said that cancer is caused by karma. If she heals her cancer then I guess she also healed her karma.
