I was always a sensitive child, but things got especially bad when I developed what was later diagnosed as depression at 16. I still find it strange that I can pinpoint exactly when it happened because it coincided with a sharp drop off in my academic performance. I'd always done well in school, but I remember everything losing all meaning within the space of about a week. Before that point, I'd never really questioned "why" I did anything – I suppose the feeling of getting high grades was enough satisfaction and then when that lost all significance, I had no motivation left to study.Somehow, I still managed to get the grades to scrape into medical school but I've never fully recovered since. If anything, things just seems to have got worse over time. My heart isn't really in it, and I've thought about quitting several times, but I know it'll make my life even worse. I tell myself things will be better when I graduate, but I feel like I'm lying to myself.It didn't help that I grew up Muslim but realized a year or so ago that I didn't believe in revealed religion any more. I always used the idea of God to console myself but now the only crutch I had is gone. I never developed any other coping mechanisms and I feel inadequately prepared to deal with the challenges of life. My parents are also classic hard-working 1st generation immigrants and they always expected a lot from me.I don't know what I want. I guess I'm just desperate. Depression has taken everything away from me and significantly impacted the quality of my experience in secondary school and university. I feel my youth has been stolen by this unending emptiness.
Clinically depressed anon here, here’s my advice >dont listen to social media, the gym, nature and eating fad diets don’t actually “cure” depression. If you enjoy these things force yourself to do them, however >stay away from politics. There’s a reason why the people who let it take over their personality are always miserable people >take up an artistic hobby and give yourself away to it. Music, painting, sculpting, writing even if it’s just miniatures or something. Expressing yourself instead of being locked in your head is very important >if you’re a deep thinker and find yourself in disassociation station too often, put yourself into more uncomfortable situations that aren’t unhealthy, like making mistakes practising something or travelling >don’t expect medicine to fix you. I’ve went through so many pills and therapies but they’re either a bandaid fix or they don’t last >talk to a therapist but find one that takes the situation seriously.>be careful about the relationships you choose, be accountable for your problems and don’t expect people to be sympathetic to things that come along with it like fatigue or being a shut in.>remember depression comes with delusions like every other mental illness. You’re not more sensitive or understanding than others, you have a problem that effects your lifeCheers anon. I hope it gets better for you
>>32322662Cheers for the reply anon>take up an artistic hobby and give yourself away to it. Music, painting, sculpting, writing even if it’s just miniatures or something. Expressing yourself instead of being locked in your head is very importantI never learned to play a musical instrument but I enjoy writing to some extent. >if you’re a deep thinker and find yourself in disassociation station too often, put yourself into more uncomfortable situations that aren’t unhealthy, like making mistakes practising something or travellingI definitely ruminate a lot. I do feel like being distracted with something makes me do that less. Just hard to find that motivation sometimes.>be careful about the relationships you choose, be accountable for your problems and don’t expect people to be sympathetic to things that come along with it like fatigue or being a shut in.This is a big one for me. I feel lonely but deep down I know it's due to me being too retarded/depressed. I regret not taking the initiative to develop friendships early on in uni. Feels like everyone has their groups now. I was still able to make a couple of friends through sheer luck but they either graduated/dropped out/don't reply to my texts any more.
It's literally this simple to solve. I'm sorry it hurts to hear because its so boring and you'd like to have it take herculean effort to undo your negative malaise but>Be positiveDo it consistently, don't let negative thoughts in (distract or think positive outcomes) and tell me your life isnt a 180 in 6 months.
>>32322768I just naturally tend towards negativity somehow. It takes an insane amount of effort for me to not believe that I'm justified in perceiving life as unmitigated suffering. Like I genuinely struggle to understand how people find joy in life.
>>32322796You're just used to it is all, cure is literally positive thinking. There's a lot going into "deepression" including an industry of weird drugs that supposedly cause suicidal thoughts in the patients their treating? well, they sell a LOT of those and the idea that negative thinking is "Something you do a lot". In reality, it's easy to overcome those feelings brought on by negative thoughts by not having them.Anyways, you asked, this is the actual cure. You can waste years figuring this out on your own or just trust your instincts telling you i'm right.
