Would be great if you didn’t have to take drugs so you don’t have to feel tired. You should figure out the cause of your hallucinations and psychosis and look into alternative treatments that don’t involve these drugs.

>>32325603
>cause of your hallucinations and psychosis
its called schizophrenia .retard

As someone in their mid 30s with undiagnosed schizophrenia (dad has it severely, brother has it, paternal gran has it, and was always told gran's mam was a nutter) and remain unmedicated i'll share some questions, and thoughts best as I can, apologies if they don't make much sense.
How severe are your halloucinations? Are the audio only or visual too? Have you tried self medicating, and with what? What were the effects of that if so?

My schizo stuff is intermittent, I've been mostly plateau'd for the last 6 years due to being in a stable relationship with some bouts of paranoia and delusions but nothing mad. This year I reconnected with an ex and realised I don't love my current partner despite us having a kid, despite her bringing me mostly peace to my life. There has always been passion missing. I wholeheartedly love my ex as much as I do my child but it's also sent me spiralling in to obsessive delusions of running away in a fairytale. I can feel myself smashing against the rocks and I can't stop myself because I threw the brakes away. I'm not sure my ex feels the same and is using me because of her extremely troubled past, a dependency she has on self medicating, and a difficult home situation, but what can I do. I guess where I'm going with this is do your absolute best to find some kind of peace and stability, even if it's not perfect, because chasing the dream, whatever it is, is going to lead to disappointment. I kissed my ex for the first time in 8 years yesterday but it wasn't enough. It's never going to be enough. And I've thrown peace away for madness.
So don't be too hard on yourself OP, sometimes we have to settle with knowing the problem exists but are helpless to stop it.

>>32325610
No, schizophrenia is not a cause it’s a name for a collection of symptoms. Hope you let others think for you all the time and took the vax too retard.

I have the same issue.
Removing distractions and getting bored enought that I want to study has been the only way. It's torturous.

>>32325603
>You should figure out the cause of your hallucinations and psychosis
it's just schizophrenia, got unlucky brain genetics, there's not much more to it
>look into alternative treatments
did it, seen other people do it, they don't work
>>32325630
>How severe are your halloucinations? Are the audio only or visual too?
they weren't very severe even before I got diagnosed and started taking meds, and they were both auditory and visual
my main issues were paranoia, negative symptoms and becoming less and less smart
>Have you tried self medicating
my family tried to medicate me with random plants and meme diets (keto, vegan, carnivore)
none of it had any impact
>My schizo stuff is intermittent
mine is very consistent across time
>So don't be too hard on yourself OP
i have no choice, i need to study to lower my chances of being stuck with a crappy job i hate

>>32325630
i forgot
>Have you tried self medicating, and with what?
i've tried n-acetylcysteine and some other supplement i can't remember the name of on my own, didn't help much either

>>32325716
Can I ask what your home life was/is like growing up and have you ever been able to identify any triggers that have resulted in more "real" halloucinations, or produced a particularly sustained continuation of halloucinations?
I ask about self medicating because I know someone who had done it with microdosing. He microdosed for about 2 years followed by being sectioned indefinitely after a pretty extreme psychotic episode. This is a person who had schizophrenia induced by weed in his 20's, so.. As for me I've been sober for about 10 years now apart from one trip about 7 years ago. I've self medicated with promazine, something else I can't remember the name of, and quite often sleeping tablets like zopiclone due to insomnia too but overall I'm like you I generally manage better with nothing. So maybe that's the answer, drop the meds.

>>32325716
Here’s one more meme though probably you have tried it already.

After no drugs learn to live with hallucinations (I guess this is the easy part) and learn to be mindful to recognize when your paranoia starts so you can label the paranoid thoughts as caused by your state so they feel less serious, when you can in the moment recognize them as being paranoia. I guess to name the meme it is mindfulness meditation or something like that.

>>32325633
It’s genetic and once triggered cannot be undone

>>32325822
Jesus Christ, I don’t know if you are the same 80 IQ as who replied earlier but “In a small percentage of cases, people can recover from schizophrenia entirely” “ Experts haven’t found one specific cause of schizophrenia, so they can’t say for sure if genetics cause schizophrenia.” So, wrong wrong wrong, everything you say and do is wrong, you cannot do anything right. And that’s the last reply I will give to mouth breathers.

>>32325846
You are kinda evil

>>32325782
that's essentially what i've tried to do with my therapist
no matter how much insight or awareness you have of your delusional thoughts it's nearly impossible not to treat them as real
only exposure therapy for one type of delusion worked