haven't posted here in years... just thinking of giving up. sober for 2 years... Im tired. stressed.. cant get a break and I need a drink... nothing works out the way you want it to in life. you can work yourself into an early grave and your body betrays you just to scrape by... partners cheat on or abandon you... getting older... tired of going through this life alone... working out doesnt help... muscles dont help... eating right... exercising... therapy... everyone in this life abandons you in the end. we are born into this world alone and we die alone... birthday is coming up and I dont see what the point of life is anymore. everyone disappoints you and the world is messed up
>>32323251just start drinking, it's not a healthy cope but heck if it keeps you alive why not? I personally enjoy beers and drink here and there. I get what you mean, life gets harder as you age, best we can do is cope.
You can be the same person in the same circumstances and have a different experience because of perspective, which can be influenced by your viewpoint, your beliefs and your behaviors, your emotions. There's an illness called cyclothymic disorder, and these people even with medication a lot of the time can go from where someone like you might very well be, to the next day seeing the world in a positive, nourishing light. They can skip back and forth one day to the next and answer the same question in different ways, and they're telling the truth at either time.I don't know if this could be what's possible for you, but for a lot of people they could be in a funk and start experiencing something really worthwhile once they reach that other side. That could mean the inclusion or removal of any number of things.I have people in my life who don't disappoint me but who help make me feel more fulfilled. It's rare we keep a friend throughout the life time, and it's rare we make true friends, partners for most are rare. Those most likely to stay with us until the end may be siblings and other family but yeah that's not the same for everyone. Of course as you know it's not a one size fits all pattern and the layout of the puzzle that's your life and perspective is uniquely yours. Some people in your situation will give up before they make it out what can potentially be a bad few months, years, and some simply will, and that's on to some degree all there is to the matter. And this may not mean much but I'm rootin' for you anon.When did you first use this place?
>>32323251i started drinking again after 3 years sober and it was fine for a bit but i just had a pretty terrible string of nights nowsent a bunch of embarassing texts and i feel like the absolute scum of the earth
>>32323298drank for two years after my partner cheated on me with another girl... all I do is work and workout and I got nothing. Been abused my entire life, had cigs snuffed out on me, burned, bullied, broke nose... beaten repeatedly... for what...Just tired of going through Hell and not getting a break. I got nothing to hold onto.
>>32323316My viewpoint is Im just tired and fed up and not going to do this anymore. My emotions are dull, the world doesnt make sense, I work all day and go home to an empty bed. The people I want in my life never have the time to spend with me. I have nothing to be positive about in my life. I'm getting blind, old, dumb, depressed. Possibilities are dwindling... and I dont want to keep going regardless... I could potentially begin too 6 figures next month... whats the point of it all? Money isnt worth a damn to me. Love doesnt exist. I got nothing, my friends are dead or on drugs or living their own lives. My mind's tired my body's fucked up and scarred. Everyone I date is looking to run around on me. Again and again. I want one decent partner. Friends that care about me. anything to make all of the hardship worthwhile... 12 years ago. >>32323317I cant speak much about self control when Im on the verge of breaking my sobriety... dont do that. Learn from it... pick yourself up and move forward. Thats not any worse than what Ive seen friends do when theyre drunk. At least you didnt sleep with someones boyfriend.>>32323340Love isnt real. Everyone is using each other. I can barely afford to eat right now. Dinner doesnt taste good when youre alone. Music doesnt help anymore. Im tired of holding out for something better that isnt going to come.
>>32323366I think I might be going to a similar fate as the one you're describing. I'm in my early 30s with my foot in the door to a position I believe will be gratifying and keep me wanting to work. My future as far as relationships I see as pretty bleak. I won't have much family and those I do have will either want nothing to do with me or will be dead by the time the older ones have gone. Have you considered seeing a psychiatrist? If you've reached the end of your rope, and you ended up starting a regimen of something, it could help alleviate it and make your life not only less grim and tiresome, but you could experience feeling for life such as zeal, and have engagement again. Dating and socializing could get easier and easier, where you may end up eventually turning things around.Doors could open for you anon
>>32323408I don't have anything to keep me going at this point. Haven't enjoyed games in years. Tired of people. Work is terrible.
