This is going to be a long post and I’m going to spill my feelings. I’m a fourth-year male college student, and for most of this time I isolated myself. (I have close male friends, don’t worry). I never went above and beyond for social opportunities, until this semester. I feel bad that I didn’t do this sooner but that’s a different topic. I met a girl who’s a Korean exchange student at my school for a semester. There’s a month left in the semester, and we didn’t hit it off until recently when I told her I like soju and we talked about it for a while and she invited me to drink with her at a Korean restaurant, where we spent five hours eating, drinking soju, and just talking. While we were waiting for our Ubers outside the restaurant, we were holding hands and hugging. That was the most intimate I’ve ever been with a girl, and we were both drunk. I don’t know if it’s because she’s a girl, or because she’s genuinely really nice to me and we share very similar interests and have a lot in common, or because I might be in love with her, or because she’s leaving forever soon, but I feel a deep sense of dread when I think about her, and I think about her all the fucking time. I spent four hours talking with her at the campus library today, and I’m planning to hang out with her this Friday, we’re gonna drink soju and watch a Korean movie. When we parted ways today, I immediately felt a deep sense of dread in my soul, and I still feel it.
Maybe I’m scared I’ll be lonely my whole life, I genuinely don’t know why I feel like this, or what this feeling even is. I think she views me as just a friend, she treats me like one, she’s definitely never flirted with me, but she works at the sushi restaurant on campus and got some for me today, as well as a coffee. I have never flirted with anyone in my entire life and have absolutely no idea how to go about it. If I’m just a friend to her, that’s perfectly fine, I just don’t want to lose her, but it seems inevitable. I don’t want to do anything that will ruin what we already have. She’s not even gone yet, and I’m already depressed over her. When she leaves, I don’t know what will happen, either I will accept it and feel fine, or I’ll be depressed for a while, I have no idea. I’d be fine playing games with her over discord once in a while, but there’s a 12-hour time difference, it’s not realistic. I’m even starting to think I might be selfish for feeling like this about her, just because someone wants to hang out with me and be friends with me, but that someone happens to be a girl all of a sudden I see her as a love interest. I don’t have thick skin, and I have never felt like this before, so I don’t know what is going on with me. Can someone please tell me something that will help sort these feelings out and help me deal with this?
>>32331188>>32331190you'll be okay nigga stop worrying so much. not sure what else to tell you as it seems this whole issue is mostly in your head. you have a korean friend and you spend some time together and she's not a bad person. no crisis like problem is implicit in the situation, you are probably just overthinking all of this shit and that's why you feel like this is some kind of fateful moment. people move on from everything. look for a way to make your future meaningful and stable and that's about all you need to do. how much success you find, what it looks like, when it comes, that's up to god. just do what's up to you.
>>32331188>When she leaves, I don’t know what will happen,Here's what will happen. You will be forever changed, and for the better. You will have had the experience of meeting a girl and discovering that she liked you and you liked her. What once seemed impossible is quite clearly possible. And because you are now aware that it is possible, you will be open to it happening again. The next time you meet a nice girl you will consider reaching out to her. Even better, you will notice when new girls are interested in you.. (How many times in the past has a girl been interested in you and you missed the signs because you just assumed it was impossible? You don't know.)
>>32331798>she liked you and you liked her.>when new girls are interested in youEven if its platonic?
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