I'm not feeling great about who I've become. Back in the day, I was a better person. I had a routine that kept my grades solid without much hassle, and I had time for my hobbies.. Not to mention, I was in better shape, hitting the gym regularly, which now feels almost impossible.So what happened? University hit me in 2023. No student dorms (it's not a common practice in my country), so I had to commute 4-5 times a week, with each trip taking almost two hours (including waiting for the bus). My schedule was a nightmare, and I'd often spend the whole day at uni.Thing is, I was never super disciplined in high school. I aced it because the place was a joke, literally falling apart. I never developed good study habits, started slacking, and realized those people who called me smart were full of it. Now I was still top of my class, but it took way more effort than it should have, and I had no real method. So I basically dropped everything else in my life.Nowadays I struggle to work out more than three days a week. When I’m not slogging through 300+ pages of the driest prose that turns my favorite topics into torture, I’m just scrolling here or on reddit, or staring at the wall. Literally I don't know where my time goes: i don't even play vidya anymore.No real friends either, just classmates I don’t really connect with, and I barely see them after the semester ends. And if I can’t make friends, a girlfriend is out of the question. Honestly, though, sometimes I think socializing, while cool in theory, is just a hassle that’s not always worth it. This mindset probably keeps me from being more outgoing, plus the social anxiety doesn’t help.Any advice? I’ve been trying to get more disciplined and organized with my studies, hoping to free up time for my hobbies. I picked up drawing again after months and am working through the Gerome and Bargue drawing course, watching tutorials, reading books, and seeking critique.But yeah, I feel pretty lost.
>>32333668Any advice…What do you even want? Do you have a win condition for this game? If not, then please tell me you at least have a lose condition?
>>32333739I see my writing was kind of convoluted.Esentially I think I'm less "disciplined" than I was when younger. I used to have more energy, and generally a more "positive" outlook on life.I've dropped several hobbies, I don't work out (I had gotten somewhat comfortable with my body after being fat all my life, just to lose a great portion of what I had achieved so to speak), don't spend as much time with my family). I struggle with college overload, and basically don't do nothing productive outside of it.I don't know if that's clear enough. I would like to be able to manage better my time and regain my focus (I became addicted to the internet and I feel dumber than ever) while also regaining a little the energy I had then to dedicate to self learning and other personal interests.
>>32333668bro you are like 19 you are not a "shadow of your past self" you are a fucking giga zoomer undergrad. finish your degree. simple as.
>>32333668I was / am in kind of a similar situation. In high school, I was on top of my shit, doing extremely well and winning awards for animations & shit, watching self development videos on yt etc. Then I took a couple years off, my friend group fell apart, joined a university, became addicted to the internet, then my relationship started falling apart.The thing that really helped me put my life back on tracks was starting a worldbuilding project where I joined all my ideas and plans into one fictional universe which allowed me to use all of my skills, creativity and autistic visions to create something which is actually deeply meaningful to me and which will spawn endless projects for me to work on in the future. Just knowing that I'm working on such a thing has helped me organize myself towards achieving and surpassing my highschool-level self.
>>32334354And? The fact that I'm young doesn't mean I can't notice a decline in my lifestyle. Should I just ignore this disatisfaction just because I'm a "fucking giga zommer"? I think it makes sense I would I want to improve my life while I work towards finishing my degree.>>32334566>starting a worldbuilding project where I joined all my ideas and plans into one fictional universeThanks a lot, I'll definitely look into that. Any resources to start creating my project?
>>32334647>Any resources to start creating my project?Honestly I already had some stories and ideas for animations written down so I just started improvising the whole thing by intuition
